Ye, Not that relationships are terrible things I just prefer this way because no matter how hard I try I can't seem to share the same feelings, I just don't want to love because i know how it ends. I am not concerned if I will ever find someone I will spend the rest of my life with. I am stranded in a sea of doubt, not caring what direction my raft takes me, whether or not I will ever find an island to rest on.
I've had a lot of time to think on it and well, I am better being a friend than a lover. I'm not very romantic, I'm always there for everyone.
Of course I'm not, I really love my girlfriend. the only thing I hate is that I can't be with her all the time and the world turns against us apparently once we're split up again (seriously, I almost thought I was going to be beaten up today... )
My girlfriend took her bus back home and as I still had to wait 15 minutes before my train arrived I decided to wave goodbye until her bus left. When I decided to go to the station hall, I was being approached by a big bald man. He said that he was homeless and needed some change to get a place to sleep. Me, being way too kind, took my wallet to see what I could give. Then suddenly a police car arrived and he said that I should put my wallet away, or he will get a fine or something. At this point I knew something was wrong. He said we should go inside and continue, but I decided to run the other side, close to some other people and the police car. Then I tried to call my girlfriend. When I was trying to call her, the man came out of the station and approached me again. My girlfriend didn't pick up her phone, so I lied that I tried to call someone to get him a place to rest, but couldn't reach him. Then the police car drove away. He asked me again for change, but then I lied again that I needed it to buy a ticket and ran into the station. His voice and just the way he walked and looked reminded me of a criminal, to give you a view of how he looked.
Merle then called me because she saw I tried to call her and tried to calm me down, and she stayed on the phone with me until I was on my train.
Oh, damn D: I can imagine that being scary, I really don't like it when strangers come up to me and ask me for stuff... It makes me panic xc And I hate it when they don't allow you to walk away and gtctgvfgv.
But it didn't stop there. When I arrived in Kortrijk, and there was apparently a soccer match, and you know what that means: drunk supporters.
As I was walking to home, a group of 3 teenagers walked in my direction on the sidewalk, and as the sidewalk is pretty small, I stopped to let them through. Then one of them stroked my hair and said "Hoeren neuken", and then the other one finished the sentence with "nooit meer werken" and just continued walking.
Omg. At chiro people always get way too drunk too, it gets annoying (and disgusting when it comes all out again). I hope they don't force me to drink again for the rest of the year. But at least we have better leaders when it comes to that now. Last year was pretty terrible at times.