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So, 2019, huh

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 1, 2019, 3:17 AM
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Some people may know that on New Year's Eve, I tend to submit both an artwork around midnight and a journal reflecting on the year. This year, I didn't do that because I had work on the day and then a headache in the evening before the festivities started, so I decided to just enjoy the festivities and go to bed. However, it is morning, I am awake now, I will do a journal now and try to work on a (probably quick) piece of art soon! For tradition's sake.

So let's have a look at my past year's resolutions, what happened this year, the art I drew this year, and some resolutions for next year. I'm also going to try to not tag people here because I feel like I've been tagging people too much as of late whoops. Here is 2017's end of year journal


2018's resolutions

In 2018, I would like to:
- Sleep a bit more again. Blease I did! I've become so incredibly sleepy, and I sleep a lot easier and longer than I used to. It's not always ideal, but eh, I like sleeping, I'll take whatever I can get.
- I don't know what to do with university, but just, try to somehow progress in it I think I did, but not as much as I would have liked. I am still not out of uni, I have two subjects and a master thesis left. I did, however, graduate my bachelor's.
- Keep my friends and qpps around, and hopefully meet some of them in person I did! I didn't meet everyone I wanted, and some friendships changed/ended throughout the year, but it all had a reason and I'm fine with it.
- Heartbreak always happens regardless, but some heart-healing experiences would be nice to have I guess? 2018 was a mix of the good and the bad in that area and hurt and healing tended to just follow up on each other. It's nice that that means there would always be good moments, but I'd really like 2019 to be more stable in that regard.
- Maybe exercise? Boy I sure didn't and I don't like it. I went running once, I didn't get to jump on the trampoline a lot, didn't go on bike rides as often. I want to do better.
- Hopefully get a job again sometime I did! I got a job in September for a month in a hospital, and I am currently also working two weeks,,, in a hospital. So. Money!
- Stay alive Heck yes the one goal that me writing this journla means I've accomplished


2018 in life

The main things that happened this year were
- I finished all of my subjects from my bachelor's, officially earning me my bachelor's degree (the uni I'm in requires you to finish your master's before it earns you an actual diploma, but still) and I finished a good amount of subjects from my master's so far.
- I met various online people throughout the year, namely Dog in February, then a big trip with Kyo and Jayden in June where we spent two weeks together in Canada, saw Tox again at some point, saw Merle again at some point also, met up with Dog, Diet and Kai for MCM, and saw a bunch of other people at MCM. I was in England, Canada and Germany this year.
- I had two jobs this year, one in September for a month and one for two weeks over the winter holidays, both of them in hospitals.
- A few things happened in friend groups and some friendships were lost, but I think it was for the better. I got closer to some friends, which was nice. I became more active in some servers this year.
- I, uh, kind of stagnated in life and had a few bad moments, I feel like I've wasted my entire summer this year, which makes reflecting on this year feel rather bittersweet, but there's nothing to do about that now.
- I started doing more things alone, like going to the zoo and cities and to the movies, instead of waiting until I have someone to go with. It's nice.
- Overall this year was highly emotional, and painful at times, and I'd just like to try and improve things next year.

2018 in art

2018 Summary of Art by SpitfiresOnIce
A bunch of artwork that didn't make it into the meme:
No, I Don't Want Your Number by SpitfiresOnIce And I am nothing of a builder by SpitfiresOnIce Memories will fade by SpitfiresOnIce Just about a million ways to harm you by SpitfiresOnIce Charging Up by SpitfiresOnIce Cricket and Ash by SpitfiresOnIce Chilling in a hot tub by SpitfiresOnIce Serenity by SpitfiresOnIce We played hide and seek in waterfalls by SpitfiresOnIce Opal by SpitfiresOnIce Do what you want 'cause a pirate is free by SpitfiresOnIce There was a time to try but now it is for real by SpitfiresOnIce Oscar by SpitfiresOnIce The unrequited dream, a song that no one sings by SpitfiresOnIce Toshiro by SpitfiresOnIce I don't know why I like you, but I do by SpitfiresOnIce When you took my heart by SpitfiresOnIce Off We Go by SpitfiresOnIce Not quite certain by SpitfiresOnIce Could do about anything by SpitfiresOnIce Dust and sunlight by SpitfiresOnIce So you can drag me through hell by SpitfiresOnIce Finches by SpitfiresOnIce Is That Why You Wanted A Love Song by SpitfiresOnIce You're the only human I believe in by SpitfiresOnIce How rare and beautiful it is to even exist by SpitfiresOnIce Breeozoa by SpitfiresOnIce Electric Feel by SpitfiresOnIce You can get what you want, but it's never enough by SpitfiresOnIce Everything the light touches by SpitfiresOnIce Never for a second blame yourself by SpitfiresOnIce When it rains this side of town is touched by SpitfiresOnIce I Tell You All The Time by SpitfiresOnIce Let yourself just be wherever you are by SpitfiresOnIce While you were looking for yourself out there by SpitfiresOnIce Travel Times by SpitfiresOnIce Why she lick me by SpitfiresOnIce Someone To You by SpitfiresOnIce Make believe by SpitfiresOnIce Oh. Oh No by SpitfiresOnIce Taking You There by SpitfiresOnIce I Wanna Get Better by SpitfiresOnIce Messing with hair by SpitfiresOnIce It's gonna take some time by SpitfiresOnIce You better watch out you better watch out YOU BETT by SpitfiresOnIce Top to toe in tailbacks by SpitfiresOnIce But soon there'll be a freeway yeah by SpitfiresOnIce
Summing things up:
- Completed Inktober for the second year in a row. Not always happy about the results, and it was incredibly exhausting, but really glad to have a full month of art to look back on!
- Experimental art, trying to do more sketchy things
- Art took more effort, resulting in less art and less casual, personal works
- No humans whatsoever. Good job
- A few collabs!
- Experimented with Bienie's design and made them a new ref
- Drawing in GIMP sometimes? For some reason
- But also Muro is becoming increasingly broken so that's probably a good thing, I'll have to migrate at some point RIP
- Sometimes pixels


2019's resolutions

In 2019, I would like to:
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- Stabilize my emotional/personal life a bit so that it's not as turbulent as it was in 2018
- Meet some of my friends in person, especially people I haven't met before that I'd like to meet
- Get out of uni by any means possible, and by any means possible, I would preferably mean finish my uni course and not drop out, but y'know
- Get a job at some point
- Once uni is no longer there, try to get into an art routine, whether that's commissions, personal art, or gift art. Just try to draw routinely
- Let myself draw casual personal doodles again like I used to every time I felt any emotion whatsoever
- When nor doing uni things and nor at work, try to get out of the house for walks/bike rides/little day trips/errands

Things to look forward to in 2019:
- Life is Strange 2 has episodes releasing yeehaw
- BROOKLYN NINE NINE SEASON SIX
- How To Train Your Dragon 3 is also existing
- I'm thinking of something to look forward to that isn't a game, series or movie. I feel like I'll probably meet some people? But I have yet to make hard plans. However, I feel like it will happen.
- Bienie turns 8 years old in January!
- Birthday.
- Probably another Inktober even though the thought of it exhausts me but it's so rewarding too,,,,,
- Having been a deviant for 10 years (holy shit)
- Christmas and New Year's Eve

And that is it, I think! Overall, I'd like to say this has been a year


No okay but it had its good moments. I hope you all have a good 2019! Now watch me write the date wrong for six more months

Happy New Year, everyone!



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Doodle commissions for $5? Maybe

Journal Entry: Sun Dec 30, 2018, 1:38 AM
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So the doodles I used for Christmas gifts
Jolly noises are heard from the other room by SpitfiresOnIce
I might offer them as quick doodle commissions, for 5 USD or 500:points: each. Examples are above, let me know what you think? It's fine if that's too expensive, I just wanted to see if there was any interest at all. If so, let me know and we can work something out :>


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8 Facts About Bien

Journal Entry: Sat Dec 29, 2018, 3:34 AM
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Bien as in, the character, not me
I got tagged by HuniiTea and I won't tag 8 people but,,, here's some Bien facts

This is Bien
Bienie Reference Sheet 9 by SpitfiresOnIce
Bienie's Toyhou.se with all the art
AKA the love of my life

1. Bienie has more art than any of my other characters combined, and I am fully enabling it by adding more and more to it, and this is fine. I do love my other characters dearly, they are just my baby and go-to comfort character, plus they're the one who get to be drawn with friend's sonas, so they end up getting a lot of attention.
2. I am actually never sure of design changes which is a pain but the good thing is that even with a changed pallette they still look like themselves so it doesn't really matter. Bien is Bien regardless, given that the markings don't change. And I'm enjoying the warm colours for now, so!
3. Bienie is a gentle creature. They tend to keep quiet in many situations, but get somewhat nervous in social situations easily. Overall, they're a weird mix of calm and nervous, sometimes they're calm on the ouside but nervous on the inside or vice versa, they are a mess.
4. They tend to feel out of place easily, finding it hard to develop relationships beyond a superficial level, but once they really bond with someone, they bond deep. They're ride or die for those they love. In terms of dating, they're a hopeless romantic, and not good at keeping things casual. They like to be Extra
5. They are not very strong, and rather clumsy. Not physically gifted, you could say.
6. Bienie doesn't fall asleep easily with noise around, but other than that they're a sleepy creature. Loves to snooze.
7. They're a heathen who would eat food off the floor without a second thought.
8. Also they shed a lot and it would probably be very annoying. Where is all that fur even coming from

I have no idea what to say on these fact journals, but I hope you enjoy the Bien. They :dummy:


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If you read this

Journal Entry: Sat Dec 22, 2018, 4:59 AM
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I love you. Happy holidays. If this is a bad time of the year for you, I hope it passes as quickly and as painlessly as possible. If you need to talk about it and you're not sure who to talk to, I'm here to listen (or if other people are open to that, feel free to comment as well).
If you wished for something, I hope you get it, or something equally good! If you're seeing someone you love these holidays, I hope you have a really good time with them. If you're alone, I hope you get to take the time you need for yourself, and if you're lonely, I hope you can either find the company you want, or comfort in something. If you don't celebrate anything, I hope you still have a good couple days.

I hope the last week and days of 2018 are as kind on you as they can be :star:

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Absolutely just drown me in wintery things

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 21, 2018, 2:47 AM
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I don't really want to make a wishlist as such because I feel bad asking for things when I am unable to give back (throwback to Art Fight this year when I tried to do some art back for attacks from previous years and ended up stuck in a rut all summer doing essentially nothing rip). As it turns out, I'm very disappointing when it comes to these things. But I would like to get into the holiday cheer, kinda. I know Christmas is still a while off, but it's starting to feel like winter here already, and somehow it's making me feel a lot better to just have this holiday atmosphere. I love snowy themes, I love pine trees, and I will absolutely eat up anything festive. Pine cones, candles, cinnamon, hot cocoa. Holly. Reindeer. You know the stuff.
So like... if you feel like it, just. I'd appreciate some advice on how to get some winter/Christmas themes on my page. Maybe some pointers on what to do with it or things I could draw to add to my page? It would be fun to have it decorated festively again. If there's any kind of drawing you'd like to see from me in general, feel free to tell me too. Also, you are at any and all times welcome to storm my page with wintery things, or when the time is right, holiday wishes (I will gladly return them on your page to return the holiday cheer). And again I kNOW it is still a while off but life has been crappy and I really, really love holiday themes. So I am Ready :snowflake:
(If you have any good Christmas music. You can share that too. I am a ho ho ho for Christmas music)

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Hey! Journal memes

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 9, 2018, 4:21 AM


Memes as a way to worm myself back into DA more than before, and no longer post and run. I cleared out my entire inbox and I've been trying to comment more also, I don't know if it shows. I feel better when I'm more active on here yeehaw

1.) What does your DeviantART name mean and why?
It's, something I made when I was 14 and always stuck with. I wanted a fire and ice themed name. And changing names just seems like so much effort now, you know. So here we are. This is who I am now.

2.) What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined and what are you in now?
I was very much obsessed with Pokémon! And I still like it. I got into Life is Strange two years ago, and that has been my main obsession since then, probably. There's a lot of other things I enjoy, I just wouldn't call them obsessions at this point.

4.) Name 3 of your favourite artists on DA?
MeggisCat Nightrizer kenket are people whose art I really enjoy seeing.

5.) Do you have a crush on someone?
I kind of feel like we're beyond the crush stage, but sure :XD:

6.) Do you participate in clubs' contests here on DA?
Nah, not really. Contests aren't really my thing anymore! Haven't entered any in a while.

7.) What is your most popular submission?
Don't worry, we're fine in here by SpitfiresOnIce
Oh finally, something that isn't extremely old. Bless! I do still like this one, they're very good boys and the drawing took some good time and effort.

8.) What are your favorite non-anime TV shows?
Brooklyn 99, How I Met Your Mother, and I'm really into Hilda at the moment as well

9.) Summer or winter?
Winter!

10.) Rain or Sun?  
Sun, but rain is nice too.

11.) What's your favourite type of music?
Don't have a favourite type.

12.) PC or Mac?
PC!

13.) Anime or Manga?
I never read manga, so anime, though I can't say I watch a lot of that, either.

14.) Coke or Pepsi?
Coke.

5.) Read or TV?
Read.

16.) How many hours a day do you spend on DA?
In the past months? Not a lot. A quick glance once or a few times a day. I used to spend almost all my online time here, and I'm trying to be present more again.

17.) Flash or traditional cartoons?
Either! It depends more on the show's specific style honestly.

18.) What is your favourite fast food restaurant?
I've been a big fan of Subway lately. Mmm sub.

19.) What are your top 3 favourite books? (not mangas)
This is super hard. I've read so many books in my life, but recently I haven't been reading, so it's hard. I'm going to say They Both Die At The End by Adam Silvera, and History Is All You Left Me, also by him, and,,,
this isn't an all time favourite thing. It's just, with books and movies, I can guarantee you I don't have an all time favourite, and any answer I give you would be a lie, so.

20.) Wii or PlayStation?
I actually have neither! So. None.

21.) Name 3 of your favourite bands/singers.
Sleeping At Last, Bloc Party, AJR

22.) Do you like Denny's?
Yea! Me, Jayden and Cody went there in Toronto during our visit. It was nice. Solid food.

23.) What is your favourite smiley?
In regular emojis, the upside down one. On DA, it's probably :dummy:

24.) What is your favourite type of pie?
Apple, I think. Apple is good. So is cherry.

25.) Have you ever stayed up for 24 hours?
Yes! And I can't say I like it, I always feel very unreal the day after. Nowadays I always get very tired, and I wouldn't last that long without sleep.

26.) Fruits or sweets?
Depends on the kind, but I guess fruits, because they don't make my mouth feel gross afterwards.

27.) Buttered, plain, or salted popcorn?
sweet popcorn

28.) Have you skipped school?
Not in primary/secondary school. In university, I have, but it's university, y'know. Attendance isn't mandatory, it's just recommended. I only do it when anxiety gets the upper hand.

29.) Have you been on a plane?
Yes! Once to Sweden as a child, and then this summer to Canada.

30.) Have you swum in an ocean?
Yes! Is fun with the gentle waves. Sploosh. I like it.

31.) Have you been ice skating?
Yes! And I'm very afraid of fallin so it's actually not ideal, but I used to be not as afraid, and then I was actually quite decent at it! Not professional ice skating level decent, but decent as in, I was bad at most physical things, and I wasn't significantly worse at ice skating compared to other people.

32.) Favourite sport?
I like running because you can do it alone and you don't need specific motor skills,
The long distance kind, that is.

33.) Ever been on TV?
God I hope not.

34.) Favourite salad and dressing?
Lettuce, tomato and cucumber? Does that count as a salad? Or mozarello tomato salad. With olive oil and stuff.

35.) What is the last film you saw at the movie theatre?
The Incredibles, before that it was Ocean's 8.

36.) Favourite Sandwich?
I'm actually not big on regular sandwiches between two slices of bread. Especially since most store bought ones contain mayo or bacon, and I'm just very picky with what I eat on bread. If anything, probably just peanut butter and jelly. I'm more flexible with baguettes or things like Subway, though.

37.) If you could go anywhere in the world…
Iceland! Or meet Serval, that would be neat.

38.) Favourite time of the day? 
I like dusk and dawn, they're cosy. I'm never awake for the morning anymore, though, so.

39.) What did you want to be when you were little?
A veterinarian!

40.) What do you want to be now?
Possibly a librarian? But I genuinely have no idea. I don't have a plan in mind, nothing seems particularly appealing so that's just where I'm at now.

41.) If you could eat with one person, who would it be?
Serval! We could bust out our worst table manners and it'd be a really good time.

42.) What character would you hate to be stuck in a room with? 
Anyone loud, probably. No one in particular comes to mind right away.

43.) When is your birthday?
12th of July!

44.) Favourite type of ice cream?
Vanilla with chocolate sauce, or raspberry sorbet.

45.) Last book you read?
What if it's us by Becky Albertalli and Adam Silvera. I'm really enjoying it so far.

46.) Which store would you max out a credit card at?
Any book store. I know I barely read nowadays. That doesn't stop me from being genuinely tempted by any nice-looking book I see. Books.

47.) Do you buy/sell/both on eBay?
I do not! I should look into selling things, though.

48.) What is the most annoying thing people ask you?
What I want to do with my education, and by extension, my life. I get where the question comes from, but... I went into linguistics because it was interesting, because Dutch and English were my best subjects, and it seemed like the only option apart from art. I'm in it to have a diploma, but it's not applied linguistics, so it's not something you can go into, say, translating with. I genuinely don't know what I want to do, and I don't think I'm going to figure it out by the time I graduate. I'm just going to get a job, any job, and see where things go from there... and figure out what I want to live for along the way.

49.) What was your favourite show when you were a kid?
Pokémon and Hamtaro! I loved them. The Winnie The Pooh show was also really nice.

50.) What are you listening to right now?
Silence...

51.) What is the last thing you ate?
Bread! Going to have lunch soon, though.

52.) If you were a crayon what colour would you be?
My mind says light green but my heart says greyish blue. I actually don't know. Maybe something completely different, like orangeish brown.

53.) Personality:
Introverted, relatively insecure, likes simple things and doesn't need a lot to be happy. Generally friendly, but finds it hard to connect with people. Enjoys deadpan humour. Types literal novels to express their feelings and is much better with written language than with spoken words. I don't know what else. What is my personality.

54.) Favorite sport to play?
I don't really enjoy any sport that needs to be played, because I have physical problems with movement and strength. Anything involving other people just makes me feel awkward and guilty when I'm on their team, and it's just more stressful than anything. I know having fun is more important, but I don't really enjoy it in the first place, so...

55.) Favorite Day of the Year?
Even though nothing particularly special happens in our family, I love Christmas for the atmosphere it brings. I also do enjoy my birthday, I'm just really wary of expectations/potentially being left alone, so I'm usually nervous and in denial about the day lkjhjugyfghikj

56.) Hugs or Kisses? 
Hugs. I don't enjoy kisses unless it's in a romantic context.

57.) Vanilla or Chocolate?
They're both good, but I'm going with chocolate, because chocolate pudding and chocolate cake are heavenly.

58.) Favorite Board/Card Game?
I actually don't like board and card games in general. If any, though, Jungle Speed and Cards Against Humanity are pretty fun.

59.) Favourite smells?
Grass, freshly baked pastries, certain plant scents that I don't know the names of. Cold evening scent. Summer evening scent. Autumn scent. Many scents, basically.

60.) What inspires you?
Music, emotions, particular sentences or concepts. Sometimes, or often, nothing.

61.) Do you have any piercings?
Nope!

62.)  How many siblings do you have?
An older brother and a younger sister.

63.) Bacon Bits or Croutons?
Croutons, I don't like bacon.

64.) Favourite Day of the Week?
Saturday.

65.) Favourite phrase?
It really do just be like that sometimes. I overuse it these days.

66.) Favourite Restaurant?
The one Chinese restaurant we get takeout from sometimes, it's always a good day when we do.

67.) Favourite animal?
Arctic foxes and Icelandic horses.

68.) Favourite thing to do outside?
Walking, and going on bike rides! Just looking at things.

69.) Favorite thing to do when it's raining?
Bundle up with music or a book. Put lights on. Draw. Drink tea.

70.) Favorite Disney character?
Probably Todd, from Fox and Hound.

71.) Do you like coffee? If so, what is your favorite brand?
I do not!

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Journal Entry: Wed Nov 7, 2018, 3:42 PM


Meme stolen from Hazel and Daisy. Bless them.

1. Did you wake up cranky?
No, just very confused and I feel back asleep twice.

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
mMMMMMMM a five year difference feels kinda weird nyeh, not a huge fan of the idea at this point.

3. Do you prefer to be friends with boys or girls?
I mostly befriend girls, though anyone if they're nice. I'm just bad at being social ehhhh

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
I would, I just normally avoid all eye contact with strangers because I don't like how it feels.

5. Can you commit to one person?
Yeah! I'm very committed in relationships.

6. How do you look right now?

A tired blob in a warm hoodie. My hair is soft and freshly washed.

7. What exactly are you wearing?
Oh wait okay. My pyjamas (long sleeves, long trousers and there's a teddy bear head on the shirt), thick socks, and my Canada hoodie that Jayden and Kyo also have from when we were in Niagara Falls.

8. How often do you listen to music?
Daily, for the most part. Have to make sure my Spotify subscription is worth it.

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
I wear jeans almost exclusively, but I'd like to have more sweats, something comfortable would be nice.

10.Do you think your life will change dramatically soon?
Yea, but there's also a chance it's not for the better so honestly I'm just kinda Nervous TM

11. Are you a social or antisocial person?
I'm... pretty asocial. I like my friends, but I'm finding it hard to keep up interactions a lot of the time.

12 .If the person you like says that they like someone else, what would you do?
Honestly just experience A Lot Of Pain. Like what can you do about that

13. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Mmmmmm relatively. If they show I'm usually not really trying to hide them in the first place.

14. Can you drive stick?
No... I cannot drive.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
I mean, yea, especially if it's not true, but also. Oh well. I'm often in a position where I'm not noticed rather than noticed and disliked, which is preferred.

16. Are you going out of town soon? 
Not soon I don't think, no, unless some kind of last minute plan happens?

17. When was the last time you cried?
Probably a few days ago or so.

18. Have you ever liked someone you haven't expected to?

I always act amazed when I like someone because wow, the concept of feelings changing, or wow, the concept of Me With This Person... so yes, every time

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
Naaah brown is fine. I think I wanted blue eyes at some point and it's pretty but. Oh well. Green is nice too. Or white eyes. Maybe I would change them.

20. Name something you have to do tomorrow.
Just class. Probably going to draw a bit, too.

21. Name something you dislike about today. 
I'm very insecure about everything a lot of the time, but that's not limited to today honestly. It was rainy and I had to go outside so that sucked? But then I actually ended up having a good time out.

22. Have you ever liked one of your friends of the opposite sex?
No, I am Gay

23. Are you nice to everyone?
I try, I'm not always good as coming off as nice, though. But I try to not be rude.

24. What are you sitting on right now?
A chair.

25. Can you last in a relationship for six months without cheating?
Yea? It's really not that hard to not cheat

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn't have?
Yes, my school experience was a string of unrequited crushes oof it was a time.

27. Whose the last person you talked to before going to bed last night?
Serval!

28. Do you get a lot of colds?
Not as much as I used to (I had a leaking noise for years at some point) but yea! Often (always) after travel, but I don't travel as often as I used to either, so it's lessened a bit.

29. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
Luckily, no. I have, though

30. Does anyone hate you?
I mean, I don't think so? Probably people who dislike me but I don't think I have enemies.

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Hmmm. No.

32. Do you like scary movies?
No, I am a Wimp

33. Are you a jealous person?

I used to be really bad with jealousy, but I've gotten a lot better at handling it in healthier ways.

34. If you had to delete a year of your life, what would it be?
Uhhhh 2009 or something. If 2018 ends badly, it can go delete itself too honestly things happen too much and I am Fed Up

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Bullet; Green I will draw:
- Animals of any species
- Original species and fantasy creatures
- Pets and animals from photo reference
- Pokémon and other franchise characters
- Couples, romance and relationships
- Humans and anthros, even though they are not my strong point

Bullet; Orange Ask me about:
- Custom character designs
- Situations involving my own characters
- Gore

Bullet; Red I will not draw
- Explicit sexual content
- Hate art towards another user or group
- Heavily complex mechanic designs or anything else that is too complicated

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You can contact me on DeviantArt, FurAffinity, Twitter and Telegram under the username SpitfiresOnIce.
DISCLAIMER: When commissioning me through PayPal, I will only use your email address to send an invoice/to verify that you made the payment. Under no circumstances will I use this, or any linked personal information such as your name or address, for any other purpose, nor will I share/distribute this information to third parties.

Waiting for your commission

Between ordering and the art being uploaded, you can find your commission on my Trello, where you can view its current status. For anything except headshots and pixels, I will send a sketch for approval. If you would like WIPs at additional stages of the drawing process, please let me know.
I generally try to complete commissions within two weeks. If anything comes up in that time, I will contact you to inform you of the delay.
Commissions bought during a discount/mass sale might take longer to complete, and commissions at their regular price take priority.

Receiving your commission

The art will be uploaded to DeviantArt, Twitter and FurAffinity.
If there are any errors on my part, please tell me immediately and I will try my best to fix them. I will NOT fix character designs in the drawing that have been changed after the commission's completion.
If you are unhappy with the outcome of the commission, contact me civilly and we can work out a compensation of the work was below my usual quality.
Personal use of the art you commissioned is permitted. You are not allowed to use my art for commercial purposes.


Price list

Images to be added later

Character
Headshot:
€15 for flat, €20 for shaded
Halfbody: €20 for flat, €30 for shaded
Fullbody: €25 for flat, €40 for shaded
Extra character is +75% of the base price.

Background
Transparent, one colour, or gradient:
No extra charge
Simple: €15-25
Indoor: €30-60
Outdoor: €30-70
Prices range depending on complexity.

Pixels
Pixel icon:
€10
Pixel doll simple shaded: €18
Pixel doll fully shaded: €22

Ask about anything not mentioned here!

Raising commission prices in about a week

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 21, 2018, 8:48 AM
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If you were thinking of commissioning me at my current rates, I would recommend doing so within the next week! Starting Tuesday (October 30), I will be looking into revamping prices, commission options, and try to advertise differently. Things don't seem to be working as they used to right now, and I think I need to approach things differently.

The prices will most likely go up on most if not all commission options, so if you were thinking of commissioning me, I do recommend doing so now! If you order before Tuesday, old pricing will apply (regardless of whether the art will be finished before then).
Commission ToS and prices (outdated)Commission prices are outdated, new version can be found here: 
This journal will no longer be updated!
Status

PayPal commissions: Open
Point commissions: Open
Current commission queue
Trello
Overview of commissions I've done in the past
DeviantArt
FurAffinity
Useful links
Art Terms of Service - Design Terms of Service
Will draw/Won't draw
:bulletgreen: What will I draw?
- Animals of any species
- Original species and fantasy creatures
- Original characters
- Your pets
- Pokémon and o

Pricing and TOS can be found above. Any options not listed can be discussed.

Lately, I've had a problem on DA with customers contacting me for commissions, and then never getting back to me when I ask for the exact details of the commission. This has happened with multiple people, and I wanted to address it. I would prefer it if people simply communicated that they were unable to commission me. If you're one of those customers, and you're still interested, please contact me within the next week! Otherwise, if you get back to me later then that, you won't be able to get a commission for the price it was originally listed as. Communication is a two-way street, I will try to get back at customers whenever a problem arises, but I would prefer it if people did the same for me!

That being said, I hope you all have a great day! On a side note, I will be in London for the upcoming weekend, but I will check DeviantArt periodically for messages in case someone is trying to reach me.

Bien Doing Things by SpitfiresOnIce Wiggle wiggle

Kicking myself back into art

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 29, 2018, 7:46 PM


Or at least... Trying really hard to.
I have barely been here lately! I submit and run, and that's when I draw at all, which... Barely happens because.
I would say I'm really busy but the truth is that I'm not. I'm just in a weird rut right now and getting myself to draw when I don't technically have to has been really hard. That being said, I have been keeping a sketchbook of some kind that I'm using almost daily, and it is nice, but I feel like most art in there isn't submit worthy.
Maybe I do need a break, but the problem is that right now I'm not really doing a whole lot in general and accomplishing nothing all the time is very bad for my mental state. So I'm going to try to change things. And I say try, because I've attempted it before and it was harder than I estimated.

I will be attempting a few art challenges to keep me going art-wise (Inktober is approaching, for example, pretty excited for that) but apart from that
- if you want to commission me, my commissions are always open: Commission ToS and prices (OPEN) I will make commissions a priority.
- if there's anything you'd like me to draw involving my own characters, let me know! My characters can be found here: toyhou.se/SpitfiresOnIce/chara… non-character related suggestions are also okay. I'm not lacking in ideas, just motivation to get myself into drawing, but no harm in having people suggest things, right.

That will be all! Thanks for reading, I hope you all have been well and that you've had a nice summer (or winter, for those on the southern hemisphere).

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Fursona meme! Again

Journal Entry: Thu Aug 9, 2018, 1:48 PM


Nothing quite like a good old fursona meme when that's the only character of mine who ever sees daylight! Also literally any time there's a fursona meme I haven't done yet, I have to do it, it's natural

1) their first design vs. current design
My fursona: Vana by SpitfiresOnIce Bienie Reference Sheet 8 by SpitfiresOnIce
Honestly not much changed,,, they got a more defined body type, different accessories, some very minimal marking changes.

2) why are they your fursona?
Because I love them! I've had them for so long now, I'm happy to stay with them. Nothing else would quite seem right. I've molded them into what I am, and they just feel right.

3) whats different between you and your fursona?
Looks, mostly. They have my personality and their life is mine.

4) their theme song
My Friend - Marble Sounds

5) give them a canon voice!
I'm boring but I can't think of one, I'm sorry but I don't remember voice actors to save my lIFE

6) what does your fursona love and hate?
Loves food, walking, hanging out with close friends, rivers, forests, mountains, being cosy. Hates wet fur, raisins, alcohol, loud noises.

7) their body type vs. yours
They're the same. I probably draw them a little skinnier and they're also flat chested, though.

8) how strong is your connection to your fursona?
Very strong. I've been kind of absent from everything lately, but I know that once I'm more connected to things again, they will be right there where they always have been. It's comforting. They're comforting to look at.

9) is your fursona shipped with someone elses character? if so, who?
Yes! With Serval.
What can I say except you're welcome by SpitfiresOnIce This mess was yours, now your mess is mine by SpitfiresOnIce Chilling in a hot tub by SpitfiresOnIce
They're good and seeing them together makes me really happy.

10) who/what is your fursona based off of?
A... cat. With my personality. That's about it, and then I couldn't decide between grey and brown,

11) do you wish your fursona was real?
It would be super cool to have a cat that looks like Bienie, honestly. Best pet.

12) how much did you spend on art for them so far?
HMMMM I've had them for many a year and I have bought a fair amount of commissions in that time... so I'm assuming... a lot...

13) where would your fursona live if they were real?
Ohhh this actually came up a few days ago. Probably in a forest near the sea or body of water, somewhere in a nice cave. I imagine Bienie could feel at home in many places, but they'd have to make it their home.

14) have you ever sold/traded them before?
Nope, and I never will. Staying with me until I die.

15) their favorite holiday
Christmas! Cosy, lights, and everything smells nice! Plus, they do like Christmas music, secretly.

16) pick a movie/tv show character they relate to most!
UhhHHhHhhH honestly that's a really good question. My first thought was Ted Mosby from How I Met Your Mother but that's mostly because Tiny Gang has a salt-pepper-cumin theme ongoing like Marshall, Lily and Ted on the show did in one episode fffff

17) pick another fictional character they relate to!
WHY ARE THERE TWO THAT'S SO RUDE
Max Caulfield from Life is Strange is relatable?

18) when were they last revamped?
They got new accessories during the summer of 2017. Actual design changes, probably like the very end of 2013 when they got the pawpad scar.

19) who is their best friend?
KyoOliver and Dog.

20) did you create them?
Yes!

21) their favorite season
Winter, but all of them are nice.

22) do you have a fursuit of them? if not, do you want one?
No, and nope! Not into fursuits, to be honest.

23) how long have they been your fursona?
7 and a half years! Since January 25, 2011.

24) how many times have they been redesigned/altered?
Maybe like four-five times with minor changes? Really not a lot. Honestly, maybe even less than that.

25) their favorite restaurant
Difficult. They probbaly like sushi but I also never have that anymore, so.

26) do they have any phobias?
Heights! They hate heights.

27) name one thing people forget when drawing them
The coloured fur is visible on the inside elbow too, and there is one stripe visible on the inside of the back legs. Usually, leg markings are the problem.

28) favorite art piece of them
THERE'S SO MANY they have 2,000+ art pieces...
I'm just going to put some art I drew that I still like
Can't wait to fall again by SpitfiresOnIce I don't know why I like you, but I do by SpitfiresOnIce Just about a million ways to harm you by SpitfiresOnIce

29) do they represent you or a part of you?
Yes! They do represent me.

30) tell me one fun fact of them!
They're smaller than most of their friends and have a shorter tail than most of them. They find this mildly upsetting.

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Whee

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 14, 2018, 6:42 AM


This might be a thing that's over in a few days in which case, nevermind this journal, but I haven't been doing as well lately in the past... while, there's some things I've had trouble starting and while I'm sorting that out I might be absent for a while, I don't know. I'll see, but if I'm not responsive that's why! Hope you've all been well!

If you're someone I know you can add me on Discord, I might not reply a lot there but sometimes I talk
SpitfiresOnIce#3775
Please beware that I probably won't add you if I don't recognize you at all, though!


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[ALL GONE] I have 89 unused Toyou.se codes

Journal Entry: Wed Jun 20, 2018, 1:22 AM


EDIT: all of them are gone, thank you guys! If there's leftovers in a month or so I'll distribute them so other people can have a chance.
Does anyone want a code...
Beware that if you don't use it after a few weeks I may end up forgetting it already belongs to someone and give it to someone else ffFFF so try to make sure you actually redeem the invite code if you want an account!
All I ask is that you don't resell the codes for art/money/points or some other kind of thing because that's kind of a dick move in my opinion when you got the code for free. Please just use them for yourself or to give to friends for free :>
Also please just comment if you want one, because usually I get people commenting with "hmm I don't know if I want this" and like, I don't know what to do with that, my guy, take it or leave it, it's all up to you, you decide

Also every time I make these journals people ask me what Toyhou.se is and it gets tiring to explain to every comment, so. It's a character storage site. You can make character profiles, add images, information, literature, custom coding, subfolders and all that jazz. It's good for storing character art and organizing your characters. The site's been getting updates lately and in my opinion it's pretty good, but  mean it's a free code and I havea bunch of them to spare so you can honestly just try it out yourself!

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Gravity

Journal Entry: Mon Jun 18, 2018, 6:08 AM


Hi. I have returned
Canada was great, I really loved the country but I love my friends eVEN MORE and I can't believe I was able to go across an entire ocean to spend two weeks with them. We ended up seeing Toronto, going to the aquarium, seeing Niagara Falls, walking around, hanging out, spending so much time together. The goodbye was so sad, especially because the planes changed and us Europeans had to take different planes home instead of travel together for part of the journey and that early goodbye was all the more painful oof suddenly both people at once were gone. Feelsbadman. Also flying was not as bad as I expected? Long travel times aside, the flights themselves were enjoyable. Flying across timezones definitely messes me up though, it feels like entering another reality.
Anyway, I'd love to go back (and I will, when I can, for sure). I can't believe we finally did this after years, it feels unreal but it happened! If you read this Kyo/Jayden I Love You thank you for making this happen.
I will work on commissions shortly, I have some papers to take care of but I'll begin drawing again starting tomorrow! As you could tell, I sort of took a break from that in Canada, I worked on papers for a bit but for the most part I just spent time with the people I love and enjoyed myself. Apologies for the delays on art! I promise I will do my best to make it worth the wait. Also I have 1,500+ inbox things so if I haven't commented on your art in a while: I love you and I am deeply sorry you're doing great and I support you
Have a music meme with what I'm assuming are underwhelming answers.

RULES:
1. Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name

How would you describe yourself?:
The World Is Outside - Ghosts

What do you like in a guy/girl?: 
Habits (Stay High) - Tove Lo

How do you feel today?: 
Take on the World - You Me At Six

What is life's purpose?: 
Good Occasions - Marble Sounds

What is your motto?: 
Nothing Personal - Koethe

What do your friends think of you?: 
Say You Like Me - We The Kings
(hm. gay)

What do you think of your parents?:
Set the Rules - Marble Sounds

What do you think about very often?:
Aus dem Sinn - Luxuslärm
(oh no)

what is 2 + 2?: 
Eyes Half Closed - Crywolf

What do you think of your best friend?: 
Sit Next To Me - Foster The People
(yes!)

What do you think of the person you like?:
Banquet - Bloc Party
(it's because they look like a snack)

What is your life story?: 
Mt. Washington - Local Natives
(oh no x2)

What do you want to be when you grow up?: 
Learning To Hate You As A Self Defense Mechanism - Flatsound
(oh no x3)

What do you think of when you see the person you like?: 
How To Be A Heartbreaker - Marina and the Diamonds
(OH NO x4)

What will you dance to at your wedding?:
Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day
(I'm not liking what Spotify is doing here)

What will they play at your funeral?:
Turning Out - AJR
(I feel like that's a very depressing song to end a life with)

What is your hobby/interest?: 
Angel - Koethe

What is your biggest fear?:
Miss You - Gabrielle Aplin

What is your biggest secret?: 
Love On Top - Beyoncé

What do you think of your friends?:
Stereo Hearts - Gym Class Heroes feat. Adam Levine
(I dO LOVE THAT SONG been meaning to draw to it)

What will you post this as?:
Gravity - EDEN


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Pride meme

Journal Entry: Mon Jun 4, 2018, 3:25 AM


I stole this from So Many people in my inbox holy shit
It's 5:54 as I start this and Jayden and Kyo are sound asleep so until they wake up or I fall back asleep I'm going to occupy myself with this
I Can't Believe I'm in Canada, absolutely wild. Good

1. what’s your gender? 
- Agender

2. what are your pronouns?
- They/them

3. is your family accepting?
- They're very accepting of homosexuality and the like. They don't always understand trans things but they try their best and learn.

4. what do you wish you could tell your past self?
- That it's okay to identify as something else ffff and that the "everyone else is valid but me" mindset is really unfair and unnecessary.

5. what is your sexuality?
- Homosexual. At least that's the best way I can describe it. Girls and NB folk. Actually I mean homoromantic because I don't have a single clue about ace stuff anymore but because I'm not sure on that I'm leaving it out.

6. favorite color?
- Blue!

7. sun gay or moon gay?
- Sun, I guess?

8. when did you find out your sexuality?
-  I was 10 and at summer camp and I felt really weird and protective about this girl, and afterwards it killed me that we weren't in the same group for the next year. It took young me six months or so to figure out that was a crush fff I thought I might be bi at first but I kept liking only girls after that. And I mean, before that first crush, the thought of a relationship with a guy always seemed meh and awkward and I hated romance movies but like... I was also 9 so it didn't exactly click just yet :XD:

9. how was your day?
- I only just woke up but it's been alright! Yesterday we just stayed home really, rested and cleaned up. Today we might go do a thing or two.

10. do you have any gay friends?
- Do I have any straight friends. Most of them are some kind of gay/bi/pan/ace/etc.

11. what’s your favorite hobby?
- Drawing, riding my bike, taking walks! Just chillin

12. who’s the best gay icon in your opinion?
- Big shrug I know nothing about that,

13. which pride flags do you like the most design/color wise?
- I really like the trans flag colours? Agender has a pretty dope flag too.

14. are you openly out?
- Pretty much, yea. Everyone in my circle knows about my sexuality. Gender is a different story, I don't talk about that in person.

15. are you comfortable with yourself?
- Yea! I mean I get real uncomfortable with my body sometimes but I'm fine with my identity really. The things I identify as are all things that feel right to me.

16. bottom or top?
- Uhh I'm not sure

17. femme or butch?
- Is this like what I am most like or what I like most. Because in the first case, butch, in the second, bOTH

18. do you bind?
- Yes, but not often. It took a while for me to be able to wear a binder without getting dizzy, so I'm careful with it and I tend to save it for when I feel really bad because it makes me feel better.

19. do you shave?
- Not usually because I don't really have places to go where it would be visible to anyone pff but sometimes. Usually armpits

20. if you could date anyone you wanted, who would it be?
- This.. one person

21. do you have a partner (s)?
- Yeee.

22. describe your partner (s)?
- The Best. I'm really bad at these questions I'm sorry

23. have you ever dated anyone of the same sex?
- Yea! All my relationships so far hhh

24. anyone of another sex?
-  Nope.

25. pastel gay or goth gay?
- Pastel I suppose.

26. favorite dad in dream daddies?
- Haven't played!

27. tell me a random fact about yourself?
- I have this one scarred toenail that I thought would grow back whole but it's been years so I think it's safe to say that's fairly permanent at this point.

28. do you own any pride flags/merch?
- No... But I want

29. have you ever been to a pride parade?
- No... But I want AND I KEEP MISSING THE BRUSSELS ONE

30. any advice to someone who isn’t out or who is exploring themselves?
- Take your time! It's possible to have things change at a later age, and don't stubbornly hold onto what you think you should be. Be open to possibilities, but don't rush to conclusions. You'll figure it out sometime!


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Canada (upcoming hiatus)

Journal Entry: Wed May 30, 2018, 1:39 AM
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So those who read my journals may remember that I said something about visiting Canada in July. Well... Long story sort, something went wrong with the tickets, and they were issued for June instead. It was our own mistake, but no one caught on until it was too late, and since they didn't allow refunds and changing the tickets would turn out much more expensive than what was already paid... after weighing our options we're just rolling with it OTL It's far from ideal, since June is my exam month, and it will mean I have two extra exams to do in August (plus work on papers in Canada as well), but I just didn't want to miss out on this opportunity because we didn't know when we would be able to do this next and we were finally so close to being there.
So. I'm leaving this Saturday, flying over to Canada with Yialo to meet draqiin and stay at his house for two weeks. And by that I mean "this is the plan" because with all that has gone wrong so far, I'm very paranoid and I still feel like something will get in the way last minute. But hopefully not. I've only flown once before and that was when I was a child, and I've never actually been outside of Europe yet, so it's going to be an adventure! I'm also rEALLY excited to see my best friends and hang out with the two of them together. We have wanted this for about three years, it feels so unreal that it's finally actually happening for real. So I'm praying the part where everything goes wrong is already over pLEASE

Anyway, I don't know if and how much I will draw in that time, because I never seem to draw much when I'm elsewhere, but I might get a few things done. I'll probably still look on here, but I might not be very active if at all, and if I get new commissions they're probably going to have to wait until after I return because I might not take my own laptop along in the first place. When I come back there will be some paper deadlines and one remaining exam, so June is going to be busy. This was nOT the way I intended things to go but we're just going to roll with it and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't excited as well. To those of you who are on summer break, I hope you enjoy it! And to those who still have exams, hang in there, sending you good luck! To those of you who have neither, I hope you're having an enjoyable time regardless.

TL;DR probably low activity through June, might be slow to respond, will be unable to work on commissions during the first half of June and will still be busy during the second half.

Bien Doing Things by SpitfiresOnIce Wiggle wiggle

Experimental MS Paint Commissions

Journal Entry: Mon May 14, 2018, 3:00 AM
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Hey hey
I've been doodling in MS Paint and wanted to see if there was interest in doodles like these for commissions?
They're sort of bust/halfbody-ish and can be in colours of your choice, you can give me a palette of 3-4 colours to work with or just leave it up to me. The background can be single colour, gradient, pattern or a simple scribbled background. They will be done within a couple days of ordering, at latest.
Sail away with me by SpitfiresOnIceWell, you still make sense to me by SpitfiresOnIce
It'd be €8/880:points: for a single character and €10/1100:points: for two characters!

1. Reita-Kei PAID
2. feathers418 PAID
3. lamelamb PAID

Extra slots because I'm WEAK
4. wolfie1998 PAID
5. Griwi PAID
6. IceeTeaa PAID

I'm going to open three slots for now and see where that goes. If you're interested in buying other types of art from me, my regular commissions are also open!

Bien Doing Things by SpitfiresOnIce Wiggle wiggle

I was tagged

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 21, 2018, 4:26 AM


Hey hey hey
Guess who has airplane tickets to see their best friends in July,,,, I'm going to Canada for two weeks to be with Tiny Gang and I'm excited. First time flying alone. I've only been in an airplane once as a child, so, this should be an experience! I'll probably be anxious about it a lot, so prepare yourselves.
Also sunkissin tagged me so I'm just going to, answer her questions but not make new ones or tags because I don't want to,

1) What was your childhood obsession?
Pokémon and animals. I obsessively read books about animals and it was practically all I talked about. Pokémon was usually all I thought about at any given moment. At some point I became a horse person after going to a horse camp. Those were my main obsessions at the time.
2) Which upcoming film are you most looking forward to?
Love, Simon isn't out in Europe yet. I probably won't be able to see it in the cinema, but... still looking forward to seeing it.
3) Who's/what's your favourite YouTuber(s)/YouTube series?
Jacksfilms, but I haven't been keeping up with anything on YouTube as of late, so I haven't watched him in a while.
4) If you could make a film about any of your characters, which one would it be?
None of them have developed stories that I like enough so I'd just be embarassed about any of them hHTCVHYGT
5) What's your idea of a perfect burger?
Has Good Bread. And is not too dry overall. Tomato is good. Leaf
6) Which way is toilet paper supposed to face, inwards or outwards?
Follow your dreams... I hang it inward facing but. Eh
7) What's your favourite subject to research?
Honestly, probably still animal stuff. I love reading about such things. Psychology is interesting, too.
8) What was the best show on TV when you were a child?
Pokémon, but I was a fan of Hamtaro too. And anything on Ketnet fffff
9) What's your favourite animal to see at the zoo?
I like the equines usually, and a few others, like the Rhim gazelle, otters, wallabies. Turtles/tortoises too.
10) Ultimate comfort film, show and/or game?
Film... Don't have any. Show is How I Met Your Mother and Brooklyn 99. Game is Animal Crossing and Life is Strange (that is, the chill parts of the game that aren't heartbreaking).
11) What's the weirdest thing you've learned recently?
I feel like I did learn something weird recently, but I can't think of it?
12) How do you tame a horse in Minecraft?
I don't play Minecraft... I have no idea... carefully, I imagine


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  • Listening to: Avicii

WhooOOOO journal memes

Journal Entry: Wed Feb 28, 2018, 3:24 AM


I stole this from Irwin and Cricket. Nice

1. I've come to realize that my hair:
Will probably never be dyed because apparently that's just, not a thing I want. Also it's hard to get it to look messy in a good way, which is sad

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
I zone out a lot, lose my train of thought, and don't get to express myself properly a lot of the time. Talking is really hard but I still want to try.

3. I've come to realize that I don't want:
Uncertainty about anything and everything anymore. You can't predict everything in life, but you have to have certain elements in your life that are stable.

4. I've come to realize that all I really need:
Is my close family, friends and my partners. It's cliche but it's become more and more clear

5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
The ability to really believe in some things and be open. I'm way more sceptical than I used to, I don't disclose things as easily as I used to. I think in some ways, it's a good thing, but in others, it's a bit sad.

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
I know very well what the right thing to do for myself is, and I still do the opposite because it just feels better. I know very well and yet

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk:
I will probably surprise a lot of people because who would've expected that

8. I've come to realize that money:
Is really useful when you're trying to start your own life or advance in life in any way.

9. I've come to realize that when I get old:
I will be someplace I absolutely cannot imagine myself being right now. I have no idea what the future will be like whatsoever.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
Gay and irresponsible

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
Someone who has enough to deal with as is and doesn't need my nonsense on top of that, probably

12. I've come to realize that the last time I smiled was:
Today? But I don't know why exactly

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
Is sort of important given it's the main way I have to communicate with the people that give me emotional support.

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
I tend to fall asleep again and mess around on my phone. I often just look at messages I have, then proceed to not respond and just sleep another hour or two.

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
Say goodnight to my partners and sometimes other people. It's become a ritual to say goodnight to everyone, it's kind of nice.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
How I need to make better life decisions and be a better person for people, in different ways. I want to be a positive influence but I don't know if I am, maybe.

17. I've come to realize that my life:
Is rather mundane on one hand and confuses me on the other. But we'll see where it goes.

18. I've come to realize that my favorite drink is:
Tea. Particularly Twinings English Breakfast. I drink it almost every day now, it just feels right.

19. I've come to realize that today I will have:
Spaghetti. I'm actually not sure of that, but I really hope I will you know

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
Talk to my people and watch some Netflix/Rabb.it, maybe have a call? Spending time with people either way.

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
Go to class, and I don't want to, I really just want to sleep and draw.

22. I've come to realize that I really want to:
Figure out my feelings and either have drastic things happen or get over myself. I just want something to change, whether it's one way or another you know

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is:
Probably someone who watches me. Hi person reposting this meme, how are you

24. I've come to realize relationships are:
So Incredibly Difficult and hard work. Maybe it's easy with some people, I don't know, it's never come naturally for me, but I still want to try

25. I've come to realize that love:
Can mean like, so many things. But regardless, love is good.

26. I've come to realize my best guy friend:
shrug emoji because genders, idk,

27. I've come to realize my best girl friend:
also shrug emoji because genders,

28. I've come to realize food is:
Something I really look forward to but that I need to spend less money on

29: I've come to realize that this summer:
Is either going to be me working all the time and not going to feel like summer at all OR me going on an adventure I will never forget, we'll see what happens

30. I've come to realize heartbreak:
Is sometimes necessary but if it happens too often you should probably protect yourself better and evaluate what you're doing

31. I've come to realize that the person I like:
Is a good person who I want to keep around regardless of what happens

32. I've come to realize that my brother:
Is good but living with him again is sometimes frustrating and can get on my nerves

33. I've come to realize that crying:
Is something I find really hard to do? Like, often, these days I want to, but I can't. I don't remember when I last cried, often I just sit around feeling bad with no way to get it out of my system.

34. I've come to realize that death:
Scares me.

35. I've come to realize that if I'm sick:
I'm usually not sick enough to stay home from work or uni, so it's the worthless kind of sick.

36. I've come to realize when I'm bored:
I tend to not do anything I could do to solve that (be productive, read a new book, watch a new series, play a new game) and just go do something I've already done many times.

37. After answering every question I realize that:
A lot of these are, in fact, recent realizations. Huh



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  • Watching: Friends
  • Eating: Mini chocolate eggs
  • Drinking: Tea

On vacation for a week + journal meme

Journal Entry: Sun Feb 4, 2018, 1:48 AM
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Hey hey hey
Little update journal for a heads up! I will be traveling to England tomorrow to meet TheDogzLife and hang out with them, and I will come back home Saturday evening. I will be having access to DeviantArt and Twitter, but I don't know how often I'll be on here, and I might not draw anything during that time or reply to long comments! I will try to finish any commissions I have today, if that doesn't work out I will try my best to finish them next Sunday. If I take a while to get back to you, this is why!
Have a great week :thumbsup:

I'm really looking forward to traveling again for a bit though, and I can't wait to be there aaaaaaaaa time for an Adventure


Anyway, here is a meme stolen from the one and only TheOutli3R because it looked fun!

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1.) Meet Tiny Gang!
2.) Get a cat, rabbit, and/or a pony.
3.) Travel outside of Europe.
 
Three Names You Go By:
1.) Bienie
2.) Bien, Biens, and various variations of that name, many bean puns
3.) Annechien I guess

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1.) SpitfiresOnIce
2.) Misstepper
3.) Hestur, in the past, sadly not available on DeviantArt,,, weh

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1.) My hair is okay right now 
2.) Myyyyyyy eyes are also okayish I guess even though they always look tired help
3.) I guess my overall body shape? Sort of

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1.) Belgian
2.) that's it that's all the parts
3.) I don't have an interesting heritage or anything rip

Three Things That Scare You:
1.) Heights
2.) Public speaking
3.) Being on my own with no idea how to do anything

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1.) English Breakfast Tea
2.) My phone, probably
3.) Conversations with Dog, Tiny Gang and Serval

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1.) A blue sweater with some pretentious quote on it in white letters
2.) A blue shirt also with white letters on it that I assume is equally pretentious
3.) Black trousers

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1.) Bloc Party, probably
2.) Idk this is hard I mainly listen to individual songs. Coldplay I suppose
3.) Uhhh Paramore but i haven't listened to them in a while

Three Of Your Favorite Songs: (just going to list songs I have listened to a lot recently)
1.) Flashlight - The Front Bottoms
2.) Happy Pills - Weathers
3.) Hold Back The River - James Bay (probably my general favourite song)

Three Things You Want In A Relationship: sWEATS
1.) Trust
2.) Communication
3.) Comfort

Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):
1.) My favourite letter is A
2.) I do not like anything coffee-flavoured
3.) I have one scarred toenail that I assumed would grow back to normal in time but I guess not

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1.) Drawing
2.) Walking or riding my bike
3.) Caring for houseplants

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1.) Finish the commissions I owe
2.) Get my life sorted out somehow
3.) Be with my favourite people

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1.) Illustrator
2.) Librarian
3.) Veterinarian (when I was really young)

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1.) Iceland
2.) Scotland, or Ireland, or actually many British places
3.) Canada

Three Kid's Names You Like:
1.) Many are nice
2.) but also aren't kids names just people names
3.) like they don't suddenly gain adult names when they grow up

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
1.) this
2.) is
3.) stupid
(Keeping Kitsch's answers here thank you Kitsch)

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:

1.) this
2.) is (also)
3.) stupid
(Again thank you Kitsch)

Bien Doing Things by SpitfiresOnIce Wiggle wiggle