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okay fuck i keep looking at myself in the mirror and looking at pictures of myself but it doesn't feel like what i'm seeing is me and this is really freaking me out 

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AnAuddBall Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I think that's disassociation. If I get engulfed in thought I have trouble recognizing myself in the mirror and sorta phase out- it gives me really bad anxiety when I realize I have it. It can go from "that's really me?" To "oh shit I am a human that exists"
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spiderliings Featured By Owner May 2, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
aaaa yeah that's pretty much me rn :\ it's making me think about life and stuff and it's freaking me out lol
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AnAuddBall Featured By Owner May 2, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh jeez. I get it a lot during existential crises too- I only know stuff from experience, but you could try to "ground" yourself? 
Like- do something physical or something that reminds you that you're "here". Might at least distract your thoughts a bit.  
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spiderliings Featured By Owner May 6, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
yeah that helps a little bit, thank you :0
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canislupus247 Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Disassociation or body dysphoria? Sometimes though I will almost feel like I'm having some sort of out of body experience? Like my body is someone else's and they're puppeteering while I'm forced to watch... I get anxious when I look at older pictures of myself. Last time I actually cried. I used to have long hair and seeing myself that way just feels disgusting to me. I look at her and think to myself "That's not me!"
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spiderliings Featured By Owner May 2, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
yikes man that sounds scary ;;; that's kinda what i'm going through right now honestly, like nothing feels real and i'm just kinda going through the motions of life i guess :/
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canislupus247 Featured By Owner May 2, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know how rough it can be but I promise you things will change. Things will get better. You will be okay. <3 Feel free to talk to me whenever.
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spiderliings Featured By Owner May 2, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you so much oh my gosh,, i really appreciate your help!!! <3
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