So it's probably about time I started to get into the journal after being away from DA so long.
I had a rough childhood to say the least and things seemed to pick up when I moved out of home. And then they all went to shit making the ptsd I could deal with unbearable after having a young girl die in my arms while I was at work. And everything got hard. Sleep got harder because when ever I would sleep i would relive events. I would wake up sweating, shaking uncontrollably as well as hyperventilating and this would happen every day. It started to get better and not because I was coping with what had happened but this was just what would happen day in and out now. However in the past few months I have bean reliving these events while awake with no triggers or warning. So I have bean finding it hard to leave the house and am trying to find a way to cope with this is me now!