Last year’s journal
Fun Fact: My 'anniversary' is actually today. But I posted my other anniversary journals on the 2nd because I mistakenly thought I set my fake birth date to the day I registered. I realized it was actually the day before but I decided to just roll with it. I'm posting it on the correct date now because I procrastinated. Oops!
So now it's been 5 years since I made an account here. And let me just say:
This year was an absolute trainwreck.
Not exactly what I was expecting to report, but I guess stuff happens. It's not as positive, but it's the truth. But I don't want to selectively make anniversary journals only when I've had a good year.
So yeah, this year was... interesting.
I don't think it went well for this account and especially my personal life. I was (and still am) very lost with what I wanted to do with my art, so I just waffled around, doing random studies but never doing any real projects. That’s why I was so inactive: I was drawing, but I never had anything completed to post. I didn’t know what to do and I was frozen with indecision. Additionally, since I have to start thinking about college, I was spending more time with graphic design (what I want to major in), which was not in accordance with the goals I set for 2018.
So here’s how my goals actually turned out:
1. Become more comfortable with humans
I desperately need to get over this fear of human anatomy. I will probably do some challenge where I can only draw humans or something like that. I don't think I can make humans as intuitive as animals in a year, but I want to get very close. This year I mostly studied individual body parts, now it's time to put it all together.
If there is one thing I focused on, it’s human anatomy. I did a lot
of studying, and I tried way more projects with humans. My gallery has more humans than ever, as do all my monthly doodles. Humans are still quite difficult and daunting for me, but I am more willing to draw them than I was last year. I will say that I completed this goal.
2. Study environments
Like a lot of artists, backgrounds are my weakness. I want to become more familiar with them. I save a lot of landscapes on reddit so maybe I will start by studying those. Again, I'll probably do some challenge to really get me into it. I'm also rather bad at things like plants or architecture, and learning environments will help me with that.
Yeah... this didn’t really happen. I did try to complete this goal, but I would say that my skills with environments/backgrounds are basically the same. I started a study, but then I just fell off the rails. I did a couple things here and there, but it was definitely not thorough enough. It’s a shame, I really wish I had skill with backgrounds. I’m not going to say I completed this one.
3. Keep drawing traditionally
I learned a couple things about traditional last year, but I'm still pretty clueless about the medium. I'm planning to study a lot of speed draws and watch tutorials to help me get through this. It's shame there aren't really resources for people trying to transition from digital to traditional, but I digress.
I’m a little conflicted. I did less traditional work than last year but I still did a significant amount (for me, anyway. For any traditional artist it would be nothing) and I’m much more proud of it. There were many points in the year when I tried to incorporate traditional drawing into my regular practice, but it just didn’t happen. I did do a lot of traditional when I vacationed in Utah and did some observational studies. I’m proud of that, but that’s the bulk of what I did in terms of traditional. I also was in an art class during March so I did draw traditionally there but I never really counted that. Plus, the more I focused on graphic design, the less incentive I had to break out that sketchbook. Looking back, I realized I did more traditional than I thought but I do not think it’s enough to say I completed this goal.
Here’s the final roster (it hurts to type this part):
Become more comfortable with humans
- Study environments
- Keep drawing traditionally
Ah, it’s painful to see I only completed one. I was hoping that this would be the first year I completed all of them. But hey, at least I completed the most urgent one.
Last year I also wondered if I should keep track of how often I actually draw. So I took a screenshot of my calendar for the year and crossed out the days I had drawn. I circled days that I was not planning to draw for various reasons (mostly studying). And I actually kept this up for the most part! Until I totally crashed near the end of the year after starting a new school year. Here’s what it looked like:
I'm not sure how I feel about it. I keep switching between thinking I did enough and thinking I could've done waaaayyyy more. It just upsets me when I look at months like February. I had a valid reason (finals +some other things) but I also remember how I made time to do a commission (that's the X on the 19th) and I just think to myself, "well why couldn't I do that for my regular practice?" I have NO excuse for May tho. My apathy levels were through the roof. Technically
I drew every day because of my art class but I don't count that.
So that's 2018 I guess. Honestly I'm just glad it's behind me. I don't have high hopes for 2019 but I'm going to try anyway. This is supposed to be the part where I make a new list of goals, but I'm so scattered I don't think I will this year. I need to sort out some stuff. If I set goals now I doubt I will stick to them, and I might decide that I need to focus on something else. 2019's anniversary journal will be interesting for sure.