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10-2-15 by Sparaze 10-2-15 by Sparaze
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As of today, two years have already gone by since I lost my brother.

Sometimes it feels like everything still only happened a few days ago and I'll be expecting you to come home soon. Sometimes it feels like it's been an eternity and I hardly remember the sound of your voice. Each day gets a little easier to stomach, but the pain never fully disappears. Especially on days like today. No matter how much I don't want to, there are moments where I still can't help but be angry at the cause. I never know what scenarios would be better or worse, but no amount of thinking can change what happened.

I miss you and all the plans you and I both had for the future. I miss your stupid jokes, optimistic attitude, your ability to help me and encourage me to do new things whether you always knew it or meant to or not. Everything I do or see reminds me of you and how I wish I could share my accomplishments and experiences with you, only to realize I can't. It gets better, but sometimes it doesn't seem that way.

You positively touched so many people with your life, no matter how short and unfair and even now you continue to do so with the things that have been left behind. I know those with you at the time did as well. 

I love you, Natedog. 
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:iconccdoomo:
CCDooMo Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
*huggles you bab*
Families are forever
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Sparaze Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Ahhh, thanks CC. ;u; <333
*snuggles*
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Marietsloth Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Aa man, that's a lot to go through ;0; He sounds like a wonderful person!
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Sparaze Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Yeah it is a lot. Thank you though, I really appreciate it! 
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Marietsloth Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
<3
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Firewolf-Anime Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
We love you and we're here for you bby ;u; *snuggles*

He really does sound like an amazing person and you're every little bit as amazing ;u; 

His life continues through you, so continue to share his optimism to the world ^u^ :heart:
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Sparaze Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Thank you, Fire. ;u; <33

I certainly do my best.
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Firewolf-Anime Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
*huggles you*
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Nythero Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Ahhh by I'm so sorry I wish there was something I could do for you but I definitely feel for you now more than ever <3
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Sparaze Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2017  Student Digital Artist
I know. I've been thinking about you a lot too and honestly, could say the same. Love you <3
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Bluemoon9628 Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2017
*Gives you loves* :heart:
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:iconsparaze:
Sparaze Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Thanks, Blue. <33
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NoodleRyuu Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2017  Student General Artist
*hugs close* I know you've been dealing with this for a while and I wish I could do something to fix it, and I always have since that night.
He touched your life in such a wonderful way and I love when you talk about him openly because you really do light up. It hurts and it's never not going to. I can promise you that, but you have support and love and memories and you always will.

I love you bab and you are the greatest friend in the world. You are one of my best friends and one of my longest lived friendships and I wish I could have met him because he really was such an amazing brother to you.

*more hugs*
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Sparaze Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Thank you bab. it means a lot to me to hear all that. I really appreciate it. I wish you had gotten to actually meet him too.
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NoodleRyuu Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2017  Student General Artist
Of course bab *snuggles*
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Rain847 Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
*snuggles intensely*
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Sparaze Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2017  Student Digital Artist
*huuuggsss* <3
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