it takes time for me to open up to others in a deep sense but im generally outgoing and make an effort to get to know new people if i also have friends im close to to fall back on when i needa just take a breather bc im also an anxious lil nerd im a bit spontaneous chaotic neutral i think i probably come across as very anxious and inclined until u really just talk to me or i manage to talk to you i a pretty complicated kid that has a lot going on internally to work out
IRL and online are both hard fppfghfg like, I can start conversations, but then I get too shy to talk to them again and get panicky if I see them send me something bc I don't wanna say the Wrong Thing! It's tough :~(
it's pretty easy for me to make friends irl so long as we share a few common interests but i suck at starting and holding conversations; especially online i just want friends but am an anxious soft boy ;___;
acquaintances are easy to find, dime a dozen to graduate into a True and Honest friend of mine you must pass the standardized exam in which you are tested on time, life approach, and general moralities
i can easily make friends irl i just dont want them lmao bc most ppl i know are like "fRienDz are ppl u talk 2 and laff and share food w/ xD" um i can do that but thats an acquaintance my version of friend is years of work, assertion, honesty, respect, trust and all... able to repair after every argument.... not afraid to tell the other theyre in the wrong, wanting the best for each other... THAT'S a friend. i dont want no disposable side ho lmao.
..........aka i havent made a new true friend in years--