Reading: Fandom posts on Tumblr
Watching: Lots of anime
Playing: Zelda Breath of the Wild
I seem to be unable to get myself to do so. It's not just a lack of confidence. It's a fear from within me. I don't want to be a failure. I always feel like I really have to prove myself. I can't really measure up to the skills of normal people. I don't learn quickly. I've been pretty stagnated since the early 2000's. I've only improved very little. I don't really know how to have fun with art anymore. I guess because I have to compete with easy _____... I feel like if I don't find success that I really am worthless. I wasn't this messed up a few years ago. I just feel like I'm completely on my own. Whenever I try to reach out everyone is too busy. I don't know what to do.
I am sorry for the angst. I'm just tired of living like this.