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I seem to be unable to get myself to do so. It's not just a lack of confidence. It's a fear from within me. I don't want to be a failure. I always feel like I really have to prove myself. I can't really measure up to the skills of normal people. I don't learn quickly. I've been pretty stagnated since the early 2000's. I've only improved very little. I don't really know how to have fun with art anymore. I guess because I have to compete with easy _____... I feel like if I don't find success that I really am worthless. I wasn't this messed up a few years ago. I just feel like I'm completely on my own. Whenever I try to reach out everyone is too busy. I don't know what to do.

I am sorry for the angst. I'm just tired of living like this.

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scriptor09 Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the Llama!
La la la la La la la la La la la la La la la la La la la la  
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Soreiya Featured By Owner 2 days ago
You're welcome.
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Mr-Spriken Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You've got some nice and cute art works. The colors you choose look very cozy. Keep up the good work!
d:V /)
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Soreiya Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2018
You're much braver than me in your work. Doing comics and such seems fun, but difficult. Also you use Clip Studio as well eh? That program is really nice for lineart. Your work has a kind of pencil drawing style.

Sorry for the slow reply, got more stitches and spent most of the day in bed because I have not been sleeping well.
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Mr-Spriken Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for your kind words :)  I use an early version of Clip Studio which is Manga Studio 4.0, I use it precisely to achieve that pencil look brush. I would agree that making comics is difficult, but then again I think drawing in general is difficult! For me it takes a lot of energy and focus and such that I rarely have in great supply. 

I'm sorry to hear you haven't been sleeping well and that you may be injured since you mentioned getting stitches. I hope you are ok and that its nothing too serious.

I saw you have a youtube channel as well, so I subscribed to see how you go about making illustrations by painting. I have always enjoyed how pees can do such things.
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Soreiya Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2018
I still have to reinstall Clip Studio because Windows Update gave me a blue screen of death. :( I collected a fair amount of brushes, but I seem to always gravitate to the default ones. pfft I have not drawn in a while since I don't have too much confidence.

It's just preventative stuff. I've never gotten stitches from an injury. Hopefully I never have to. They are annoying. x____X I just want to sleep normally. but being limited to 1 side had made it difficult.

I have not uploaded anything to youtube for a while. I really don't know what I am doing when I paint so I'm not sure if anyone can learn anything from me. I guess if anyone had any questions I could try to make a new video.
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AaronFireBird1 Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2018
Thank you for the llama have a good day.
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Soreiya Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2018
You're welcome. I hope you have a nice day as well.
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AaronFireBird1 Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2018
Your welcome have a good day. Thanks
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jbtigre Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2018
Thanks for the llama!:D (Big Grin) 
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