Hello!I know that there are times where I often say how I don't like sharing things any of my very amazing watchers would find boring. And I do apologise if whilst reading the following, you find it un-relatable or uninteresting to you.
This is something I would like to share with people, maybe to give an idea of how to deal with things or to show others something you can overcome.
There are people who told me about the things I couldn’t do. They told me that I cannot do what I want to achieve. One of my biggest problems is that I listened to them and I believed them. I kept telling myself I cannot do this, they’re right. I also asked myself; why am I doing this if I cannot do it? If I cannot achieve what I want to at the end then why am I working towards it? I was living in the shadow of a girl who couldn’t believe in herself. A girl who believed she couldn’t do it because some told her she couldn’t; the shadow of the girl who believed the naysayers. I didn’t have an answer to why I believed all of that. I guess I just thought I know nothing so whenever I was told “No.” I thought they were right and I was wrong. Told myself “I’m never going to be able to be who I want to be or who I aspire to be.”
Until one day I thought, how do they know any better? What makes me believe them so much? If they knew me in such a way they would believe in me even with the obstacles I have instead of telling me “You know what. You can’t, even though you try. You just won’t be able to.” I don’t think it was their fault that they have told me such things, I think it is my fault that I have actually listened and believed them.
When you have so much fire inside you and someone tells you “you can’t.” You’ll just laugh at them because they don’t know what you’re up against. You know yourself and what you’re capable of. And you realise that’s your repellent against such people. The fire inside you and the passion will make everyone else’s “No.” mean nothing to you.
I think at the time, I believed because I didn’t want it that much anyway. I didn’t see it in front of me. However, now I have a very clear vision of who and what I want to be. I’ve even written about it a couple of times, who I want to be and what I am capable of achieving. My clear vision now tells me exactly what to do, who am I and why do I do what I love. I know what I love and what I am supposed to do. Because I know, because I see it in front of me I have become untouchable. No one can tell me what I cannot do anymore. I know it’s not the people who are so negative around you I know it’s not them. It’s the sounds in my own head. It’s me, it’s my fear and I will not allow that fear to consume me anymore. It will push me to get where I want to be.
So now when you ask, I actually know what I want in my life and if anyone tells me I can’t. It doesn’t matter because I see it in front of me I just have to reach out for it, and you know what; I am reaching out for it. It’s just a little bit until I get there. Just a little bit and I will get there.
I guess I wrote this to say that cancelling the negative voices and letting the fear be your guide to success is the way to go. Let your fear drive you to do what you want and not drive you away from doing it. Also the passion you have to anything will make you get through it.
I'm not weird I just love being me.
after all the shit I've been through what I am now is pretty good. I like to admit that what I have been through made me who I am today
A short dance.You'll feel my heart beat, it's hard to breath
I want you next to me....desperately
You've got me questioning destiny
Because you're everything.
So dance with me.
Crushing on YouI see you standing there
Watching me from afar
Wondering what I think of you
But you don’t know
I watch you too
Wondering how you’d react,
If I actually asked you
So many thoughts going through my head
So many questions
You seem so shy
I’ll make my move
And maybe you’ll say yes
Your eyes say so
Hopefully your heart will too
I Was Your ChildI was your child from within
Then you abandoned me
And they arrived to kill
Letting myself go free
Replacing your life with shame
Maybe I could have saved you
But you ignored me instead
Letting me fade as lovelessness grew
You gave me no option
But to lose your companion
As the ego pushed me aside
Making its own opinion
I was the child that made you laugh
At times when you were heartbroken
During your moments of low spirits
In your tearful words ever spoken