Lacking

in ignorance i've come to find
my mind is overwhelmed
the knowledge i seek desperately is blinded
by naivety-bigotry-sins against mankind
i turn to hide my face in shame, but the light forever shines
on me, the spotlight unforgiving, consuming
all of me becomes distraught and aching
though i suppose my heart the worse
i've gambled and lost and lost again
as a companion these liquid-lined eyes turn cold
as a lover, we may never know.