Hi...first off, I want to say thank you for all the birthday wishes/and art in November, Happy late Thanksgiving, Merry late Christmas and Happy New Year...
I'm making this journal today to explain a few things, mainly my absence here on DA, but to also kinda give some news.
Well, since June of last year I've held a retail job at my local store. Life has been crazy busy to the point I don't really have that much time for myself or my art. On days off, I do get to doodle and chat with a few friends, but I'm mainly resting for the next day I go to work. Its difficult for me, I get overwhelmed a lot with so many people. Even tough its about to be 7 months this month. So if your working in retail the same as me, I know the feeling now and it's terrible. But someone's got to do it, right? ;___;
Anyways, I've been hospitalized 2 times already. Once in early December I was hospitalized for dehydration and stress/anxiety. Work was particular rough those days following the trip to the hospital so its no surprise. Least for me that is. Recently this month I was also sent to the hospital because I passed out due to a sheer amount of stress and anxiety, that wasn't work related. Yeah...this was more for personal reasons that my body refused to respond to me. Lets just say, a lot of things aren't right with my mental health right now.
For years now I've battled with my emotions. Some of you have known this. Though this year, I feel its gonna be different from now on. Both in a negative and a positive way. Negative cus I might be medically diagnosed in the next few days, but that means I will be getting the help I've been needing all these years. Especially for the last 3 years that I really needed the help. Since 2016 was the start of my rapid decline in mental health and overall health, til now with my retail job and other personal issues, its gotten to the point where I might not be around and having to take care of myself. Self care as I once called it. Since it doesn't look like I matter anymore on here, having people believe false rumors of me and all that. This place is just not home anymore to me, if im not wanted or believed. That's what happens to good people that had their names dragged in dirty and kicked while they were down. I can't say more cuz then "drama" starts. That's something I don't want, but needs to be said cus its part of why im going to the hospital for not being able to speak my mind.
Anyways, as for my art, I might still post, but not as often as I should be. Commissions are closed as well as everything else. I might possibly start school again in the fall, but I will still be working as well and that will eat up my times off. So my art will be slow in posting and or chatting with some of you.
I'm getting rid of all the old comments and comment stacks so I can start off new. So if you left a comment, I'm sorry I didn't respond to it. I will try better next time, and no that's not a promise. I won't make promised I know I won't keep. Even right now, its taken a lot out of me just to type this up. So I will be heading offline, cuz this place just gives me bad vibes.
So yeah, thats all the update and news I have for the start of 2019... Hope you guys and gals are doing okay, and that you have a great 2019 year. Take care yourselves, and hope that when I get better mentally, I might come around a bit more often. But again, no promises.