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Okay, so I'm going to try and remember to go through all the things that have happened/are happening this past two weeks and in the near future. There's a lot. And some of it is pretty serious. I'd recommend reading all, but if you want to just read the most important part, it is the last paragraph.
(Also, this is NOT an April Fool's joke. I only realized after I posted it that it could be misconstrued. I'm 100% not joking in any part of this journal.)

So, two weeks ago, I got really sick. What I had is kinda personal but it was a viral infection and I was often hopped up on meds, but still the pain was too great that I couldn't eat. I didn't eat solid food for a whole week because of lesions in my mouth and throat and on my gums. I also had really high fevers that made me delirious and I missed most of school that week. I lost a lot of weight and a lot of strength, but it did eventually pass and I have been able to eat for a few days now. My gums are actually still sore and healing, but they will soon be fully healed. 

As you already know, I started work in fast food service. So far I've only been working the grill. I can safely say that I hate it, lmao. I'm looking for a new job already. Until then I'm probably stuck with it, but I do need better hours because I need more sleep for school. I'm looking for something in retail or, ideally, a pet store (there aren't many around here that aren't 18+). But not this. I have insane hours right now and I'm technically on my spring break but practically not. I make minimum wage so I'm not too happy with it, but whatever. It's the experience, right? At least I tried it and know it's not for me and I'm motivated to find another job.

Yesterday I went to Comic Con for the first time, and it was awesome! This is the healthiest and happiest I've been in a while, but it sapped a lot of my energy! I had all weekend off, I go back to work tomorrow. It was my first convention ever, and it was so much fun. I went with my brother and his girlfriend, and I was away from home for two days. I didn't meet any of the celebrities there but I bought a couple of prints and I saw a lot of cool cosplayers and pet some cool reptiles. I had a lot of fun. After the con we went to a soccer game. I stayed with my brother in his apartment the whole time and when we weren't doing stuff we were just chilling watching Adventure Time.

Also... I visited the pet store while I was in Indianapolis and I saw a bird there that I absolutely fell in love with. I'm considering driving all the way back just to get him (her?) after my first paycheck lol. I'm... thinking about it... [thinking emoji]

Unfortunately something else health-related has come up. On Friday morning, I woke up with a butterfly rash on my face. For those who don't know, butterfly rash is a facial rash that tends to have serious implications, and it is a tell-tale symptom of an autoimmune disorder called lupus. We'd never really considered the idea that I might have lupus before, but after doing research... it really looks like I do. It can be brought on by the viral infection that I had, and symptoms are often aggravated by stress, which... I spent approximately 50% of last week in tears. So. It's safe to say I was pretty stressed.
I've had a lot of other symptoms that have plagued me (seemingly without explanation) for all of my life and that would make sense under this diagnosis. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow for blood tests and such to determine whether or not I have it, but I probably won't know for a while the results of the test. I'll update with a new journal when I get the results, whether positive or negative, or if I have something else. Either way, something is not right with my body, and even small infections could be really dangerous to me right now so I'm trying to play it safe and be careful. My family on my mother's side also has a history of lupus and some women have had it so aggressively that they were unable to have children.
If it happens to come back positive that I do have lupus, and it is now active, it will seriously affect my life. So this is pretty important... and it's a little scary for me.

At an aside, here are some pictures from the con! Including the prints I got. (I don't know who any of the cosplayers are, but if you would happen to know them... lemme know. The Fallout couple was so sweet, idk who they are but I'd die to find them.)

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lolpeaceoutlol Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wow dude I'm so sorry! :C I just want you to know that I'm here for you if you ever need to talk <3
I hope the doctors visit goes well! Please keep us updated! 
Sending good vibes your way <3
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softcrows Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2018
thank you Em! <3
it's okay! i'm trying to not make assumptions and not worry as much as possible, it's just a little difficult with such a serious subject. ): i will definitely update as i hear more! thank you so much ♥
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lolpeaceoutlol Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
of course! Yeah worrying isn't going to help at this point, you've just got to hope for the best! I did understand that it is hard not too worry tho. 
You're very welcome <3
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casprak Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
oh my goodness... i am so, so sorry about all of this. i'm here for you 100%, sorry
for being so unavailable all the time but please feel free to just vent to me on discord
any time. even if i'm not there at the time, i'll come back asap and try and help out
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softcrows Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2018
hey it's okay! i haven't been super public about any of it because i wanted to wait for certain results, but i figured maybe it was better to update people. i can share the results later whether it's good news or bad news ;;
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casprak Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i'll keep my fingers crossed that it's good! hang in there :'^)
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