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Ranebows by snowballchibikat Ranebows :iconsnowballchibikat:snowballchibikat 16 5 Love Like Woe by snowballchibikat Love Like Woe :iconsnowballchibikat:snowballchibikat 13 13 Cat and Mouse by snowballchibikat Cat and Mouse :iconsnowballchibikat:snowballchibikat 9 1
Inside My Mind
This thing inside of my head
is screaming out, like a small child,
afraid of the dark,
who just had all the lights turned out.
There is a tumor in my mind,
secreting the chemicals of fear.
(anger, too, but the fear is more prominent)
It pulsates with thought.
The darkness gets deeper.
The child screams louder.
She is deafening me!
All the sounds of the real world
(wherever that is)
are muffled
drowned out by the sound of heartbeats
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Survivor by snowballchibikat Survivor :iconsnowballchibikat:snowballchibikat 1 0 Let's Play A Game. by snowballchibikat Let's Play A Game. :iconsnowballchibikat:snowballchibikat 1 1
A Warning
Dear You, All of You, Anyone Who Has Ever Had, Has, or Will Ever Have a Boyfriend or Girlfriend,
This is for you. A warning. From me.
Things can happen. Things can go wrong. Relationships can hurt, and not just in the normal way.
This is for you. Read carefully. I don't want anyone else to ever feel the way I do right now.
Abuse can happen. It does happen. To anyone. You're not immune. I know, I thought I was, too. But the way I'm feeling right now is telling me otherwise.
It doesn't have to be physical or sexual. It hurts just as badly to toy with someone's emotions, manipulate their conscience and their fears. So I'm here to warn you. To let you know what happened to me. See, abuse has levels. In comparison to others, I got off lightly. But that doesn't make it okay or right, not by any means.
So, for starters. It can be hard to spot an abuser from the first meetings. Looking back, though, I can see I had signs. One story is blatantly obvious now.
My abuser and I had just started our
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Irrefutable Proof
Once, there was a girl.
No, sorry. That's a lie. Once, there were two girls. But one of them was me.
They met at a camp. A church camp, irony of ironies. One was wild. She liked to drink, she liked to have fun. She loved her boyfriend, and she knew who she was. The other girl did not.
I felt lost, unlovable, ugly, alone. I was sheltered and longed for something more. She told me she was bisexual, and I didn't know what to think.
Camp ended and the girls went home. They lived close enough that there was the possibility of seeing each other, but far enough that it never quite happened.  They texted, short conversations every few months, as their own lives went on.
I dated boys. I kissed boys. I was used, manipulated, insulted, pressured by them. Every relationship had a major flaw. I came to respect myself, to find out and even like who I was. And I came to appreciate women.
The girls started talking again one day. Really talking, for a long time. And they kept talking, day aft
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I suppose I should be crying right now. Everyone else is. Even the sky is crying for you. Isn't that strange? The sky cries for you, but the person who's supposed to be your best friend doesn't have a single tear on his face. You would hate this, Spencer; they stuck you in this tiny box and now they're covering you with dirt. You don't like small spaces, I should have stopped them. I'm sorry. Are you cold down there?
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After the service, Chelsea walks towards me and embraces me. We swap apologies like people are supposed to do at funerals. I'm not actually sorry, though. You'll be back soon.
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FluffiTehFerretNinja on the left, me on the right. :iconimhappyplz:

Current Residence: Inside my head. It's a scary place.
Favourite genre of music: Just about anything. Lots of indie/eclectic and rock musical stuff, though.
Favourite style of art: A combination of Eastern and Western style.
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: iTouch
The crisis in Libya is unbearable.

And it's even more sickening how few people know about it.

PLEASE go here and read this:…

I can't stress enough how important this is.

This is history. This is revolution. This is the situation in Egypt magnified.

And the only place I have seen ANY sort of repeated unification or information about it is on Tumblr.

The world needs to be aware.
  • Listening to: Nothing
  • Reading: Absalom, Absalom! - William Faulkner
  • Watching: Videos of this horror
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing


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HugQueen Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2012   Writer
:heart: Happy birthday.
HugQueen Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011   Writer
:hug: Just because. <3
Lydia-distracted Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2011  Professional General Artist
Thanks for the :+fav:!
EuphoricLandings Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
You've been tagged: [link] :heart:

FluffiTehFerretNinja Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2011
Thanks for the fave, sweetheart! :glomp:
snowballchibikat Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2011
Anytime! :heart:
DarkValkyries Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2011
thank you for DeviantWATCH :)
snowballchibikat Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2011
No problem! :tighthug:
HugQueen Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2011   Writer

snowballchibikat Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2011
Oooh, thank you! :tighthug:
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