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Alex Miller
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Hello everyone! My name is Alex Miller/Smudgeandfrank and welcome to my page! Here is a little information about me:

- I am 25 years old.
- I have been drawing for 17 years and it is my life's dream to make art my career.
- I graduated from Metropolitan State University of Denver with a BFA in Communication Design.
- I live in Colorado.
- My goal is to become a character designer and to one day publish my original comic series.
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Hey there peeps. Today has been a weird day and I've been thinking a lot about a lot of things. I'll probably delete this post later but I just feel like I need to talk/type outloud and you all have always been great listeners. So, here we go.

For the past few months I've been trying to tell myself that I need to step away from doing so much fanart and focus on working on my ocs, stories, character development skills, etc. This doesn't mean that I won't ever draw fan art again by any means! But I feel like my art has almost been dependent on fan art... I've become known for things that are and yet aren't mine... if that makes sense? The art and ideas are mine but... that's about it.

And even though in my brain this sounds like a logical step it really scares me to put something I've grown as an artist doing on the back burner. I find myself wondering, "Will anyone like/care about my original stuff? And if they don't, what then? I can't just make fan art my whole life but in order to make a living drawing my own characters people have to be interested and want to support my art. What if my art isn't good enough? What if? What if? What if?"

Ugh. It's exhausting. And it's not like it makes me sad to think this way like it used to. It's just become a numbing source of anxiety. I know I'm as lucky of a person as anyone could ever hope to be. I have amazing family support, friends, followers who care and it is all so amazing I can't even describe it...

But I'm still catching myself wondering if my art is good enough for what I want to do with it. Doubting and judging myself far too harshly has always been a strong suit of mine.

Anyway, thanks for listening. I'm going to keep working on my state of mind and move forward... just somedays I can't shake my own insecurities.
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:iconprincesskeda:
PrincessKeda Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Student General Artist
Im so excited to read you comic on webtoon! but i cant find it on the mobile app... 
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HaruRed Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2019  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i like your gallery :D watch now! :D
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mimiquence Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2019  Hobbyist Digital Artist
When’s the next page for Remnaissance coming out?
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ELgenius11 Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2019
check her journals
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mimiquence Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2019  Hobbyist Digital Artist
oh, found them.
too bad its discontinued :(
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WaterFox-Studios Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2019  Student Digital Artist
Happy Birthday!!

here
[Gift]Alex Miller by WaterFox-Studios
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LidyGarmadon Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019   Writer
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!cake Taichi Cake 50x50 icon Carrot Cake Slice Pixel Cake Icon Matcha Cake Type 5 50x50 icon Pink bouncing cake Refreshing Cake with candles 50x50 icon Beach Cake with candles 50x50 icon Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D Fun cake Butt Cake 50x50 icon Let them jump out of cake Cake birthday cake Oreo Cake with candles 50x50 icon Rainbow Cream Cake with candles 50x50 icon Macaron Cake with candles 50x50 icon Lavender Flower Cake Blueberry Cake type 8 with candles 50x50 icon Dark Chocolate Cake Type 1 with candles 50x50 icon Dark Chocolate Cake Type 3 with candles 50x50 icon Strawberry Chocolate Cake with candles 50x50 icon Free Avatar - CupTardCake Geometry Chocolate Cake 50x50 icon Cake Icon 4, Frosting Candycorn Cake Type 2 50x50 icon 
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Light-He-arth Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019
Happy Birthday.
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ShadowEclipex Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Happy Birthday,
From all of us to you!!~
We wish it was our Birthday,
So we could party too!!~
Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D  Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D
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Dipodomys7 Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019  Hobbyist Filmographer
Happy Birthday! :) :cake:
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urzapw2000 Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019
happy birthday!!
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EximiusMax Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday!!!
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AutumnTheCuzzy Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday!! kawaii cake 
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KamikazeRex5 Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019
Happy birthday and keep up your amazing workShizuko Ninomiya (Smile) [V1] 
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VoidColor-Sans Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019
Happy birthday, here have some cake (dont have an icon, so just pretend its invisible).  ^^
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AdventureSnitch Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday (throws confetti lots and lots of confetti)
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DarkJanet Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday!
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DimensionWarper833 Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019  Student Artist
Happy birthday !
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BubblesRRJ Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2019  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday, Smudge! birthday cake 
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