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Stay High by smokeyjo7197 Stay High :iconsmokeyjo7197:smokeyjo7197 5 1 Drown by smokeyjo7197 Drown :iconsmokeyjo7197:smokeyjo7197 4 4 My Transition by smokeyjo7197 My Transition :iconsmokeyjo7197:smokeyjo7197 3 0 Coffee and Cigarettes by smokeyjo7197 Coffee and Cigarettes :iconsmokeyjo7197:smokeyjo7197 3 0 Stars On My Mind by smokeyjo7197 Stars On My Mind :iconsmokeyjo7197:smokeyjo7197 4 0 I'm Weird by smokeyjo7197 I'm Weird :iconsmokeyjo7197:smokeyjo7197 4 0 My Grammie and Papa by smokeyjo7197 My Grammie and Papa :iconsmokeyjo7197:smokeyjo7197 2 0 The Gang's All Here by smokeyjo7197 The Gang's All Here :iconsmokeyjo7197:smokeyjo7197 1 0
Breathless Wonders
Can I remember this moment?
Or will it fade like the rest?
Will it fall with my tears of angst?
Or will it gather among the crest of thoughts?
Can I take in this breath of a fresh start?
Or will it go right back to where I began?
Will I open the door to my heart?
Or will it amount to less than a closed opportunity?
You already occupy my mind,
and I swear you’re the voice that tells.
I’m a living battle,
tell me do I want to leave here?
I’m a living contradiction,
tell me do I need to hang on longer?
Is it possible to breathe in,
and breathe out the stress of reality?
Is it possible to breathe out,
and manage to breathe you in?
Would you mind,
could you please remind me?
What it feels like to have you in my thoughts,
and maybe even in my arms instead?
My thoughts are tangible,
but I can’t quite grasp what I’m looking for.
Is it possible to think of you too much,
or is it not even close enough?
Is it ever enough,
to only give you my words and thoughts?
Or ca
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I Could Have
I could walk out right now,
and leave this terrible place.
I could leave right now,
and find something new to face.
For some reason,
a guilty conscience holds me back.
For some reason,
I try to sit and relax.
I could flip out,
and have a panic attack.
I could not take this easy,
and head back into the black.
There's an invisible leash,
it keeps me put.
There's an invisible chain,
it makes me do only things I should.
I could escape this environment,
and leave the tension.
I could escape this habitat,
but then I'd receive a pension.
I would get up if I could,
and if I could then I should.
There's always opportunities,
but I still wimp out.
There's always possibilities,
but I manage to have doubt.
I should've when I could've,
but my fears keep me in.
I would've if I could've,
but my thoughts drag me to where I've been.
Invisible hands hold me back,
and keep me to themselves.
Invisible love keeps me on track,
and captivates me to myself.
I could choose to leave,
and escape my problems.
I c
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I've been alone,
I've traveled long,
but it feels like I've been here before.
Where's my home,
do I belong,
but I'm always craving for more.
I take it day by day,
this bitter pill,
but it seems to take too long.
I go with the flow,
but no one knows,
what will happen next.
To think ahead,
is such a danger,
so I occupy in the past.
Will this body ever last,
from all that it happening,
happening so fast.
When will this long winding road,
ever come to an end,
perhaps just around the bend.
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My heart feels it's just another day,
that I'll see you tomorrow.
My brain doesn't follow this dismay,
now I'm left here in sorrow.
I've created this routine,
a routine hard to stop.
Now this isn't supposed to sound mean,
but you'd be at the very top.
You see, I'm used to seeing your smile,
and it made me feel good inside too.
You made the start of the day worth while,
and I hope it made yours too.
But then a sudden drop,
a sudden removal.
Made my heart seam pop,
and it's waiting for approval.
It may seem crazy,
and it probably is.
But you were important just maybe,
too hard to dismiss.
Now I'll be left here,
a chunk of my routine taken.
I know in reality you'll be near,
but I can't help but feel shaken.
So goodbye my friend,
enjoy your new story.
This is not the end,
nor will it be boring.
I wish you luck,
on this new path you follow.
A chunk of my routine gone,
but a beautiful memory remains.
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Lead singer of Seether by smokeyjo7197 Lead singer of Seether :iconsmokeyjo7197:smokeyjo7197 3 1 She Lit Up The Night by smokeyjo7197 She Lit Up The Night :iconsmokeyjo7197:smokeyjo7197 0 0 I Can't Lose Her by smokeyjo7197 I Can't Lose Her :iconsmokeyjo7197:smokeyjo7197 0 0 Lock Me Up In Your Heart by smokeyjo7197 Lock Me Up In Your Heart :iconsmokeyjo7197:smokeyjo7197 4 3


Titan Eren by lllannah Titan Eren :iconlllannah:lllannah 276 8 Eren by lllannah Eren :iconlllannah:lllannah 237 7 eren portrait WOO by lllannah eren portrait WOO :iconlllannah:lllannah 386 23 Angel by greedforever Angel :icongreedforever:greedforever 6 0 Eye by greedforever Eye :icongreedforever:greedforever 12 4 I don't know by greedforever I don't know :icongreedforever:greedforever 8 3 Mermaid by greedforever Mermaid :icongreedforever:greedforever 2 2 Negative Eye by greedforever Negative Eye :icongreedforever:greedforever 4 0 Nope by greedforever Nope :icongreedforever:greedforever 4 0 Practice by greedforever Practice :icongreedforever:greedforever 4 0 Amelie from Montmartre by Kalgotke Amelie from Montmartre :iconkalgotke:Kalgotke 2 2 Jayy Von by greedforever Jayy Von :icongreedforever:greedforever 10 3 Luke Skywalker vs Darth Vader by Turock-X Luke Skywalker vs Darth Vader :iconturock-x:Turock-X 9 0 Iron Man/Tony Stark by Turock-X Iron Man/Tony Stark :iconturock-x:Turock-X 6 0 Tony Stark by Turock-X Tony Stark :iconturock-x:Turock-X 6 0 War Machine by Turock-X War Machine :iconturock-x:Turock-X 8 0


  • Listening to: the fan
  • Reading: homestuck
  • Watching: the computer screen
  • Playing: with my thumbs
  • Eating: air
  • Drinking: lemonade
okay so recently one of my friends have gotten me into this webcomic "Homestuck". its really fun to read but also passes time. im already on act 2, or at least i think i am haha. im lost inside their world. i love it though! cant wait to read more :3


Brett Szenderski
United States


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greedforever Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the favs!Yui (Yoroshiku ne) [V1] 
shaman-art Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Sorry for the late reply. Thanks for faving my "Johnny Depp - Berlin 2015"! Have a nice weekend! :sun:
smokeyjo7197 Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2015
you're welcome :3
Tissa-chan Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you very much for the fav! ^-^

(Sorry for the late reply! T-T)
smokeyjo7197 Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2015
you're very welcome ^^
Tissa-chan Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
GothicLionheart Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Many thanks for the faves :)
smokeyjo7197 Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2015
welcome :)
Kalgotke Featured By Owner May 31, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the fav (:
smokeyjo7197 Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2015
welcome ^^
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