I feel so scared rn you don't even know. my hands are shaking too much - lots of typos ahead be fwarned its from the shaking
my mom is literally trying to figure out everything I do on my phone, computer, everything. I'm terrified. Why, mom? WHy? You think I have no control over 'how much I depend on social media and elecrtonisc', yet I only stay on until I'm finished checking all my notifications, done with enough time spent on owed art, and you just decide to take the point of it from me. I need to be able to do things without you distrusting me of them. You were the one who caused me to feel so empty like right now. I'm sorry, mom, but t's true.
and even if I told yoou, what good would that do? art of the reason this happened was because I was so open and hnest about my depresiion to you. at first you went about it the right way, and it stopped. I felt free from the dragon which plagued me since the beginning of school. an then you started...whatever this is. i don't want to tell you this, since the same cycle might repeat all over again. I can literally only draw persoanl and owed arrt on my phone (i don't have a tablet and computer program yet :'l), since if I do it on paper, you'll see it. this will start again. you decided to remove one of my only joys.
dawring, even if it's sketching, relaxes me and makes me feel better. I NeeD To be able to draw my vent art when I need to. you brought back what you helped end earlier.
hh i feell so empty. i can do nothnig but homework and this post right now.
also the typos are rlly funny you can read back adn look at them if you want. its starkits porphecy all over again yall.
anyone who read this far, thank you.