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I just got done watching more Harry Potter exposition videos by MovieFlame on you tube.  They're captivating shorts with details about many aspects of the series. They're also pretty popular, each having several million views.

Between that and watching more Game of Thrones, I ordered a copy of the first HP and first GoT books. I listened to the HP books on audio book and watched the main 8 films. I'm also winding down on season 7 of GoT so I should be fully indoctrinated in both worlds by the end of it.

I live a couple of blocks from a church and they frequently have (simulated) bells ringing that I can hear in my house. I'm not sure what the schedule is for their performances.

I had a rough night last night. Today is a lot better.

I'm hoping to watch Smallfoot with mom and dad tomorrow. It's showing in a theater close to where they live.
Yesterday I switched my phone to an iPhone. The android lost GPS signal without a reason. When you add that to the cracked screen and cracked camera lens something had to change.

Initially I was going to get a new android but while I’m in frugal mode I don’t want to spend a couple c notes to get an (old) model android.

I had the iPhone already and realized I would not need to spend anything.

One major advantage of the iPhone is that the OS is continually being upgraded which my android has not done
Since I grew up in Vermont, I really like snow. 

My grandpa was really fond of snowmobiling too. I would go skiing in Vermont often in the winter when we lived out there.

We haven't had any snow yet....
Addiction is a horrible disease. It takes whatever it can. 

Tonight I went to the funeral of a 27 year old friend who died of an overdose a week ago. I didn't know him very well, but I do know his father. His father had been struggling for months to find the best thing to do for his son, but in the end it wasn't enough. 
I'm still correcting the algebra. I've got the distance and velocity correct, but the acceleration is off.

Today's been good. 

The garden is prolific.. filling my bowls with more and more tomatoes.
This weekend is my cousin's wedding. It appears our travel will miss being affected by Florence, although by flying through Atlanta, we could be flying through inclement conditions on the way home.

I found a link that tracks delayed and canceled flights. 

I'm making progress on the How Far is Mars website. I'm still dealing with the math and calculus to calculating relative velocity and acceleration. My test program had been doing it wrong, so I'm correcting the algebra.
I've got something simple set up on It's pretty simple but I think it's interesting enough load for a minute or two.

Right now it doesn't have any text, just a morphing color background. I haven't decided what else to pop in. I'm thinking something music tied to the color scheme.

One idea I had for the web site is to eventually be a central memorial site for individuals that pass away. I don't know if it's too macabre, but one idea would be to save only information about people that die violently, mysteriously or disappear. I haven't got that far.

Another idea is to add an atmospheric music background that is tied to the color changes.  That sounds fun (and difficult) to put together.

There's no text at the moment which might make it practically invisible to search engines.  (Close to the opposite of search engine optimization.)
Today i was really anguished about stuff.

I couldn’t tell what was wrong but I got to get some encouragement from a friend.

I picked some tomatoes today. They’re not overwhelming me (yet) the cherry tomatoes have a peculiar pest that drills a hole right through the middle. The hole is about half the size of the fruit.

I went out to rent dr strange but got to the store too late.
I'm leaving in a few minutes for my family reunion. It's my mom's grandpa's side of the family so there are cousins of mom and dad and possible a second cousin or two of mine.

Lately the reunion has been pretty small. I've only gone once before. (I forgot last year, but this year mom reminded me in time.)

On thanksgiving my mom's parent's family have dinner. That's a tradition that's been going on longer than any of us can remember. My grandma was famous for her chocolate cake and ability to make everyone feel welcome. 

At one point, the thanksgiving dinner was at grandma and grandpa's house in Grabill, Now it's at my aunt's house near Leo. As my aunts and uncles got older, the thanksgiving dinner started to get catered in and we just brought deserts and salads. 

With the passing years, the family has spread out and the reunions have gradually gotten smaller. When my parent's generation gets too old or passes on, these traditions may fade away. We don't know for certain though, the connections of my family has kept strong.

I try to keep my sister's plugged in to the family!

Gotta go!
I was reading an old math book "Introduction to Analysis" about integrals.  It's kind of magic how they work "under the hood" because the proofs don't guarantee an exact value for any given integral. Rather, the techniques tell how how to calculate the answer to within any given error tolerance. That's peculiar because if I think of an integral, I want to know the exact result, but I'm not guaranteed that I can calculate the exact result in most useful cases.

I've been not very vocal on the internet the past couple of weeks. Giving away llamas and making some favorites has been the extent of it. I haven't even written a blog entry or poetry for a while.

I came up with a word pyramid tonight. I haven't focused it into something artistic yet. 

I am investigating launching a Patreon soon. It would help if I had a focus for it. I'm not sure what to put up as the banner and tiers either. Those have been holding me back.
Today I rescued another box from my storage unit. I found all of the information I needed to install the PCB layout software Eagle. I haven't used it in years, but having it available is nice.

I've been dreaming about some hardware projects. One that I am curious about is to measure the temperature of rain drops.  I just found a research paper "Measurement of Rain Temperature" dated 1948 that seems to show exactly what I am looking for.

Byers, Horace R., Harry Moses, and Patrick J. Harney. "Measurement of rain temperature." Journal of Meteorology 6.1 (1949): 51-55.

I haven't done any drawing for quite a while. I was inspired by the NativLang video channel that I should get my own skills going on animation. At the very least, I should get more comfortable with the tools that I already have.
I just got an email threatening to release pornographic videos of me unless I send money to a specific bitcoin address.

The password they picked was an old livejournal password that doesn't get used anywhere else. I just went and deleted that livejournal account since I haven't used it for a long time. 

A good reason to have a different password on different sites.
Behind the curtains,
hidden in the darkest corner,
a silent legion is waiting.

Someday they will be revealed.
Under their stronghold, a cloak hides
their diamond and ruby crown.
Soon they will never be forgotten

The moment is not here yet.
The stars have not aligned.
As the moon approaches Mars,
the hours are counting down.

When that night has fallen, 
patient nocturnal powers, 
catch a distant call.
The beacon's flare starts
the darkest midnight storm.
After years of having a taped-together tail light assembly on my car, I put on a new one today. A friend made one-too-many comments about it, so I ordered the part and put it on tonight.

Had an expedition fixing one broken backup light too.
I have a corner next to the cellar door where I throw rotten tomatoes when I don't harvest them in time or they get damaged by pests. That's the only place I have tomatoes growing this year. there are two plants that are growing really rapidly.

My goal for tomorrow is to trim back the peonies that are shielding the plants from sunlight. I don't know yet if they're regular or grape tomato plants.

I got up to the lake like I had planned yesterday. I got clobbered in a game of croquet... it's been decades since I'd played.

Today I went on an expedition to Fort Wayne with a friend. I bought some pants, movies, cork board and typewriter. The typewriter was definitely an impulse buy. I already have one, for example. It was at a thrift shop in Fort Wayne associated with St. Vincent de Paul. I had never been there.
Went to an anniversary party this afternoon. I bought all of the ice and pop.  A lot more pop than we needed... 

We had sloppy joes, chips and some cookies and a scrumptious chocolate cake.

It was a small event, which was cool. It was nice that the church was so accommodating. They opened up for us, it was a inexpensive facility to rent and was very comfortable.

When I got home I was pretty tired. I was too tired to go out to the gym this afternoon.. with all of the high temps, that's easy to understand. I was overheated yesterday from the gym and visiting some stores and I'm tired today. I'm glad I have air conditioning. I have it set higher than most people would, but I'm comfortable there.

Being Mr. Retro, I started reading a paper from 1962 "Augmenting human intellect: a conceptual framework" It's by Doug Engelbart who was an important innovator in computer system history. It's pretty long, so I'm going slow.

There's a lot of good information from the 60s and 70s research about technology that has been lost. A lot of the information that they used to design the early computer interfaces has fallen away so that we end up getting fed deficient user interfaces that could be better.  Soap box knocked over.  I have a few books from computer human interaction courses that I took in the 80s that are worth me looking at more.

We left all of the pop behind at the church for the youth to share. The diet and non-caffeine free I couldn't take but I decided I didn't need all of the calories from the others.
I ordered the book Homecoming by John Bradshaw tonight.  Checked for prices, but pretty much ignored it since it listed two services I
have accounts with, and Alibris lost the sale because their checkout screen failed.

I conjured up some one-time-use credit card numbers. They're great for online purchases because they put a (low) limit on the risk from bad people stealing my numbers from a vendor's databases. Bank of America has that as a service on their online banking site.

I got a long, relaxing nap this afternoon/evening. I woke up at 19:05 which was a little late for some events I wanted to go to that started at 7. I could have gone late, but chose not to.

I really like my new sofa. The old one was eaten up a little by my cats and was really old. I also had trouble with back pain sitting on the old one.

I've got to the Y three days in a row which is a big accomplishment for me.

I made an appointment for Friday with the nurse with my cardiologist. I had not seen the doctor she's attached to since March because I was upset that he'd let my blood pressure be dangerously high for months and then told me my goal level was quite below those level. Right now it is quite consistently a good number so I'm happy.... Also that I'm only taking one medication instead of the 2+ that I'd been taking until March. I am concerned how badly winded I got moving the furniture with my dad which shows that blood pressure might not be an wishful explanation of my cardiac condition.

There's an old famous-ish song Dragostea din tei that had a viral video that made it famous. Back when I first learned about the song, I found a musician Craig Anstey on youtube that had done a cover of it. I have a copy of his cover that I have for making a mix tape (BQM XVII). It's not a literal translation of the lyrics, but it's a version that's well known.

My last cousin is engaged. The wedding is Sept. 15, so we'll all be packing up and going to Louisiana for the festivities. On the most recent royal wedding in Great Britain I liked that the officiator of the wedding said "I Proclaim them man and wife." I think "proclaim" isn't used much (at least it sounded more elevated than the language I remember from the other weddings.)  Of the 15 in our generation I'll be the only one not married and it is most likely going to stay that way. There's also been only 2 divorces which is a point of pride in my family -- of the 6 pairs of married aunts and uncles, they have a combined 300+ years married.

I was able to run the media for my church this week. I had someone behind me helping me be more confident. There were a couple of places where he suggested I black the screen that I didn't do on my own. The social media feed was a little messy to turn off, but I remembered the right way to do that so it was not broken for long.

I guess I've typed enough....  
In March I went down a deserted street and parked in the hopes of filming a pretty moon rise. I got more than I anticipated and got some footage of white-tailed deer. I showed you a still from the recording  Four Deer by SmilingY

I finally put its video together 

I was hoping to put in a cool audio track and an intro or outro, but they never happened. I used the audio I recorded at the same location that had a lot of bird sounds.

What I think is coolest about the video is the serendipity of it. I was sitting at the end of a road on the edge of town and the deer showed up and let me film them. The quality of the video isn't ideal because the light was fading during the shooting session.
This is not a journal entry.
I was reflecting recently about different forms of violence. Some of them are pretty obvious: killing someone, attacking a person with a firearm, knife or club. Shouting at and belittling a person is easy to count as violence as well.

There are more subtle forms of violence. One form attacks, instead of a person, a relationship. By backbiting between two people, it's possible to poison the relationship, violate trust and companionship. Gossip can be considered a form of violence, striking the victim from behind their back. Violence against a relationship can take varied forms, but it often kills or injures trust.

I realized that their are further forms of violence not visible from the outside. One can attack or berate a person from within your imagination. You can wish they would suffer harm or die, but not take any steps to plan to carry that out. These inner violences can still have negative consequences because they can be reflected in interactions with the other person... acting cold or rude in a manner not characteristic with other people. One can reveal the negative attitude when talking to other people about the victim.

One further form of violence is against oneself. That can include suicide and physical self harm. Through self-sabotage, one can thwart ones potential by giving up too easily because of inner voices saying you're no good, you're not worth it, you don't deserve any good things. 

The form of violence that I'm most prone to is the latter kind. I project from my past what will happen next. My pattern-recognition is so attuned to detecting negative qualities of myself that I find fault in many things. 

I didn't recognize it as violence until I was writing a letter to a friend and thinking about how I treat myself. I'm most certainly rarely a good friend to myself. It's hard for me to accept and forgive my mistakes because I can focus blame on the things I do as I participate in my life.

One poignant way that this has played out in the past is insecurity on relationships. I have a much too sensitive hair trigger on rejection. Although I am getting better, I still worry that I've done something wrong when i don't reach someone for a while. Either I did some slight to make the person reject me or they don't want my friendship anymore. I attack myself and usually no criticism is even necessary, just my hypersensitivity.