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I am a man?

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I am a man?

I once thought I Knew where to go, My life was set, I would be great. That's now in flux, I couldn't see I was hindered By who I was. Ask, "Who am I?" A breadwinner? No, don't say that, They don't need it. For, who really, Needs me at all? Surely not them, I am a man. They all see it, Independence, And I am just A hinderance. But if that is, All I can do, Then I just can't Ask, "Who am I?" For they answer, They don't need me, So I am only unimportant.

A Perfect Dream

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A Perfect Dream

Sometimes when I close my eyes, I see you there, I hold you tight, Your warmth I feel so close to me, That I don't want to set you free. And in my dreams we dance away, As sugar plums and crackers play, All while the stars watch overhead, The center to which I have lead. In this moment all is complete, No tune is off, a perfect beat, For you are me and I am you, Our love is pure, our love is true. But then morning does come fast, With it the dreams no longer last, So you do fade away from me, My darling I no longer see. Still I know you are with me, We're still together happily. If I could share one thing with you, You're forever in my he

Problems

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Problems

Everyone has problems, You and I each have them, So does Joe and Jane Schmoe. But some people share them, And they are not unique, So they try to solve them. They're convinced it is right, Theirs are most important, And it may well be so. But then they miss the truth, We all have our problems, Solving them creates more. If we remember this, Then life continues on, And we still solve them all.

A... B... Cat!

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A... B... Cat!

A silent hunter prowls on, Beginning as the sun does set, Claiming all the precious lives, Doing it for its owner. Everything does seem distant, Frisky with its cornered prey, God have mercy on its soul, Having become a plaything. It looks up at whiskers twitching, Just as the hunter's tongue darts out, Keen ears do focus on it, Looking with eyes aglow. My owner should be pleased, it thinks, 'Nother juicy rat for it, Only the best does go to me, Please accept this humble gift. Quickly it picks up its prey, Returning home with pride abundant, Something owner does not expect, Terrific meat for them from it. Upon arriving it

Put your past behind you?

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Put your past behind you?

Why is it, when you mess up, people say, "Put it behind you"? The past hurts, It's who you are, And at its core, It's your fate. Even when You try to fix it, It always does Come back, haunt you. So just remember, Once you mess up, You'll have gained, A permanent wound.

An Insignificant's Fate

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An Insignificant's Fate

If you are confused by any of this, read the artist's comments below. I couldn't sleep last night, This has been eating me, I cannot draw, so why not write, This is what I see. I'm in a hall of mirrors, Each one a diff'rent path, I look on through, See someone new, A future I can't grasp. Through one I see a creature, Small and brown and green, With purple eyes, and flexi' tail, It stares at me and smiles. Another, stands a man, The head of programming, Success is there, But happiness where? It seems a stressful man. A third stands a guy, Who cannot make ends meet, People like him, But none want him, He's not happy either. A fourth, sec
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Problems

P

Problems

Everyone has problems, You and I each have them, So does Joe and Jane Schmoe. But some people share them, And they are not unique, So they try to solve them. They're convinced it is right, Theirs are most important, And it may well be so. But then they miss the truth, We all have our problems, Solving them creates more. If we remember this, Then life continues on, And we still solve them all.

A... B... Cat!

A

A... B... Cat!

A silent hunter prowls on, Beginning as the sun does set, Claiming all the precious lives, Doing it for its owner. Everything does seem distant, Frisky with its cornered prey, God have mercy on its soul, Having become a plaything. It looks up at whiskers twitching, Just as the hunter's tongue darts out, Keen ears do focus on it, Looking with eyes aglow. My owner should be pleased, it thinks, 'Nother juicy rat for it, Only the best does go to me, Please accept this humble gift. Quickly it picks up its prey, Returning home with pride abundant, Something owner does not expect, Terrific meat for them from it. Upon arriving it

Put your past behind you?

P

Put your past behind you?

Why is it, when you mess up, people say, "Put it behind you"? The past hurts, It's who you are, And at its core, It's your fate. Even when You try to fix it, It always does Come back, haunt you. So just remember, Once you mess up, You'll have gained, A permanent wound.

An Insignificant's Fate

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An Insignificant's Fate

If you are confused by any of this, read the artist's comments below. I couldn't sleep last night, This has been eating me, I cannot draw, so why not write, This is what I see. I'm in a hall of mirrors, Each one a diff'rent path, I look on through, See someone new, A future I can't grasp. Through one I see a creature, Small and brown and green, With purple eyes, and flexi' tail, It stares at me and smiles. Another, stands a man, The head of programming, Success is there, But happiness where? It seems a stressful man. A third stands a guy, Who cannot make ends meet, People like him, But none want him, He's not happy either. A fourth, sec

Unseen

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Unseen

I arrive to, A gathering, Where I know none, And none know me. I sit alone, Invisible, As they walk by, Having fun. I grin at them, And they ignore, Figuring that I'll find others. Finally one, Decides to speak, And I act weird, And they do leave. Shyness invades, And I shrink back, I feel alone, I feel alone.

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My Bio
I am a 19 year old (as of April 2012) male vector artist/writer from Washington state. I am also good at math, and know a bit of Python, Ruby, Java, PHP, Bash, and other general knowledge Linux stuff. When I am not doing school, I prefer to be writing somewhere in my notebook, roleplaying, or to be chatting with people online. Make sure to check out ChevreLune, my friend and the creator of my ID, and Blitzkreig-Storm, the creator of the tree wolves. :)

Btw, yes my fursona is female but she expresses how I feel very much, fits me like a glove.

Favourite genre of music: Classical
Favourite style of art: Vector
Operating System: Arch Linux
MP3 player of choice: Sansa Fuze
Shell of choice: ZSH
Skin of choice: Murrine Nine Human III w/ Cthulhain E17 theme
Personal Quote: When we help, we benefit.

Favourite Visual Artist
Spagetti-sauce
Favourite Movies
Pixar/Disney/Dreamworks
Favourite TV Shows
Star Trek, Spice and Wolf
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Aqua, Basshunter, Cascada, Eiffel 65, Michael Buble, Billy Joel, Elton John, and more...
Favourite Books
The Wolf Chronicles
Favourite Writers
Madeline L'Engle, Dorothy Hearst
Favourite Games
Tremulous, Urban Terror, Skyrim, Spybotics: The Nightfall Incident
Favourite Gaming Platform
PC, Xbox 360
Tools of the Trade
Computer, Web browser, text editor, and good ol' gimp
Other Interests
Art, Writing, Computers, Math, Chess

Been a long time

Been a long time

I figure most people have noticed already, but I am not active on here anymore. I mostly follow a small number of artists/writers on FurAffinity, and other than that, I have retreated from my online presence over the last year. My enthusiasm for programming and art has also decreased over that time, and I don't do much anymore. I just wanted to put something up in order to bump off the last journal now that I have checked up here anyway. My work has been the only thing keeping me sane, which I am grateful for. This will probably be the last you hear of me on here for a long while unless something changes since I visit here so rarely. It's a s

A donation raffle to help deviants in need

A donation raffle to help deviants in need

:thumb310311338: Ancient Scars is doing a raffle. I don't have the money to donate right now since I'm waiting for my scholarship to go through, so I'm posting this in hopes that those who do will donate something. Please, if you can't afford to do this, repost it on your journal and help spread the word around.

Happy Valentinesday Honey

Happy Valentinesday Honey

I hopeyou like your gift i made you <3 yes its a journal skin especially mabe for you <3 i love you darling and i hope we will always stay together like this <3

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