So I've been building up to coming out to my friends as a lesbian for a while. I really trust this friend, and I know that she'll accept me. She's straight, but she has said many times in the past that she has no prejudice towards the LGBT community whatsoever. I have tried coming out to her three times in the past and haven't succeeded. Today, we started talking, and I said that I needed to tell her something. I know that she's been waiting for me to say it after the last three times I tried to come out, but she has been letting me take my time.
Anyway, she asked me what I needed to tell her, and for a while, I couldn't say it. Then, I asked if she knew what I was trying to do, and she told me that she was pretty sure that she did. After that, she told me that I should just tell her, and it was okay to talk to her. I told her that I was a lesbian after that.
Her first reaction was asking me if I was sure that I wasn't just bisexual to which I responded with a firm yes. She said that that was really cool then.
We talked a little about how long I had known and the struggles that I had had. She was perfectly understanding and comforting about it. I said that I had accepted myself, and now I wanted to be more open with my friends. She thought that that was great of me.
After that, I thanked her and told her that talking to her really helped me. She was glad that she could help and was still really caring when we said bye to each other.
Overall, after I got over my nerves, this time was really pleasant, and I'm happy that I did it. I feel better now, but I'm still nervous about talking to my other friends that don't know. I'm going to do it sometime in the near future though, and I'm proud of myself today. I know that it can't always be this way, but I'm happy that this first experience went as well as it did. It's really reassuring, and I know that I will be more confident in the future even if others don't accept me. This has just given me faith to continue on this path and not hide myself from friends anymore.
Of course, my parents are a different story. I think that I'm going to wait until I don't have to live under their roof anymore to tell them. My brother is homophobic, and I don't want to have to call home a place where people act as if they hate me. Any advice or support would be great, but I'm just happy that I've taken this first step right now. It feels like I don't have weight on my shoulders when I talk to my friend anymore. That's a good feeling, and I'll never forget it.
I know that if I'm sad or depressed in the future about a reaction, I can just think back to today and be able to go on without losing that self acceptence that took so long to build up. I think that things are going to be better from now on.