skylessmidnight

The darkness echoed with the light I fought to give. All these ruins are slowly cracking and breaking before me. Words echo with the hollowness of sweet, bitter lies. All my fears were released as snakes in the grass. Holding onto hope and fighting the darkness when life feels so heavy.

Don't tell me pretty white lies Don't grow garden for me just to leave Don't tell me you'll stay and just walk away Don't tell me it will be different . Don't tell me I'm worth it and find someone different Don't tell me my worth when I know it. Maybe just let me alone . In shadows of the sun and let me be. Don't tell me what I know just show me or just go.

I'm use to getting too close . The awakard silence The darkness showing The inability to measure up to standards The voices behind doors speaking about my flaws downwards I'm use to name calling The judgement The silent room entrances and the unwelcoming feeling of being different. I'm use to the pain that I don't measure up to those I love standards It's why I stay to myself in silence because I'm use to it

All I ever wanted was to be one of you. I wanted to be amongst you Just chance to be there and someone care. Those quiet moments where world stops I just wanted share those moments with you.

Words shattered trust Words ended one sided friendship They made you victim under false pretenses. Shattered glass is my foundation. I choose no longer to walk on broken shattered grounds You can paint me next villian in your sad little one sided story . My silence may it echo so loud. My anger opened my eyes to real you. The villian isn't truly me- it is you . I know role I must play. In your story I'm villian but to me the truth is clear . Let echoes of all hurt you've done become the grave you dig . I no longer live here in shadows of all your lies . This is where truth lies. Buried with the words you said. You've made your own grave May you rest in peace .

Keep my mouth shut. My eyes staring downward, Always noticing sudden changes or movement. The thoughtless stroke to keep things hidden. She is supposed to be in darkness, never to be seen. No happily ever after for her. She is shadows that bring light to others. The constant friend to those in need. She hides herself so others can never see her. No whispers of her thoughts. No thoughts repeated. She lives in fear of being judged.

If I could loved you in this life time like I know I've loved in past. Id do it all over again just be with you.

All these times  Reaching between the lines. The shattered times .. Always trying to be best I can be. All these times trying to be me. Always reaching .. I know you won't stay  I see it before it's written . The same lines different poem. I'm trying so hard.  Can't you see ? Do you even see how hard trying just to be here for you and me . All these times  Reaching between the lines. The shattered times .. Always trying to be best I can be. All these times trying to be me. Always reaching .. I know you won't stay  I see it before it's written . The same lines different poem. I'm trying so hard.  Can't you see ? Do you even see how hard trying just to be here for you and me

Winters lonely chill The embrace of knowledge of path I've always had to take. Tears turn into winters storm . Frost lips upon my brow No one here nor there Yet they are everywhere. Alone I stand firm I'm use to this pain Winter brings Spring gone from my life I'll fight it somehow alone as it always has been somehow.