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Purple Heart by Skylerdragon Purple Heart :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 2 0 Deadly Love by Skylerdragon
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A bookmark for Zack by Skylerdragon A bookmark for Zack :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 0 0 Top Secret File by Skylerdragon Top Secret File :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 1 0 Stop Why by Skylerdragon Stop Why :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 2 0 Starfish by Skylerdragon Starfish :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 1 0 Respected and Honored by Skylerdragon Respected and Honored :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 0 0 Red Star Five by Skylerdragon Red Star Five :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 0 0 Pretty My Smile by Skylerdragon Pretty My Smile :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 1 0 Now is the Time by Skylerdragon Now is the Time :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 0 0 Love Will Bloom by Skylerdragon Love Will Bloom :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 0 0 I Love Pretty Girls by Skylerdragon I Love Pretty Girls :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 0 0 Hope Live Love by Skylerdragon Hope Live Love :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 0 0 Green Fees JAMS by Skylerdragon Green Fees JAMS :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 0 0 Girls Just Wanna.... by Skylerdragon Girls Just Wanna.... :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 0 0 Fortuitous Unrecognized by Skylerdragon Fortuitous Unrecognized :iconskylerdragon:Skylerdragon 0 0


Papi [Monster Musume] [1920x1080] by chibi-oppai
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Papi [Monster Musume] [1920x1080] :iconchibi-oppai:chibi-oppai 11 1
Papi-Monster Musume by ScarletNekolita Papi-Monster Musume :iconscarletnekolita:ScarletNekolita 6 2 Suu x Papi by PoroSnacks Suu x Papi :iconporosnacks:PoroSnacks 265 34 Papi x Suu by lyeric Papi x Suu :iconlyeric:lyeric 165 6 Monster Musume - Papi by Raven-Ark Monster Musume - Papi :iconraven-ark:Raven-Ark 27 4 Papi - Monster Musume FanArt by Shellahx Papi - Monster Musume FanArt :iconshellahx:Shellahx 70 4 Papi Fanart (Monster Musume) by Jaeger97 Papi Fanart (Monster Musume) :iconjaeger97:Jaeger97 40 2 Papi the Harpie Monster Musume by MultRaven94 Papi the Harpie Monster Musume :iconmultraven94:MultRaven94 10 1 Peppy Papi by ArtArtzy Peppy Papi :iconartartzy:ArtArtzy 71 5 Everyday Life with Papi by Draw-till-Death Everyday Life with Papi :icondraw-till-death:Draw-till-Death 509 35 papi by Nippoten papi :iconnippoten:Nippoten 22 3 Papi by kaspired Papi :iconkaspired:kaspired 34 14 Papi is scared by Fu-reiji Papi is scared :iconfu-reiji:Fu-reiji 146 17 Papi the Harpy by xl-Jade-lx Papi the Harpy :iconxl-jade-lx:xl-Jade-lx 45 24 Papi the harpy by Mastordeo Papi the harpy :iconmastordeo:Mastordeo 141 7 Suu and Papi by MikaBesfamilnaya Suu and Papi :iconmikabesfamilnaya:MikaBesfamilnaya 109 9


I have been seeing a counselor.  It's the greatest thing in the world I could do for myself.  Here is what I have learned so far.  

No one person is capable of loving another person if they don't love God first.  (I am a protestant, but I have not walked close with God for a long time.) Since I have tried to seek love, acceptance, and respect from other people, rather than God, I have pushed God away.  Ironically, God is the only one capable of giving me what I need.  

I cannot give another person what they need no matter how whole I am.  I can only be what God created in me and find happiness when I realize that another person in my life can only be how God created them.  When I realize, believe and live that philosophy, I will be capable of happiness in a relationship.

My expectations are not fair.  Ever.  I can have dreams and wishes.  I am allowed to have wants and desires.  But if I seek those in people, I will be disappointed.  However if I seek God's plan for me first, or at least love him with all my heart, I wont have any expectations.  Then I will never be disappointed by people.  Unfortunately only God is capable of that perfect love.  However knowing this allows me to accept the faliure of others when they don't meet my expectations.

I cannot worry about what I did, did not do, or what if.  I am where I am and I can only live for now.

I lived for 17 years shutting out external relationships.  I thought I didn't need friends, a social life, or to do anything outside the home.  I felt like I had everything I needed.  But by excluding myself from others I avoided living the life I was meant to live.  I became more and more dependent on one person.  I also became more and more vulnerable because my confidence around others erroded.  Now I am a victim of my own exclusion.  Ironic!  

I need friends who I can have fun with, hang out with laugh with, talk with, and live in the now with.  I can't handle everything alone.  If I could God wouldn't have put all these other people on the planet with me.  Each and every person in my life is a blessing in one way or another.  Even the casual smile from a stranger is a reflection of God's love for me.  By basking in the life he created for me, I learn more and more to appreciate him.  

Ahhh.  I totally sound like I am delivering a sermon.  I think I would make one heck of a minister.  I'm a great motivational speaker.  

Tomorrow I plan on introducing my students to Dave Barry.   He was a columnist in Florida for a long time.  He is an accomplished author and a comedian.  He is hilarious!  We are about to write 3 persuasive paragraphs and I plan on using his column to deliver some pretty funny examples.  

Today was emotionally taxing for me.  But just writing about the positive things makes me feel better.
  • Listening to: A Day No Pigs Would Die
  • Reading: The Chase (Cussler)
  • Watching: L & O CI
  • Playing: paper and ATCs
  • Eating: crackers
  • Drinking: Water


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Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States
Current Residence: Festus, MO
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Print preference: 2.5 X 3 Inches
Favourite genre of music: Classic Rock/Oldies 80's popular hits
Favourite photographer: Kim Andersen
Favourite style of art: ?
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: I dont have one!
Wallpaper of choice: Female superstars or supermodels.
Favourite cartoon character: Pepe Le Pew...such a ladies man.
Personal Quote: 1 Corinthians 16:13-14


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the snowwitch by Izaskun the snowwitch :iconizaskun:Izaskun 331 28 .MISSING YOU. by evol1314 .MISSING YOU. :iconevol1314:evol1314 88,851 9,516 Umbrella Sky by dahlig Umbrella Sky :icondahlig:dahlig 24,369 2,036 Doves by dahlig Doves :icondahlig:dahlig 14,358 1,381 Pieces- A Calendar by HeatherPeterman Pieces- A Calendar :iconheatherpeterman:HeatherPeterman 2 0 streaks of color in motion by Capture4rmHeart-Soul streaks of color in motion :iconcapture4rmheart-soul:Capture4rmHeart-Soul 5 0 britney spears collage by Capture4rmHeart-Soul britney spears collage :iconcapture4rmheart-soul:Capture4rmHeart-Soul 0 0

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kaspired Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2016
Thanks for the fav!
JettPuff Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave! :hug:
JettPuff Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave =)
JettPuff Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I want to say thank you for all the faves and the Print Request! They are available now as Prints Just thought I let you know :hug:
JettPuff Featured By Owner May 1, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the many comments and faves hun!!! :hug: :heart:
DanielaSanin Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2009
thaks a lot for the fav... :XD:
LidiaL Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2009
thanks for the :iconplusfav::hug:
Umi-Barckhorn Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2009  Student
Thanks for the faves :3
Face-Of-The-Century Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2009
Thank you :heart:
madlynx Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2009   Photographer
Hi there Matthew thanks so much for the :+fav:[link] :-)
Very appreciated !

Have a Very Nice Evening :peace:&:love: :flagcanada:
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