Destiny?I wish you could see what you are to me
There is no one on this earth quite like you
Youve reached into the deepest parts of my soul
And shown me how alive I could truly be after feeling
Sedated for so long I thought Id never see the light again
I wish you would not fear what you feel for me
Weve both been hurt before; lets not pretend otherwise
Our hearts and dreams have been trampled countless times
So why are we still here? What really brought us both together
After all these years, the history we had..
Back five years ago you and I were caught in moments of passion
It was simple, exciting, invigorating we both felt so free
Nothing could stop us and no force or entity could steal those moments
I thought it all would remain a distant dream
I thought Id never see you again
But here you are right in front of me and those nearly forgotten memories
Come streaming and pouring in from all directions as I struggle
To maintain composure and some sense of sa
Driven to DestructionI feel so completely washed out
Not myself anymore
No matter how hard I try
I cant win.
Detached from the world
Lost inside myself
Misery consumes me
As I slowly drift away
I dont fight it anymore
Those efforts always prove vain
Ive forgotten how it feels
To be truly happy
I keep telling myself
Things can only go up from here
My family laughs heartily in the background
As I slowly lose my grip of reality
Im at my breaking point
It has become a struggle
To make it through a single day sober
So I drink into oblivion
Or float on faded dreams of utopia
The weight of my burdens
Has grown too heavy to carry
Ive lost the willingness to try
Id rather cast it all aside
How much longer can I stand
Before my knees finally buckle
And I collapse into nothing
But a hollow gaping void?
Dearest LoveHow could I have allowed myself to fall
So desperately in love with you in only a matter of months?
I am in over my head as though a fish without water,
Unable to resurface and catch my breath
You left me here to drown without a moments hesitation
And I cant help but wonder,
Was this your heartless plan all along?
If so, then why did you insist on dragging me
Along behind you on your little string?
You cast out the line; I grabbed a hold and clung on tight
As you slowly reeled me in. You kept reeling me in until I was yours
My heart belonged to you more than anyone else in ages.
How could I have let this be so?
Have I been walking and living blindly these last few months?
Now I am left alone, once again
Shivering in the dark, devoid of any answers to the countless questions
Running through my head
Did I do something wrong? Am I not enough?
Have you found someone better?
I am grieving ever so deeply over you, my love.
How could I have let this be so?
I fell too ha
Claim to FameTroubled labored breathing
Tears cascade and stream
Down my face with relentless fury
Where do I even begin?
What words could ever describe
The way I feel at this very moment?
I feel I've said it and seen it all before
Until moments ago I learned
Of another mass shooting
By yet another troubled CHILD.
For the second time this year
A CHILD opened up rounds and rounds
Upon innocent victims
With claims of fame as their motive
Barely three weeks before Christmas
My heart aches and pours out sympathy to these grieving families
Seeking solice and answers to why their loved ones were stripped away from them
And instead what faces them is the excruciating truth
That the death of their loved ones was merely a game.
The lives lost to the sole purpose of satisfying another's sick pleasures.
I pray for these victims and their families
That somehow they will rest knowing that by some miracle
Their loved ones were not killed in vain.
The answers may remain unclear until the distan
CorruptionI am sickened at what the world has become
Perversions of mind and soul
Corruption surrounds me
I cannot take any more of it
What has the world become?
What led us to this downward spiral
We all seem to be trapped in?
Aside from my own imperfections, mistakes
And insecurities that cause me grief
Any pain felt from these indiscretions
Uncomparable to the sorrow I feel;
My grief over the world's suffering
Nothing could have prepared me for this
I feel so utterly shocked when I sit back
And dwell on what disturbs me about this life.
I feel like society as a whole needs a massive electricution
A shock to the brains of the masses
And the corruption that has dissensitized us
When will we wake the FUCK up and make a change?
Is change inevitable or avoidable?
Will we as society eventually right ourselves and our morals
Taking whatever extreme measures necessary
To better our lives and our pathetic little existence?
Or will we continue to live blindly
Avoiding whatever truths we fear so despera