I've really not been in a great place lately. To be quite honest, some of the time I'm really not okay.
That sounds like a dumb thing to "confess" to, especially when you consider what happened last November, but it's a bit more than "I haven't been in a very good place lately."
I'm probably going to delete this later because this is going to probably contain some personal shit but whatever. Let's think of a good place to start.
My sleeping pattern is completely fucked. No, I mean it. For the last week or so I have literally not been able to sleep until some time between one and four in the morning, most often about three. It wasn't that uncommon for me to stay up until gone midnight, but honestly this is now because I'm simply not tired enough to sleep. And sometimes I'm the first person awake in the house, sometimes I'm awake at like eleven. If I have a sleeping pattern at all, it's fucked. And like... I don't know. I know that this isn't a good thing. I know that it's underst