I hate the weakness within me
It brings out the worst, and destroys the person that I'm trying to be.
I hate it when my actions hurt you
That's why I get these urges, and try to hurt myself too.
I'm trying to change and be a better man
But no matter how far I come, one misstep puts me back where I began.
No amount of apologizing can fix the damage that I do.
And I understand if you feel like my promises will never be true.
I fail, and lie and ruin it all
No matter how hard I try, I always fall.
But you prove time and time again that you are far more than I deserve
Because this heart in my chest you still try to preserve.
My foolish pains and unfounded anger should be fuel to your desire to leave
But no matter how many times I fail you, your love I still receive.
So I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for being this way
And that I swear I'll make it up to you someday.