Figured I should write another journal since the last one was ages ago.
Basically (and I'm not going into details because it is personal) something happened, it was big and it was awful and I've been spending the past month trying to come to terms with the shock. I'm still not ok and I won't be for a very long time. It has completely changed my outlook on life and turned everything upside down. I have days where I'm doing better but I also have very very low days where I'm not doing well at all (don't worry, I'm not sick or anything, but my mental state is completely wrecked at the moment). I'm trying to cope and move on and my friends have been there for me and for that I'm grateful beyond words. I often feel very alone and miserable and knowing that I have people who care about me and are there for me means so much. I will recover in time. I have to. But I will struggle for a very long time and it will take a very long time to heal. In some ways I don't think I will ever heal. But this is the hand my life deals me and often stuff is out of my control.
So, onto happier things. I've been working more on my digital art and practising with backgrounds (you may have noticed I'm trying to put more effort into my stuff) and I'm loving using SAI as well. I'm also getting faster and more efficient at it. I also want to try and practise more with my iPad Pro and Apple Pencil. I'm not good at drawing straight out onto the screen, I normally sketch on paper and then scan and digitize it but I will be practising with Procreate to see if I can get the hang of it better. I've been drawing a lot of my newer OC, Darl, channelling my pain into him and working on some writing with him as well (it will never be published, it's just private stuff that's helping me cope). So drawing and writing is a big thing with me at the moment. And also listening to an awesome sleaze rock band that no one's ever heard of. You won't have heard of them.
Not much to say other than that really. I don't post journals that often because I like to keep them art related and this is about all I've done regarding art lol!
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