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  • Listening to: HILF DIR SELBER -- Fard
  • Reading: German lesson 3.1
  • Watching: Time Lapse
  • Playing: Nada
  • Eating: Nada
  • Drinking: Water
So, I have been largely absent from DA over the past 2 years. Why? Well, the last time I spent much effort here was right around the time my Mom's dog Dakota died. I was wrought with grief for a long time.

Hubby and I were struggling with finances; moving to California was not the easiest move on the pocketbook, especially since I had to give up my manager position to move here. Less hours, less pay, blah. 

Fast forward 2 years:

I now work at a different company ( still a crafts store ) and am a Manager again. 
Finances are still rough due to the fact that (bad news, sorry, its unavoidable) I lost my Mom to cancer in October. 
Funerals are really expensive, and so is everything that goes with it -- ie, flying 2k miles there and back. 
The reality of my Mom having died has still not yet sunk in, even though I was right there with her when she died. It is still, kind of, nightmare-ish. It still feels as though I am going to wake up some morning and this will have all just been a bad dream. But it doesnt happen because this is the reality. My parents are gone and I'm just 33. 

Grief strikes again.

Before Mom got really ill, we had a joint World Explorer membership. We were (well, mostly me) researching our German heritage. Mom always wanted to know more about the life of her father before he met her mother, and she had all these pictures, but no stories to go along with them. She always wanted to know more about her grandparents ( her father's family ) and why there is no information *online about them. 

On her deathbed, I made a promise to her, that I would do my best to find out whatever I could about her family. 

But let's rewind. 

I started to learn German. I learned some basic German in elementary school, but apart from having experience counting to 20, simple words like house, dog, hello, how are you, and good morning, I really do not remember any of it. Initially, I wanted to learn German because language learning is what I do. It is what I'm good at. I find myself in love with language/a language, and I just have to get to know it better ( the language ). 

I found myself utterly entranced with German. I find it absolutely beautiful, where others find it repulsive how Germans are bound to speaking with such harsh consonants. 

True, German is heavily formed of consonants and [s]some[/s] many sounds which I cannot yet make, but the complexity of the language is what is so beautiful, even, sexy, if you will. 

But, about my desire to learn German. It began as the above. Entranced with the language -- sound, complexity, history, etc --- and then I made this solid promise to my Mother that I will certainly unlock this mystery. 

I was already studying German, but the absence of my Mother has made me choose to study even harder. 

Where, before, I only studied maybe an hour every week, now I study for 4 to 6 hours on a daily basis, with a goal to attend a language immersion course in Germany at some point next year. 

If you haven't thought about it yet, I'm sure you will ----- Why do I not just look up the records of my grandparents online? Been there, done that. A lot of older German records were kept in churches and at local offices or in family members' bibles. The part of Germany in which my family is from, is now a part of Poland. I will need to be able to understand German to really understand paper records that have no been put online yet.

Apart from my quest to learn the world's second hardest language ( haha just kidding ), things have been relatively quiet out here. I want to get back into digital art. We'll see. :)


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I'm 29 & holding, hailing from the Southern part of the USA.
I love bold colour, scary movies, and foreign languages.

Soon I hope to visit Germany to study the German language.
I'm a lover of languages & rap music.

Digital art, arts & crafts, and kush are things I love.

Wanna know more? Too bad!

Hahahaha ;)


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TheMan268 Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
:party: :cake: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :cake: :party:
Sugerpie56 Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the points! Is there anything I can do in return?
Silver-Willow04 Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Just one thing. I started a fundraiser for my mom's dog Dakota. She was attacked very badly by a wild animal and is needing lots of surgeries and stitches etc. If you could share her fundraiser link and facebook fan page links with some people, that would be more than enough in return. Also, on the first link, you can also send her a hug with a message, if you cant afford a donation. I'm Diana, Dakota's *auntie* and I rescued her when she was 5 months old and gave her to my mother (Juliette). Shes almost 7 yrs old now and this was an extremely traumatic experience for her. Just share the links, is all the return I would like. Thanks :] Here they are:



Sugerpie56 Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'll be sure to have my friends see if they can donate! Hope you guys can raise enough money! x
TheMan268 Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :party: :cake:
Silver-Willow04 Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yep another year! thanks!
EmpurpleThePanda Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
2 things:

1. thanks for joining my group =D
2. how did you get that journal skin????????
Silver-Willow04 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
here's the link: [link]
EmpurpleThePanda Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
woo thanks =)
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