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I haven't written in a year I know But I'm at a point in my life Where art has had to take a huge hard backseat Because I changed my college direction I'm floating in a sea where far ahead I can see a storm, But I can't tell how far off it is He might leave soon As soon as two months But we aren't getting word for sure I'm still struggling to find connections That are worth building on But it feels like I still need to reach out to find my niche I want to leader others And teach them how to find themselves and their (her)story But I need to focus on school and dance I'm going home soon And I want to address how me and others are being tr
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I'm not okay Because I'm thinking about something that happened last year And still bleeds into now Her telling me The months that followed The worry fo people finding out, especially with alcohol present And according to my imagination Playing some sort of drinking game and having someone ask who's slept with someone in the room And either one of us reveals, we both reveal, we suck at exchanging subtle glances, or we just don't look at each other at all to avoid direct eye contact Or something to reveal the number of sexual partners we've both had And having to say whom, when, and where Because that's just how college works And remembering
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Stay or Go?
Silence Passive aggressive frustrations Glares Emails when I'm sitting right there Only talking to critique Housing deadline coming up in three weeks Fear of getting last year again Longest ever All because I didn't want to sound too bossy Home isn't home anymore Never says please or thank you Seems to only care about self except for when she can insert herself into my narrative and hold it Long drives Singing in the car as we go Saying that you're not as good at singing as I am That expression you make when I hit that ooooooone note Taking me out to movies and multiple places whenever we can Working overtime and rearranging your schedule ju
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What is this?
I'm not sure what to call this The constant need to want to exercise, just to make up for lost workout hours Wanting certain foods, but not eating because it's your New Year's resolution to not have midnight snacks    so sometimes you starve when you fall asleep, except tucking in a bit of breakfast in the morning has become better Noticing how little your bigger roommate eats Realizing that you're actually eating bigger portions than you did in high school, and that in itself is scary Having your parents-from-a-third-world-country-where-good-food-is-scarce scream at you to eat more, even though you are full    and they literally tell you
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Storms
He's doing it again He's not going off on me about my voice    about how people look at me and see a woman but hear a child    in front of the family of all times But He's talking about how it's bullshit that I want to go back to school early to study more    and I somehow have C grades He's saying that I want to spend more time away from the family and just play on my phone Well You always talk about self-improvement And getting help I need But I've already tried getting help And they concluded that I was alright and lead me into saying that I don't need any more help And I do want help in being stronger But the people I want to ask are
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Strange I'm failing Organic Chemistry Biology isn't looking too good My relationship with my Big is strained I still haven't gotten around to my Secretary duties Death surrounds me with people I know and people my roommates know I STILL haven't gotten around to visiting temple on my own to pay respects to Nainai I have to go home for Thanksgiving and put up with judgemental relatives that have no concept of individuality (and will most likely barrage me with "purple hair is      unprofessional" comments) My uncle, whom I have slowly realized is a misogynist, will definitely be around when I come home, and will MOST DEFINITELY expect me to sta
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One year Since everything Went down And everything Collided ...how things have changed Because they're both gone
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I haven't written in a year I know But I'm at a point in my life Where art has had to take a huge hard backseat Because I changed my college direction I'm floating in a sea where far ahead I can see a storm, But I can't tell how far off it is He might leave soon As soon as two months But we aren't getting word for sure I'm still struggling to find connections That are worth building on But it feels like I still need to reach out to find my niche I want to leader others And teach them how to find themselves and their (her)story But I need to focus on school and dance I'm going home soon And I want to address how me and others are being tr
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Internal Dialogue
I'm not okay Because I'm thinking about something that happened last year And still bleeds into now Her telling me The months that followed The worry fo people finding out, especially with alcohol present And according to my imagination Playing some sort of drinking game and having someone ask who's slept with someone in the room And either one of us reveals, we both reveal, we suck at exchanging subtle glances, or we just don't look at each other at all to avoid direct eye contact Or something to reveal the number of sexual partners we've both had And having to say whom, when, and where Because that's just how college works And remembering
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Stay or Go?
Silence Passive aggressive frustrations Glares Emails when I'm sitting right there Only talking to critique Housing deadline coming up in three weeks Fear of getting last year again Longest ever All because I didn't want to sound too bossy Home isn't home anymore Never says please or thank you Seems to only care about self except for when she can insert herself into my narrative and hold it Long drives Singing in the car as we go Saying that you're not as good at singing as I am That expression you make when I hit that ooooooone note Taking me out to movies and multiple places whenever we can Working overtime and rearranging your schedule ju
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What is this?
I'm not sure what to call this The constant need to want to exercise, just to make up for lost workout hours Wanting certain foods, but not eating because it's your New Year's resolution to not have midnight snacks    so sometimes you starve when you fall asleep, except tucking in a bit of breakfast in the morning has become better Noticing how little your bigger roommate eats Realizing that you're actually eating bigger portions than you did in high school, and that in itself is scary Having your parents-from-a-third-world-country-where-good-food-is-scarce scream at you to eat more, even though you are full    and they literally tell you
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Storms
He's doing it again He's not going off on me about my voice    about how people look at me and see a woman but hear a child    in front of the family of all times But He's talking about how it's bullshit that I want to go back to school early to study more    and I somehow have C grades He's saying that I want to spend more time away from the family and just play on my phone Well You always talk about self-improvement And getting help I need But I've already tried getting help And they concluded that I was alright and lead me into saying that I don't need any more help And I do want help in being stronger But the people I want to ask are
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See-Saw
Strange I'm failing Organic Chemistry Biology isn't looking too good My relationship with my Big is strained I still haven't gotten around to my Secretary duties Death surrounds me with people I know and people my roommates know I STILL haven't gotten around to visiting temple on my own to pay respects to Nainai I have to go home for Thanksgiving and put up with judgemental relatives that have no concept of individuality (and will most likely barrage me with "purple hair is      unprofessional" comments) My uncle, whom I have slowly realized is a misogynist, will definitely be around when I come home, and will MOST DEFINITELY expect me to sta
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 "Ana, why do I have to be stuffed into a corset?"    I sigh, tightening her laces. Karen, a stout blonde at almost sixteen, squeals at the sudden lack of space. I'm already wearing my Paris-green silk dress with the one-shouldered top and high-low "A" skirt. Earthen brown rose designs embroider the bodice, ending at the waist, cinched with a thin tan leather belt. The cosmetics for the evening consist of brown layered eye shadow paired with black mascara and a light film of pink lip gloss. I'm standing in a pair of black one-inch stilettos.    "Because you can't really wear a bra with this kind of dress. Arms up. After all, it's strapless
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So... I'm still alive. I swear I am! It's just that the last few weeks I had a bunch of things come up, mostly involving the latest shitstorm in "What Now?" I'll still be writing works for you all, especially since I still have my NaPoWriMo prompts t ...
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Sooooooooooo... my loyal of laptop of three years broke about a week ago, thus limiting my internet access for about 5 days and delaying me from publishing my NaPoWriMo works for this year. Luckily, my mum was able to come up and give me dad's laptop ...
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Usually I don't ask for support on school fundraisers, but given that I'm fundraising to help kids with childhood cancer, I figured, "why the heck not?" My goal is $125, which is the minimum in order for me to dance come February 18th. If I can reach my goal, that would be super awesome! Thank you for your time! https://events.dancemarathon.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donate.participant&participantID=250606
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