She-Is-Zen

Or nothing. It was a lazy title in which I wanted to encompass everything that was on my mind. That in and of itself is nearly impossible. I was angry tonight. Very angry. Angry is...hot. It heats you up on the inside and you from zero to one hundred in the matter of moments. I was told.. "..swallow it down. No matter how nasty that bitterness tastes, swallow it down." I think I have spent a life-time swallowing bitter pills, but at that very moment, it was the best advise for me. And I listened. I should be in bed right now.

I can't believe that the summer is fast approaching its inevitable end. It'll be the end of the year before we know it. I had come to the realization that I have actually succeeded in realizing a few of my resolutions I made for the year. Not many people know how bad my situation was this time last year. I was nearly homeless, electricity threatened to be cut off and me having to travel to food pantries to make sure there was enough food to feed my family. It was a dark place. Most don't understand how dark. I remember arguing with him once the girls were asleep, and the only privacy and peace that I would find was when I took a shower. Mos