trigger warning: dysphoria, self harm, depression
so theres a lot of speculation on trans people and trans issues and theres a lot of stigma against people who detransition
ive been a victim of the hatred towards this kind of hate
even i hated myself for months
i think i should make it clear that on november 13th(i think) i went to the mental hospital for a week due to self harm and major depressive episodes. i was put on medication. and ever since the medication set in i havent been the same. i was a completely different person before the medication. i dont know what it was, but i was not right before the meds.
i identified as transgender (ftm) for three years
i had major dysphoria for the last two years of the whole thing (when i first started out as indentifying as trans it was more of gender dysphoria than body dysphoria, but i still had body dysphoria, just not as bad as it HAD gotten.)
ill make it clear that i never had access to a binder. so i had to improvise