Sorry for disappearing a bit. It's....been a very stressful summer. Dad's situation with his job has just been hard on us as we wait to see what happens after the next two weeks. Mom has to have allergy surgery, so there's money going into that. And my tuition went up so I'm bummed about that. They've been giving all of us older people at work's hours to the newbies, which sucks. Been also dealing with trust issues again. Due to having been backstabbed a lot when I was younger and growing up and realizing some things that almost happened to me when I was young has hit me hard. It nearly impacted my relationship with my boyfriend, and it caused me to push some people away for awhile. The stress I think has impacted my health and I'm trying to get back to taking care of myself again.
Today, my boyfriend and I talked on the phone, and he did all he could to make me laugh until my cheeks hurt. Plus, while I was out on a walk on the phone with him, a stray husky hybrid ran over to me. I saw the address on her collar (thankfully she only lived down the street) and a guy who saw us as he pulled into his driveway gave me a leash to take her home. When I got to her house, the little girl at the window saw us and ran to the door, happy to have her floof child back. It made me happy to make her happy. I returned the leash to the other guy and headed home, my bf back on the phone doing what he could to make me laugh again. While I'm still feeling a bit ill, and while there is still stuff to be stressed over about, laughing has helped me immensely. I'm definitely grateful for God bring us together, and it makes me feel ashamed of the trust issues because I know my man is loving and it hurts him if he ever hurts me without meaning to.
So I'm kinda back. I'm gonna try to get back into arting, but honestly idk if I will be able to do so. I've lost so much inspiration and I feel awful for not getting the dragon arts done. I even tried to work on drawing the body design of the dragon I adopted and I just couldn't finish it.
I want to especially apologize to GalaxyMelody
for not having started on that art trade. I'm not sure if I'll ever get to it, and instead of making it a trade, I'd rather make it a gift if I do get to it. Please don't start on mine. There's no need to do so.
I'd like to get back to abstract art. I would like to make some money on my abstract work, but frankly I don't see it happening. I am only able to use DAMuro at the moment, and my art isn't really worth much in my opinion.
I'm sorry if I've disappointed anyone. Truly. In the past, I've always kept to what I said I was going to do, but as of late I'm just burned out and trying to get through all that's going on.
Some things I have been doing to help a bit is running a Pro Star Wars EU/Legends group on facebook with my boyfriend. It's grown quickly, and it's good to see other people who love the EU whether they be disney fans or not. I've also been trying to hang out with a dear friend who is going through a lot as well, and our time together helps. Been doing some writing as well with my boyfriend, which is always therapeutic. Bought some Star Wars books (still need to read them).
It's gonna take me awhile to get back where I need to be, and I know I need to do so soon for when school starts. I just wanted ya'll to know what's been going on. I still have so many notifications to get through...like...5000+ so bleh.
Thanks for your understanding, and thanks for being awesome. Stay that way <3