School is such a stressful topic. Writing about it just makes me cringe. I'm finishing up my second semester of college and the stress is just overwhelming. Why I'm deciding to write this to you now, I'm not quite sure. Maybe it's because I just need to vent my frustrations. Maybe it's because I'm self-pitying myself and just need someone to tell me to suck it up. Maybe it's both.
I've got so many projects to do, on Deviantart and in school. It truly is a miserable feeling when you look around you and feel as though everyone is succeeding at something and you have nothing to be proud of. It's a miserable thought to think you are not capable of ever being able to be responsible of yourself and having to rely on others all the time.
I'm not useless. I just feel I am sometimes.
I'm not stupid. I'm just always learning something new I hadn't known before.
Life is heaven and hell all wrapped in one. The good and the bad. The ups and the downs. It's maddening and bliss! But for now?
It's a Hell. A struggle. A losing battle. An endless tunnel.
I don't know how things will end up and I'm not sure what it'll look like on the other side and that terrifies me. But I do know this.
I will still be me.
I'll be the woman I was yesterday.
I'll be the woman I am today.
This is just a phase. It won't last forever. It's something I know we all go through. It's something I know I'm not alone in and that alone is a comfort in these dark days.
For those of you who are always brightening up my day with positive attitude and encouragement: Thank You. You're amazing people and are what help get me through. It's people like you who help make everything worthwhile.
Those of you who are struggling as I am or maybe, even more so...hang in there.
There's a light to the end of the tunnel and eventually everything will work out as it should. Don't give up. Don't lose hope. Keep your head held high and keep going. Remember you aren't alone and that there's always someone there to back you up and catch you if you slip up. These tasks are what makes us stronger. It all depends on how you react and take action on it.
I think I finally know why I wrote this..
Because just like me, I know there are hundreds of others out there who are struggling too. Mine may not be like the next person out there, nor maybe as bad, but I'd like to think that with this, it may spark a bit of confidence and a bit of encouragement in you as just writing it has done for me. It isn't much, a simple little letter really, but I feel it's message is just as important.
I can do this!
YOU can do this!!
We can do this!!!