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Blue Moon by SerenAletheia Blue Moon :iconserenaletheia:SerenAletheia 31 2 Tea Time by SerenAletheia Tea Time :iconserenaletheia:SerenAletheia 38 5
Literature
Conversations
more conversations
ONE AGAIN
the best beloveds
standing by me
with and within me
moving with my heartbeat
dwelling in my center
I picked up
her old jewelry
stuff I like
and want to use.
I hesitated
who wants to hear me?
who wants my thoughts?
today I gave away
a lucky penny
it spun on its edge
and I picked it up that way
it never dropped
he said
you gave it away with a bullshit story
yes I did
because I believed
someone might
the best beloveds
my other selves
deep, pure joy
the closeness of belonging
the courage of facing all
the heights and the depths
the fire of God
I would never
exchange them for the world
for anything
immutable and inseparable
the pillars remain
unshaken
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An Angular View by SerenAletheia An Angular View :iconserenaletheia:SerenAletheia 16 0 Pick Me Up by SerenAletheia Pick Me Up :iconserenaletheia:SerenAletheia 13 2
Literature
Untitled
we need to have conversations
ONE
on his way home
ride to the rescue
he would do just about anything
for me
I wanted Thai
he said
make sure you don't
want something else instead
the need behind the need
my beloved husband
we have trod
some difficult and thorny paths
and still we stride on.
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Literature
The Sea
I remember the day
we were conceived
the day
our life began
she was so pleased
God was her patsy
she spoke and
He did as she said
never once suspecting
pleasing her was
the furthest thing
the day they became
a goddess
oak leaves and
lunch at Silvi's.
and yet the shadow of death
already lay long on her
in pain she died
and in darkness we were born.
Waking up in someone else's life
their marriage
their choices.
she was swept away
with the tide
and is lost forever.
today I picked up the bracelet
she made
she had our name stamped on it
and the date
of our conception,
the day our life began.
And there is the remnant
of an oak leaf.
It looks like
a whale's tail.
But that too is lost
lost to the sea.
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Literature
Toiletries
she was curled up
a mad gleam in her eye
hit once too many
and the world on her shoulders
collapsed
it all
collapsed.
what's at the bottom
of the toilet drain?
sewage.
so into the sewage she went
life swirling above her
life receding
just an abhorrent stench
and revulsion on her skin.
I lay there
for awhile
choking and gasping
sucking in big lungfuls
of poisonous fumes
choking on them, vomiting
soiled.
I lay there
sure no one was coming
to rescue me.
Above my watery grave
was the world I left
and the Light.
Family, friends
they will look for me soon
but I am in the sewer
clinging to the walls
trying not to get swept into
the greater muck
and go under.
My crusty fingernails
give way
and off I....
and strong hands grab me
they found me
they said let go
let go and we have you
my best beloveds and
my God.
Life is waiting
and you are needed,
and more,
you are loved.
Lord sweep me out of here.
they drag me
out of the toilet
boy what a mess I am.
never been so glad to see
the bathroom.
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Literature
Llamas
running, fighting
time stands still
mild to moderate
moderate
they finally categorized
the brain damage
doctors finally
recognize
mild to moderate
145 was the former IQ
he said
how many llamas
have you received since
the accident?
All of them, I said.
in which
running, standing still
llamas are
a measure of health.
hahahahahahahahahahahaha
the 20th anniversary is
alpacas
brain damage
she isn't positive
she isn't positive
time stands still
have the positivity police
arrest her for
sheer
fucking
hell
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Quiet Dreams by SerenAletheia Quiet Dreams :iconserenaletheia:SerenAletheia 10 5
Literature
Brewskies
I know they partied
had an extra couple to celebrate
when you stare at me
through my phone
and you see the pain
you have caused
my downfall.
Yeah savor the words,
I am sure.
There was this dude
2000 years ago or so
He was a brother.
He climbed mountains
loved children
and helped everyone
He could.
They killed Him.
He didn't stay dead.
And His resurrection
and life everlasting, well
keep drinking
and telling yourself
you won.
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Literature
The Silver Key

silver and diamond
bracelets
she loved everything shiny
the first key
sparkled brightly with diamonds
and hung neatly
on a silver chain.
resurrected
but not her
just her things.
Gone she is, and not missed.
I am awash in
someone else's property.
I have added my own things
to the collection
will it now go up in smoke?
who gets attached to their possessions?
oh
everyone
I am going to pack my bags
and go
just the necessities
sell or give away the rest.
But I too
like shiny things
silver and diamond bracelets
and a key
with no lock.
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Sunrise The Next Morning by SerenAletheia Sunrise The Next Morning :iconserenaletheia:SerenAletheia 52 13
Literature
Payment Due
So hello death, old friend.
I thought I had cheated you.
New creation
And a shiny new halo.
The sky is the limit
and
I will live forever.
I will see my nieces and nephews
Have their own children
And be a great aunt.
I will be a wacky old lady
Dispensing wisdom and chewing gum.
Then you tapped me
On the shoulder with a
Bony finger
You looked dashing
In your bowler hat and bowtie.
Handed me a bill: payment due.
We have worked out
an arrangement.
You may bide your time
Or perhaps not.
Today I remembered
we all die.
Bury me under
some mint
please.
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Twenty Minutes to Midnight

Sat Feb 17, 2018, 3:08 AM
Well I came back here wanting to write something. Something amazing. About what? About how life sometimes comes back around for one last time, and gives you strength and hope to carry on, with promises of rest after.

My husband was reminding me of the story of the rats in a tank. About the researchers who dumped a rat in water, and let it tread water until it sank. Then they removed it and gave it rest. When they put THAT rat back in a tank with water, and a fresh rat in another tank, the first rat, the RAT WITH HOPE lasted the longest. Did you know HOPE is a Christian virtue? Faith, hope, and love: these are the virtues considered essential. The original meaning of virtue comes from a word meaning strength. Hope is a STRENGTH.

Consider the consequences of losing hope. Suicide is one. I have thought of it myself, many times. There are other consequences of giving up hope, like giving way to darkness is a big one.  I struggle with that one every day I am alive. So far Light is winning. :)  But there are many bad results of someone losing that battle. One of them is shooting up a school. We have way too much of that here in America, and violence in the world in general.

And Darkness certainly is having a field day in 2018. School shootings, trigger happy world leaders with buttons on their desks, terrorism, climate change, the decay of American civilization. The Doomsday Clock is two minutes to midnight. What hope can we possibly find in all of this? Is there a Heaven? Is oblivion preferable?

My husband learned about evil very very early in his life, in a daycare center. I won't go into what happened, but he decided there HAD to be an opposite of the evil he experienced, and this is how he came to believe in God. I bet you think I am going to go, and Jesus Christ is the answer, preach the gospel, drop me a donation. Nope! I DO believe those things (you can keep your donation), but everyone has their own hangups with Jesus. So I am just going to focus on Good and Light, because in my mind Good, Light, and Jesus are all the same. :) 

Dear friends, I talked here previously about how the cracks in ourselves are to let the Light shine through. In the days to come, little things will be EVERYTHING. You cannot control the actions of Donald Trump, but you CAN hold the door for the little old lady and her walker. You cannot cure the corruption of the U.S. Congress, but you CAN give drive-thru workers a present on Valentine's Day. You cannot personally solve the problem of homeless vets, but you CAN carry bottles of water in your car so the homeless have something to drink. You cannot stop dictators from pushing nuke buttons, but you can do something to bring joy to your partner today, and if not joy, comfort and love.

You can love. You can always love. No matter what they do, you always have a choice inside yourself. You may not control your circumstances, but you can always choose how you think about them. You can choose how you react to them. You and you alone have the power of your free will, and no circumstance, god, or demon will ever, ever take that away from you.

So choose to Love. No amount of bullets will stop Love; no one will ever destroy it. In our frailties, the kindness and power of God manifest themselves. Love one another.

It's all we can do.



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Twenty Minutes to Midnight

Sat Feb 17, 2018, 3:08 AM
Well I came back here wanting to write something. Something amazing. About what? About how life sometimes comes back around for one last time, and gives you strength and hope to carry on, with promises of rest after.

My husband was reminding me of the story of the rats in a tank. About the researchers who dumped a rat in water, and let it tread water until it sank. Then they removed it and gave it rest. When they put THAT rat back in a tank with water, and a fresh rat in another tank, the first rat, the RAT WITH HOPE lasted the longest. Did you know HOPE is a Christian virtue? Faith, hope, and love: these are the virtues considered essential. The original meaning of virtue comes from a word meaning strength. Hope is a STRENGTH.

Consider the consequences of losing hope. Suicide is one. I have thought of it myself, many times. There are other consequences of giving up hope, like giving way to darkness is a big one.  I struggle with that one every day I am alive. So far Light is winning. :)  But there are many bad results of someone losing that battle. One of them is shooting up a school. We have way too much of that here in America, and violence in the world in general.

And Darkness certainly is having a field day in 2018. School shootings, trigger happy world leaders with buttons on their desks, terrorism, climate change, the decay of American civilization. The Doomsday Clock is two minutes to midnight. What hope can we possibly find in all of this? Is there a Heaven? Is oblivion preferable?

My husband learned about evil very very early in his life, in a daycare center. I won't go into what happened, but he decided there HAD to be an opposite of the evil he experienced, and this is how he came to believe in God. I bet you think I am going to go, and Jesus Christ is the answer, preach the gospel, drop me a donation. Nope! I DO believe those things (you can keep your donation), but everyone has their own hangups with Jesus. So I am just going to focus on Good and Light, because in my mind Good, Light, and Jesus are all the same. :) 

Dear friends, I talked here previously about how the cracks in ourselves are to let the Light shine through. In the days to come, little things will be EVERYTHING. You cannot control the actions of Donald Trump, but you CAN hold the door for the little old lady and her walker. You cannot cure the corruption of the U.S. Congress, but you CAN give drive-thru workers a present on Valentine's Day. You cannot personally solve the problem of homeless vets, but you CAN carry bottles of water in your car so the homeless have something to drink. You cannot stop dictators from pushing nuke buttons, but you can do something to bring joy to your partner today, and if not joy, comfort and love.

You can love. You can always love. No matter what they do, you always have a choice inside yourself. You may not control your circumstances, but you can always choose how you think about them. You can choose how you react to them. You and you alone have the power of your free will, and no circumstance, god, or demon will ever, ever take that away from you.

So choose to Love. No amount of bullets will stop Love; no one will ever destroy it. In our frailties, the kindness and power of God manifest themselves. Love one another.

It's all we can do.



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Where I Am

Wed Feb 7, 2018, 9:50 PM
In the past few days, I have been diagnosed with Pickwickian Syndrome, and gone on oxygen 24/7. I use my pulse oximeter now like people with diabetes use their blood sugar meters. Chronic respiratory failure, which originally was just a placeholder dx to justify oxygen, is actually a real thing. The cause of that failure is Pickwickian Syndrome, scientific article here. Mine is a combination of obesity, chronic respiratory failure, and sleep apnea, to drastically simplify a complex condition. This is theoretically reversible with weight loss, but since more is involved than just weight in this disorder, that is the best case scenario. This disorder is very likely, in general, to significantly shorten my life. :(

So I am taking a break, possibly a long one. I have enjoyed all my time with all of you here, and met some great new friends. :) If you want to reach me, send me a note. I will still be checking those. Take care all. <3 <3 <3

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More News

Wed Jan 31, 2018, 8:43 PM
So here it is. First of all, art news: I finally got my camera and my phone to talk to each other, so have some pics to upload. Otherwise most of the recent photos are Facebook stuff. Maybe I will tease some of them into something a bit higher quality, lol. Second of all, I was so stressed I just gave up even trying to keep up for awhile. That stress has been somewhat relieved, so hopefully I will have some time and head space soon to work on my notifications. I am sorry I have gotten so far behind. Thank you all very much for faves, comments, watches, and all your kind support!! I am sorry I haven't been able to do more.

I have over 2K llamas! When I hit King Llama, I will do another contest. :)

Now, health stuff. I won't bore you with the details, but a social worker is now involved so my husband, his family, and I get the help we need. Mostly this is daily living stuff the vast majority of people handle themselves, but I cannot. The family has been picking up the slack, so they need and deserve help with that, and that is the project we are working on.

Despite the fact the fatal illness diagnosis was basically for coding purposes, that situation has worsened a bit. It is likely due to being overweight and losing weight will help everything. :)

I had some recent tests, but they mostly came back clear. Two were clear and one showed mild issues that are not a big concern.

That's it! :)

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cemac Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2018
Thank you very much for the :+fav: for 'Femme Fatale', which is truly appreciated. :b;aclrpse" Sorry my thank you is so late :ashamed:
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GabyCoutino Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Nice gallery

Have a bunny
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oboudiart Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
heart 2036 by oboudiart   heart 2036 by oboudiart 
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Abdellah-Belhadj Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the 100 points that you gave me.  i appreciate it. :) (Smile)

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Loffy0 Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2018  Hobbyist Photographer
I know its a bit late but thanks for the badge :D
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HaganeSora Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
Nobu Llama Thanks plz 
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ricky4 Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2018
Many thanks for the :iconfavplz:'ssss :love: :hug:
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Reddawgi Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2018
Thanks kindly for your fav.  Thanks for the favs by funkypunk2  
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Omoidenoki Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2018
Thanks for the llama badge :) 
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JACAC Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2018
g l a d . t o . s e e . y o u . i n . 2 0 1 8 . :w00t:
t h a n k . y o u . Seren . =)
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