I haven't uploaded a journal in ages. Nothing has changed from my last journal, just that I am getting more and more depressed. I just feel there is no hope on the horizon anymore. Spending 3 months with my husband in Germany was probably the most amazing 3 months of my life. Now I am stuck in this cesspool of a country - without my husband. I feel like I can't handle anything anymore because the prospect of me ever getting back there to live with him is so slim. I also don't have many people to talk to about my feelings and how depressed I am, because so many think it's great to tell me "Oh, at least you are married". That doesn't help me in
I have returned from visiting my husband in Germany. Saying goodbye to him again has been so painful.
I am in a lot of emotional pain, I feel like I can't cope right now.
I have no idea when I will be able to apply for my next visa to join him. The paper we are waiting on is the unabridged marriage certificate from Home Affairs... which can take months. I applied for it in November.
I don't know how to deal with this pain. I just want to be with my husband.
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