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Hello. Long time no see, I guess.

I'm here to apologize for not being able to answer all your messages and comments. I'm really, really sorry. But I want to thank you for your support and your good wishes for this year, too. Thank you so much!

I've been having a rough time since a few months ago. I'm actually facing a huge emotional crisis right now, and I don't know when I will be able to submit something decent. I think any romance related pics will be out of my gallery for a while.

I lost something very important to me, so I'm sad. Well... not actually sad, but I think I have been completely destroyed by this. It's like when someone you love dies, and you can't do anything about it. Your only option is to start grieving their death, or cry your eyes out until you can't shed another freaking tear.

I don't usually follow advices telling me not to cry over someone who doesn't deserve my tears. Hell, if I did, I think I would feel like a sensor bomb. Touch me and I'll explode right in your face. If you feel like crying, then cry. Cry everything you want, even if the reason of your tears is insignificant or meaningless. It's not good to hold it in. Besides, who cares? It's your pain, and you'll get over it, eventually, but you will.

I know crying won't solve anything, but at least it helps you release all your inner pain. It kinda helps you feel better in a way by just letting your emotions flow freely in the form of tears. Now, crying in front of the one who caused your pain is another thing. I personally think we don't have to let them get what they want, but it also depends on the situation. That's just my opinion.

The one I lost is not actually dead (at least not physically), but to me, he now is, and even though I say this, I feel like crap right now. I don't know if I can shed another tear. I think I spent like four straight hours crying over this, and I kinda feel a little better.   

Such way to start a new year, huh? But hopefully I'll get over it... sooner or later, but I know I will. Sorry if I sounded like a wimp, I just had the need to vent out my feelings. I'm not usually like this, and I don't like to feel like this. I have to stay and be strong.

Before I go, I want to leave a message for you:

"Don't ever let your heart fall into careless hands. If you do, you'll regret it later."

Just like me.
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MiyakuBubbles Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I sorry to hear that you're upset. I hope you feel better. :hug:
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x-Jazzy-B-Real-x Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2011
Do you want to talk it out/share anything with me [privately]? D: I'd like to say that I might have possibly been in the same situation quite a while ago. The timeline of it may cause someone to think the problem was fickle since it happened in my second year of high school, but it still left some traumatic scars on me till this day to where a nice fraction of my present state of mind has been reformatted. It both a negative and a positive effect on me, so I'm still trying to balance them. However, how long such a thing lasts or not depends on the emotional structure of a person's heart/mind and we all handle things differently in the outcome because of this.

Though never matter how long it takes to recover, there's definitely some obscured beauty in that pain. You have to hurt like you've never hurt before in order to ever get to that "beautiful, happy" point. Happiness ain't free, that's for sure. Life is like, "you gotta hurt/suffer to get there." :lol:

Getting there has the same process as a mother going through labor. It's painful and gut-wrenching, but in the end, you're given a bundle of something precious to smile at after all that undertaking. ;) Pain has always been a double-edged sword with beauty the same exact way light and dark must exist in order to sustain each other. It's a duality instead of a nasty collision. Instead of "getting over it" I would suggest to absorb it as a solid learning experience to appreciate towards the future.

...Like Christina Aguilera's song, "Fighter." >w>;;
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Selene-Galadriel Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Agreed, I think I pretty much absorbed it and learned some things about people in general. And yes, I would like to share it with you, if you don't mind. I have not been able to talk it out with anybody besides one of my male friends, and all he could do was listen.
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x-Jazzy-B-Real-x Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2011
Alright, then definitely send me a little note.
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Selene-Galadriel Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Before I send you a note, could you help me handle an arrogant kid who's bashing little Amy's character on one of my pics? The kid seems persistent, and I think she needs to be taught a lesson :P

If you can, search for the last comment on this one: [link]
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x-Jazzy-B-Real-x Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2011
Oh that little troll? They've been trolling me, too - every one of my pictures, actually. It seems that he's deliberately looking for the artist's reaction. I've already shot back at the pitiful child a few times, but her responses seem to only be based on GETTING me to respond. They're not there to listen to logic and such. They just want to troll as illogically as possible [if her opinion about modern Archie Sally Acorn isn't backwards enough; her and Archie Amy are both Jerk-Sues for all everyone cares]. So, the best thing to do is block them off or report them to the ban category. Their username already indicates, "I'm here to troll."
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Selene-Galadriel Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That reminds me of something, I was looking for some shadamy pics on google, and found some scans of that Archie comic. I don't know if that one is categorized as a "Shadamy moment", but I think it could mean something. Have you seen it already? Issue # 123215341413413412414 -w-

Ok, no.

I'm kinda rusty on these things already, been off for too long I guess.

I need to get back to the fandom. I guess it can help me keep my brain from thinking too much about some matters.
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x-Jazzy-B-Real-x Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2011
Urgh, quite frankly I still have sore knees from that Archie issue. It didn't look anything like Shadow/Amy to me; quite the opposite. The arc was ship-"teasing" Shadow/Blaze, with a wee bit of anti-Shadamy/anti-Shadouge as the side dish.

But I haven't seen the LAST arc yet...so which "Shadow/Amy" moment do you mean? The one where Amy says she believes in him or something of that sort?

Playing in the fandom's pond helps me take my mind off the RL troubles myself, so it's not a bad heel to turn. :lmao:
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Selene-Galadriel Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm not sure, she kinda discusses with him about why he was fighting against Blaze, and about saving the world while pulling his arm, trying to catch his attention. He looks like he freaks out for a moment because of her touch and mumbles something about doing what he must. Then, with a smirk, she just thinks she knows he's going to do what's right.

I'll definitely get back to work on these things. I really need to take my mind off some matters.
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LeoHightower Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
It takes a strong person to cry, or admit it, so I hope you'll feel better soon... Please take care! :hug:
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Knouge4Evah Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It takes a strong person to cry, or admit it, so I hope you'll feel better soon...

Last night I started bawling because at the moment, I'm really sick, and I just want it to end! I've been sick for two freaking weeks!
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Selene-Galadriel Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks, and I'm sorry to hear that. I hope you get better soon! It sucks to be sick for that long.
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Knouge4Evah Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're welcome. Thanks.
I hate being sick period! But this is just awful. >.< Today is my sickness' two week birthday!
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MikaBlackwood Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm really sorry to hear of your trouble cry as much as you need to hope you feel better everything will be allright
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kalika12 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Im sorry to know that you are passing by this...cry all you want,I believe we should or we wont get it out of our thoughts.
I hope you will get better soon,ok?And good to know that you are ( kinda ) back.
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PerfectAngelFighter Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2011
Wow....

I'm sorry, and you're right.

It sucks, but, eventually, you will get over it.
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Lunavi9 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey I'm really sorry to hear of your trouble :(

I had a similar experience with a guy last year, but since I have gotten over it, I actually feel much better since he wasn't the most deicated to begin with..
Remember you'll have more chances in life, so don't become too downtrodden, you'll feel like new again soon :)
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