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Caged Bird Naia by Sekikumo
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Warrior Angel Naia by Sekikumo Warrior Angel Naia :iconsekikumo:Sekikumo 7 2 Not So Good At Winging It by Sekikumo
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Heaven Help Us by Sekikumo
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Tiger Tiger, Squirming Tightly by Sekikumo
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Wrapping Up A Hard Day's Work by Sekikumo
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Zita, The Library Floof by Sekikumo Zita, The Library Floof :iconsekikumo:Sekikumo 18 13 Mako and Iwani by Sekikumo
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Caught Up in a Good Book :iconsekikumo:Sekikumo 36 6
Spider Cuddles by Sekikumo
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Caught in the Forest by Sekikumo
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Love in the Forest by Sekikumo
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Melyra, aka Star Scout Cinnamon Swirl by Sekikumo Melyra, aka Star Scout Cinnamon Swirl :iconsekikumo:Sekikumo 8 11 Perils of Revissa - Waxed by Sekikumo
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Perils of Revissa - Amber by Sekikumo
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Character Introduction: Scatha Summerborn :icontyvadi:tyvadi 1 0
[COMMISSION] April's Ahri: Gimme That Eggs! by BeGemini
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Hawkgirl by Stoodgyboy Hawkgirl :iconstoodgyboy:Stoodgyboy 44 0 Aedia Afir [Commission] by neozumi Aedia Afir [Commission] :iconneozumi:neozumi 323 56 Highborne by clayscence Highborne :iconclayscence:clayscence 303 25 Kassandra by dandonfuga Kassandra :icondandonfuga:dandonfuga 1,760 61 W.I.S: Rookie Mistake (Part 1 / 3) by Magnolia-Baillon
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Electra - I will break you by iamHikari-kun Electra - I will break you :iconiamhikari-kun:iamHikari-kun 29 3 Bell + Liliana by Cheunchin
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C: Lynnaire and Rylisa by The-Moonbound
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Satin by iara-art Satin :iconiara-art:iara-art 763 48 Commission: Ulvira by iara-art Commission: Ulvira :iconiara-art:iara-art 915 79 Emma in Bondage by StickyScribbles Emma in Bondage :iconstickyscribbles:StickyScribbles 293 14 Assassination by dominaART Assassination :icondominaart:dominaART 254 4

A little over two years ago, I discovered the Discord chat client.  I was impressed with its ease of use, and the effective way it allowed users to create servers dedicated to specific topics and welcome people in to join them.  Wanting to take advantage of the platform’s potential, I created a server for topics related to ASFR and invited my closest friends in the community to join me. I also posted a link to it through a journal here on my DA page, and eventually to the Medusa Project Forums and the Marble Gallery group, thinking other people might like the chance to have a place to chat about this stuff.

Membership started small, allowing discussion there to be between a close-knit group of friends.  The ‘culture’ of the group was influenced by my own personality and those of the most vocal people, who were, understandably, the ones who I was already very friendly with.  I met a lot of like-minded people, and received a lot of positive feedback from people who were happy to have a place to openly speak about things they normally kept to themselves.  Membership ballooned, well over a hundred, then two hundred, word of the server spreading to parts of the internet I previously had no connection to. Things were good.

Problems did crop up, of course.  I had to ban a troll using the server as part of a phishing scam, and had to ask someone who was making creepy comments to leave.  Worried about my legal culpability in regards to minors, I set up a process to screen people before giving them access to the server. Still, though, I didn’t feel the need to create a detailed rules document, and in general did not really want to be an active moderator of content or discussions.  The server was meant to be fun, and while I took pains to improve it, I didn’t want to get involved in policing what people did or said.

Reprimands were limited to occasional outbursts when I was in a bad mood, all of which invariably led to further confrontation when people were upset that they couldn’t do or say what they wanted, or didn’t understand why their actions would make me angry with them.  Slowly, the people who I was friendly with filtered out of the server. It was becoming too large, too impersonal, so we moved our interactions to private chats. And as the people I liked left, I interacted less as well, slowly leading to a culture shift within the server that made it more akin to what I will call the ‘generic internet’.

I hate the generic internet.

I don’t like meme culture.  I hate the lazy, disposable way in which language is used on social media.  I despise how casual bigotry has wormed its way into the templates of communication, to the points most people using the language of the internet don’t understand or care about the broader impact their words have.  I’m no social justice warrior. Trying to explain why I am annoyed or offended would accomplish nothing, would cause people to get defensive because they (understandably) mean no harm with what they are saying, don’t think it matters, don’t share the same views as me.  I’m a rational adult, so instead of ruining other people’s fun when their preferred mode of discourse doesn’t sit well with me, I just choose not to interact with them. They’re not responsible for my emotional well-being, and it would be entitled of me to think they are.

The problem arises when the place the discourse I wish to avoid is occurring is in the area I constructed for myself.  I remember the exact moment when I realized I hated my server.  It was when someone posted some dumb, throwaway meme, whose text just so happened to phrase something in a way that I personally found to be very upsetting.  I had a visceral, knee-jerk reaction of "I don't want this on my server", but what was I going to do about it? The person who posted it wasn’t going to understand why I was upset - and why should they?  Who other than me could predict that a harmless joke would rile me up so much?  And ultimately, my issue was not with the person who had posted the joke, but with the culture that had influenced them to make that joke in the first place.

That was when I realized my server wasn’t really mine any more.  I didn’t have the time and energy to make it into what I wanted it to be, and more pressingly, didn’t think I had the right to.  The place I had made had ended up becoming the nexus of the ASFR community, so I felt like it was unfair for me to tell people how to act in the only place they had to be themselves.  I decided to remove my handle from the title of the server, making into just “The Statue Station”. This place wasn’t home, wasn’t for me.

And that could have been fine.  After all, the server mostly ran itself.  All I had to do was occasionally approve membership of new people, and let people post and talk about what they wanted.  But the problem was just by having my name at the top of the membership list meant issues ended up coming my way regardless of my actions.  I was targeted by trolls merely because I was a notable name. People wanted me to mediate disputes they had over DMs that had nothing to do with me or my server.  I was asked to punish people for actions they had taken in their own time, being asked to wield membership in the fun group I made as a cudgel to punish people who had done something wrong.  Merely by existing as the creator and owner of the group drama and conflict kept coming my way.

So I wanted out.  The place I created no longer reflected my tastes or beliefs, and was actively causing me trouble just by existing.  I thought long and hard about how I was going to step down, considering all the potential options, and for what they meant both for me and the community at large.  I settled on what I decided was a happy medium between what I wanted and what I thought was best for everyone else.

When I announced the shutdown, a few people were very vocally upset, deciding that the obvious solution would have been just for me to turn over ownership of the server to someone else.  Here is why I didn’t want to do that:

To begin with, choosing a successor was going to be fraught with drama no matter what.  All the people I was closest to and trusted weren’t interested in taking over. This meant I would either have to approach someone I didn’t know very well, or publically have people audition for the job.  I was leaving to escape the responsibility of managing the entire community, but here I would have to bear the responsibility of choosing a successor that could have far-reaching consequences.   I didn’t feel I had the right to make that choice, let alone the time and energy to see it through.

Asking people to create their own servers felt like an elegant solution.  First of all, it was a good test to ensure the person taking on the responsibility was willing to be actively engaged with what they were doing.  The last thing I wanted was to threaten to leave, only to force someone unequipped to handle the burden to inherit my server just to keep it running.  Furthermore, it would let the people creating their server build it from the ground up, would let them decide on their own rules instead of incorporating the ones I had made.  One of the new servers decided not to have a questionnaire for new members, for instance, whereas if I had handed mine over to them they may have felt inertia required them to keep it, despite deciding it wasn’t needed.  

Furthermore, multiple servers allows for some customization between member experiences.  Perhaps one is more focussed on roleplay, while another tries harder to target writers. That doesn’t seem to have panned out just yet, and only one new server seems to be particularly active, but all that means is the status quo has been maintained.  In fact, said server seems to already have more members than mine did, suggesting that rather than fracturing the community, it actually brought in new people. So I feel fairly comfortable in my decision.

There are now about two weeks to go before I officially close down the Statue Station, putting it in read-only mode so that people can still access the pictures, content, and discussions they had there.  I, personally, will be returning to being mostly a lurker, only posting to my DA account when the fancy takes me. I don’t think I was ever really cut out to be a public figure.

I will also be restricting Direct Messages on Discord to only people I have accepted friend requests from (and I probably won’t be accepting a random friend request from you if I don’t already know who you are).  I just really don’t have the willpower to trudge through conversations of random small talk or requests to RP with people I’ve never met. If you have something to say to me, you can send a note on DA (which I reserve the right to ignore).  

As this chapter of the ASFR fandom comes to a close, I wish everyone the best in finding their way to whatever the next chapter of the journey will be.  Remember, so long as people have a deviant interest, they will always find a way to meet up and discuss it. So I bid you all farewell.

So long, and thanks for all the stiffs.

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splatpixel Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks so much for the watch!
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You're welcome!
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Cityhunter77 Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2019
Thank you for the favorite :D
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Ty for the fav!! +fav Hug +fav 
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You're welcome :D
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Thanks for the Llama! <3 Hug 
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