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:bulletblack:The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on. /Chuck Palahniuk/:bulletblack:
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My life has taken direction where art has little space, which hurts. Time to time I try to restart things (like now, with daily sketching), yet soon it all gets buried under - studies (starting phD in chemistry FTW!), love, language courses. 
And well, inspiration is a guest that does not willingly visit the lazy (Tchaikovsky), saying I find true more often than not.

And ask myself - is it truly worth trying? I don't draw for months, the maybe something. I'm in no way not moving forward. Should I just abandon my will like dead limb to be amputated? And yet I find I cannot part with it, as it has been with me all my life. So I shall struggle on, limping and maybe half dying inside, poisoned by the feeling of not doing enough.

Who knows, maybe I will brave the disease... Maybe not. While my :devart: page gets visited, I get little to no :+fav: or watches. Have never gotten then, even when I was active. Maybe this unfairness, seeing other art so below my level gaining more acclaim than mine makes me reluctant to do more in this site in particular. 
Maybe I'm just searching where to put blame, maybe my musings have grain of truth in them. All in all, writing always have had cleansing effect on me and I feel better now.
Maybe even good enough to try and restart my creative journey.
To get out the desert.

Cheers!
  • Listening to: Epic soundtracks
  • Reading: Malazan Book of the Fallen
  • Playing: Bioshock
  • Drinking: Frappes

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Ruitherga Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2019  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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Happy birthday!
I hope you have a fantastic day!
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birthdays Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2019
:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's February 27th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love:
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JJJMadness Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2019  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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Tribble-Industries Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2019  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday, sorry about the clone trooper birthday cake, the fangirls hijacked it.
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SawuScimitar74 Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2018
Hey there! Hope your birthday was a good one! I would've replied sooner, but I was busy at the time. :/
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