This is so unusual for me to write a journal so long like this!
So I've been reading and thinking about :iconhazardousarts:'s journal on Creative Nearsightedness http://fav.me/d67col5, which I totally have. So in order to try and get myself going somewhere instead of spinning my wheels, I've been trying to figure out what it really is that I want, no matter how crazy and impossible it sounds. So, I've decided that I kind of have two goals (a creative and non-creative) each going in a slightly different direction but maybe they meet up somewhere and can be useful to each other. So here they are:
Non-Creative: I want to have some part in a console game. A part large enough to have my name in credits!
Creative: This one is harder to determine, I really want to be better and faster at what I do. More photo-realistic in less time. I have a long list of artists that I admire that I would like to strive toward their skill level one day. I know, I know...I should do painterly stuff, but I