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Natalia and her nightmares. by laura-makabresku

don't leave me by laura-makabresku


My Mother's HorseThe night my mother died, the horse in the barn started singing.
Its neck bulged, veins sticking out like ropes around a hanged man's throat. The old blind eyes stared at nothing, dumbly terrified of the same.
"Shut up, you old dumb bitch," I snapped at it. It had been my mother's horse. Better than a lawnmower, cheaper than a car, she used to say. But for the last few years, it had been too sick to eat and too weak to ride or pull a cart. It just stood in its stall, swaying on its broomstick legs and heaving its eyelids up and down over its smoggy eyes. We'd been an odd trio—my mom, her horse, and me. She refused to kill it, and it had probably been a better daughter to her than I had anyway.
They'd both started spitting out teeth as they aged, joined in an inter-species sisterhood I couldn't begin to understand. Lumps of bone tumbled out of their jaws and left behind muculent yellow holes emptier than any tooth ever could have filled. I remember the first one my mother lost. Th
   toto la la land
a lost and found
i hate to love
and everyone
     two is none
and once was true
my teeth all float
like little boats
my skin crawls off
and someone coughs
i trip and fall
but don't exist
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& i'm making my mother cry.
trying to find reasons not to die.
shouldn't i be grown out of this?
  • Listening to: Charon- Keaton Henson.
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introverted-ghost Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014   Writer
Thank you for including me in this beautiful feature, dear. :heart:

(I am sorry that things don't seem to be going well for you at the moment. :hug:)
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schriftsteller Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014   Writer
Ah, I'm glad you liked it. Of course I would. I'm surprised I haven't featured you sooner, honestly. And thank you. I appreciate the love. :heart:
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introverted-ghost Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2014   Writer
It's not a problem at all. :heart:
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Braxton-T-Rutledge Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014
We are never more free than in our despair, unless we let it snare us, because then we will be stranded in it's basement. Like churchill said, "If you are going through hell keep going."

I was thinking about my imminent birthday and how I, at 29, am effectively in the same place I was in at 19. I am psuedo independent, work for the same money, and have little or nothing to show for my time. 
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schriftsteller Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014   Writer
Yeah, this is true. I like that quote but on my birthday it doesn't help much. I'm not doing anything with my life, which is the problem. I feel trapped, and essentially I am in certain ways. I actually have less now than I did when I was 18, or when I was 14 and this shit started. It's a weird feeling, isn't it? I'm sorry you're there too. But at least you're a semi-productive member of society? I would say productive but I'm not sure if you would agree or not.
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ithaswhatitisnt Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:tighthug: 
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schriftsteller Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014   Writer
Thanks, dear. :heart:
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littlemissmaggiemay Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Professional
Thank you for the feature :) 
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schriftsteller Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014   Writer
Very welcome!
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