I have fun with them
which I understand
is completely ridiculous
I'm doing it!
YOU'RE NOT MY REAL DAD.
Plus maybe my new watchers
might like to learn about me more
(this is a complete excuse)
The Basics ...
1. Full name:
I'm either going to be 24 or 25 in August. I gave up on trying to remember because it depresses me. ha.
3. Birth Date:
4. Birth Place:
Bum w/ an apartment
7. Primary School:
Ben Franklin Elementary. We did all these art related things & it was glorious.
8. High School:
I wasn't there long but Heritage.
Still working on that one.
10. Eye Colour:
11. Hair Colour:
I think it's forgotten its natural color but some shade of brown.
12. Currently Living:
As I please.
Bread, Cheese, Balsamic Vinegar. Put them all together or separate.
I drink a ton of Arizona Green Tea. But I like Cherry Coke bunches.
I really can't choose. Bon Iver, Ani DiFranco, Brand New,
16. Song: Right this second?
This un. Even though I know I'm late to the game it puts me in a good mood. Though I do keep thinking, when not listening, it says "there's fishes in the sea, they're singing at me." Whoops.
Suddenly Last Summer, Into the Wild, Bright Star, Mr. Nobody was pretty stunning.
18. TV Show:
True Blood, American Horror Story, Big Brother is my guilty pleasure. Those are really the only ones I keep up on every episode, though. I tend to get bored lately. I'm watching Salem every week too.
How can you ask a writer this? Jesus. Invisible Monsters, The Bell Jar, The Hours, The Outlaw Bible of American Poetry, The Virgin Suicides, Small Murders
Seafoam Green. Yes.
Do You Prefer ...
21. Coke or Pepsi?
Coke all the way. Pepsi is too sweet.
22. Anime or Disney?
Really neither but I have been jonesing like mad to watch Fantasia.
23. Guys or Girls?
Whoever is beautiful inside.
24. Lips or Eyes?
25. Kisses or Hugs?
Both I guess? I'm big on personal space. If I don't invite you please don't enter.
26. Eating or Drinking?
Drinking. Eating is a constant annoyance.
27. Novels or Comics?
Novels all the way.
28. Summer or Winter?
I hate sweating and am in love with snow. I think that answers it.
29. Outdoors or Indoors?
I spend increasing amounts of time indoors but I do love being outside.
30. Camera or Cellphone?
Camera. My cellphone is a piece of crap but it works for my purposes.
31. PS3 or Xbox-360?
32. TV or Computer?
Both get boring after a while. Best to alternate haha.
Something Personal ...
33. Why did you choose your username?
It means writer in German and I was going through a very soul searchy time in my life that included getting in "touch" (not really) with my father who is from Germany.
34. What is your favourite piece of your own work? Show us:
I think it took the most "skill" on my part. Plus it's really personal actually.
The Fragile Revisions in Lifefor the geniuses shattered by madness
In Rockland or Fort Logan where
I love you too much for your
psychosis synopsis, your raving
& giddy wisdom,
my mother with
the deep black, her revolving door
of abusers, lack of esteem held
to her worth, father with his barbed
belt eventually eaten by his malignant
thoughts, the suitor stalking the ghost-
rich grounds only contained by the flash
glow of the dog’s eyes red & blue,
35. What is your most popular deviation? Show us:
My DDs are in succession but this is the most popular:
She was BeautifulWe have a daughter
quiet with little fuss
& molding us as god.
Her small verbs
span indifferent cities,
aloof mountain ranges,
& the hours of
blank faced clocks
She knows there are
worse things than dark
the black waters of the mind
We have created her
pressed & dried bouquets
& willow sticks
things only we
could make a life from.
One day we'll wake up
as different people
but the magic
of a shared procreation
will keep us tied
wanting to see each other's
newly patchworked faces.
We have a daughter
holding our hands together
& keeping the spaces & cracks
from collapsing our lives.
36. Look to your left. What is the first thing you see?
Food processor. haha.
37. Now to your right:
Wall. One of my photographs is on it, though.
38. Something you can't live without:
Music. I literally think I would die. Also my mom. Probably would die without her too.
The Last ...
39. Person you saw:
My mom. Who is asleep on the couch.
40. Person you hugged:
My dog. Awwww.
41. Movie you watched:
I think it actually was Mr. Nobody. Or at least that's the last one I remember. OH. ELECTRIK CHILDREN IS AMAZING TOO.
42. Song you listened to:
I specifically just put this on because I had forgotten about it and am in love with it. Also the video is hilarious.
43. Book you read:
Of Mice and Men. I had a Silver Linings Playbook moment where I had forgotten about how it ended (I stole it from my high school accidentally but hadn't read it since) and when I was finished I was pissed off for like four hours. I had to apologize on behalf of John Steinbeck to my mom haha.
44. Thing you ate/drank:
Uhh. I have no idea.
45. Time you cried and why:
The other day. I was having a breakdown of epic proportions about my life being planned out for me without my consent. It is no longer an issue.
46. Time you laughed and why:
Sometime today most likely. My mom probably said something hilarious, how she does.
47. Time you went out:
If we're talking about fun times with friends it's been over a year. I have no friends.
The First ...
48. Person you dated:
Wesley in kindergarten. We were married.
49. Person you kissed:
Uhh well. We'll go with my boyfriend in middle school whose name has escaped me right now. I cannot believe I have forgotten it!
50. Crush you had:
51. Thing you think about when you wake up:
It varies but usually includes "well that was weird" about a dream I had.
52. Best friend you ever had:
Carly in elementary. We were badass.
53. School you went to:
Montessori, which is a preschool. Yay near-abuse.
54. Big holiday you went on:
I have actually never been on a real vacation.
55. Award you got:
I do believe it was my award for wearing spice girl shoes during gym when I was in elementary school. I was badass. Obviously. Do you know the talent it takes to run in platforms?
Have You Ever ...
56. Broken the law?
Yes. But I've never been caught!
57. Been arrested?
No. I would cry for days.
58. Had a hangover?
Once. I chalk it up to my meds but I never get hung over. The only time I did was New Years a couple years ago when I drank a bottle of St. Brennan's to myself, some Jack Daniel's, some whipped cream flavored vodka, and god knows what else. We do not speak about that night. Things that should never happen did happen.
59. Been in the hospital?
Both kinds, even.
60. Been in a car crash?
61. Flown on a plane?
62. Been on a boat?
Never. Don't I look like a loser at this point. haha
63. Traveled overseas?
I've only ever been to Texas. I did not approve.
64. Had sex?
Not answering this.
65. Gotten pregnant?
66. Had an abortion?
While I'm pro-choice, it isn't something I do could do personally.
67. Been to a concert?
A few, yes.
68. Pretended to be sick to avoid doing something?
Who does not do this? Seriously.
69. Skipped school/work?
How do you think I spent high school?
70. Broken a bone?
I broke my arm when I was little and I broke both bones in my left leg when I was 16. I had to have surgery, have pins/screw/wire in there now.
Deviant Time ...
71. Who is your closest friend on deviantART?
NascitvrDecurro has been with me since my very first account on here when I was like 13.
72. What is your favourite Deviation by them?
This one hurts me. And I know it hurts her. But it's beautiful in its honesty.
75. Any favourite deviantART groups in mind? Off the top of my head right this second?
I don't really do groups so I'm going to skip these.
79. Who was your very first Watcher on deviantART?
NascitvrDecurro if we're counting from when I started out on here.
80. What is your favourite artwork by her/him?
Since I have to do another feature I just found UnspecifiedUnknown & she is glorious. I'm choosing to feature her:
81. Have you ever had any Daily Deviations?
More than my fair share, I think.
82. Have you ever won a contest with your artwork?
That's the hilarious part: I haven't!
84. Show us your most recent submission:
AtomicThere is a bird hidden
under the letters
I never sent you
on my fingernail—
I like to stare at
its almost decapitated
like a subliminal warning
& pretend you care
more than you do.
Outside birds always
find a way to
disappear off the earth
when storms arrive
until the greened over sky
decides to desaturate
in clear misunderstanding—
I pretend you care more
that Dorothy was
kidnapped by these
& that after I gutted myself
on your work boots
you wondered if
the abrasive rain
made it look like
I was crying.
The memories pulse into
thinking two lifeless words
can rub into a reaction—
I muck under the stuck
letters in mud
for an inflection
I may have missed
in the fuzz of my
happily starved brain.
There is no amount of
sorry that can stop
& the slaughter of
crackles around the edges—
the leaves brush
against each other
soft as midnight voices,
the steady silence
the tuning forks
implanted in my forearms.
More Personal Stuff ...
I am a non-official Jew.
86. Social class:
This is kind of an awkward question, right? I'm poor. Below poverty line.
German, Irish, Cherokee.
88. Languages spoken:
English. I can understand a fair bit of French from what I remember from high school but I can't speak it or write it.
89. A scar you have:
My zipper. Instead of stitches when I had my leg surgery I had staples. When they pulled them out, before the doctor came in the room actually, I had a legit panic attack and threw up. Which was lovely. But my scar looks like a zipper. It's on the inside of my left ankle.
90. Preferred medium:
Black pen only. Kthx.
Totally Random ...
91. Where is your dream holiday location?
Someplace rich in culture like India or rich in crazy like NYC
92. What are you wearing right now?
Not enough to share right now.
93. What is the last thing you bought?
94. When did you join deviantART?
Like forever ago. I think my first account was from 2004.
95. WHY did you join?
My friends and I all thought we were artists. AWW YEAH.
96. What type of membership do you have?
97. Are you playing The Game?
98. Are you a member of any other websites?
A few. Of course.
99. Do you enjoy answering pointless questions like these ones?
This one was silly.
And now I feel completely ridiculous & pointless.