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Hi everyone!! It’s been quite a while since I’ve logged on to dA. I figured it was time for me to come back and let y’all know what I’ve been up to over the years (:

As some of you may know, I started a tattoo apprenticeship in 2016. It’s been the toughest challenge of my life but I’ve never been more determined to succeed at one of my endeavors. Art has been a staple of my life since I can remember, always in the background and always present. It only made sense for me to pursue a career path that involves it in my everyday routine.

So so I finished my apprenticeship! In April I began tattooing real live people (scary) and earned the title of tattoo artist. I never feel more comfortable while I’m tattooing and want to do it for the rest of my life. It speaks to me in ways I can’t begin to describe. I’ll be posting my tattoos and tattoo designs here as a way to share with everyone where I am in the process, and hopefully get some feedback from fellow artists.

Im happy and excited to be active on dA again. To be honest, some of the people and communities I was a part of on here began negatively affecting my self-esteem and it became my own brand of toxic. But this is a clean slate! I’m going to share my work with the world and support and respect others as well! (:

I hope you give my new work a look! I miss my old buddies, so reach out!!

Love and cake :cake: as always,
-Wren
  • Listening to: Garbage
  • Reading: The Night Circus
  • Watching: Friends
  • Playing: Detroit Become Human
  • Eating: Grapes
  • Drinking: Water
Hello all! While I am steadily working on the artwork I owe people, my main focus these days has been my tattoo apprenticeship! I recently got some watercolors for my birthday, which I needed for the next step of the apprenticeship. 

Right now I'd like to practice watercolors by recreating an image or coloring in a lineart. So if anyone has anything they'd like to see me recreate with watercolors, paste a link below!

Thanks for your patience, guys. :cake:
Hi everyone! I realize I've lost a bit of my following since I disappeared for a year or so, but I think I could really use your help. But first of all here's what's going on in my life!

On Monday I'm starting at the Academy of Responsible Tattooing to begin my career as a tattoo artist! I'm extremely excited. Tattoo apprenticeships are incredibly difficult to come by these days and in my opinion the whole industry needs to evolve. These days people go to school to learn how to do anything in the arts - why can't tattooing be the same? Most tattoo schools are awful scams, claiming you'll be a successful artists after two weeks. But A.R.T. is a go-at-your-own-pace program with several stages that ensure you are on your way to being a tattoo artist. It's a really great program and I haven't even started and I would recommend it to anyone who wants to be a tattoo artist.

The program isn't free though. I do have a part time job but it's sporadic and sometimes I'll go two weeks without working. I can't keep that up and do my apprenticeship full time. So I started a patreon, which I don't expect to be my only source of funding, and I'm hoping to take in a few commissions to help out.

Since I'm a little on the desperate side, I'll be willing to do a full-body, full-color image with a background for only $20. Or, I'll do a sketch for $10. Here are some examples of both.
Wasteland by SashaWren  Tomorrow by SashaWren  Shallows by SashaWren - $20

I will try to fix you by SashaWren  Make time flow for me.. by SashaWren  Rise With Me by SashaWren - $10

This is incredibly important, since I have to pay rent for the next nine months or so and can't do it on a shaky part time job (and I can't get another job since the apprenticeship is full time). If you can't spare the money, please please please spread the word to people who might be able to help. I truly appreciate every ounce of support!

Thanks so much lovies :heart:

1. Halorith
2. Ariade
3. Skitzos
4. Resonance21

-Wren :cake:
The title says it all! What you may not know is that I've officially launched my career as a tattoo artist! Becoming a patron will get you very exclusive rewards and help me achieve my goals!

www.patreon.com/sashawren

My patreon page says it all - at least take a visit and if you can, help spread the word! Thanks!
Grace by SashaWren

This is Grace. She's been with my family for about ten years now, part Domestic Longhair and probably some Ragdoll thrown in. This picture is from when she was a healthy (and then some) 10 lbs. She's now 7 lbs and losing weight very, very quickly. The vet and I think it's hyperthyroidism, since she's eating like crazy and still losing weight. Problem is, he wants to do a complete blood count to find out exactly what's going on. Without pet insurance the test alone costs about $330 - my parents will chip in but they can't contribute too much, and the medication can cost quite a fair sum per year. I don't want to let my cat feel like she's starving to death, so I'm going to try raising some money to pay for her tests and medication.

I realize not too long ago I promised some requests, and I'll scan the ones I've done so far as soon as I can. But I really need to make money if I'm going to help Grace.

I'm willing to haggle, and will offer any kind of commission you would like - a sketch, linework, full color (finally found my tablet, so I can do those again). I'll do designs too, if that's what you so wish.

Any amount will help! Send me a note. (: Thanks for all your help!
It's been quite a while since I've checked out dA. Mainly because all my dA friends have been dying off slowly as they move to tumblr, which I can't seem to get a firm grasp on. Anyway, I'm graduating soon, and would like to exercise my hand at dragons and other beasties again. So if anyone has a character they'd like me to draw, drop a comment below! 

UPDATE: So I've actually gotten a few of these done already, but my scanner's broken :lol: So maybe soon I'll be able to take pictures and work on them digitally. Just to let you guys know I haven't ignored your requests =p
So I recently received my beautiful 16-hole Ocarina of Time and it's so beautiful and wonderful and I adore it so it made me look through all my wonderful Zelda fanart here on dA and now I want to show off some of the most stunning pieces. Zelda fans, be prepared for the feels.

I shall wait by kiesu  Clock Town Carnival by giz-art  Lady Zora by NateHallinanArt  Deku Royal Family Portrait by Lubrian  Majora's Moon by VincentBisschop  Majora Larvatum Papilio by Verde13  Ganon by Txikimorin  Puppet Zelda by Alderion-Al <da:thumb id="513939794"/>
Triforce and a bit of darkness by Pertheseus  Hyrule by PapayouFR  Grove by Brakkenimation  Return To Lost by Brakkenimation  It's dangerous to go alone by dandingeroz <da:thumb id="459159472"/>  Majora's Mask: The Clockworks by EternaLegend  Majora by angegreenart  Skulltula by Asashi-Kami  Zelda by TaoPaint  Zelda - Majoras Mask by GENZOMAN
Go Go Gadget Ganondorf by Bo-Po-Mo-Fo  Slayer of the Moon King by Mudora  Hyrule Castle - for 'The Royal Guards' by Mei-Xing  The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time by Will2Link  Will You Play... With Me? by vincentsdeviantart  Fire Arrow by Brakkenimation  Golden Goddesses by kGoggles
Operation Moonfall- Goht by Respeanut  Link vs. Twinmold by Txikimorin    Link vs. Bongo Bongo by Txikimorin  Link vs King Dodongo by Txikimorin  Link vs. Morpha by Txikimorin 
(Warning: I'm uploading this journal from my phone, so I'm not sure how the formatting will turn out)

Hello all. I've decided on a couple things, and need your help for some of them. One is just a solid list of things I'd trade artwork for, or anything else you might want. Usually species that are closed and only do auctions, and I'm not one of the rich kids here on dA who can afford to spend $100+ on characters (but I'd give them so much love TwT). That and I keep missing flatsales because they're so popular and go so quickly. The others concern my own species and concepts!

Item one on the agenda is my fenx species! I think Kel-Del had a great idea letting other guest artists design Birdfolk for auctions. I like my fenx, but I'm not too great at designing colorful, eye-pleasing patterns. So my thinking is, if anyone is interested in designing some fenx, we can discuss a sort of trade option. I feel like there are a few people on dA who have monopolized the whole original species game, because they're good yes, but in my eyes they all start blending together. I can't really tell the difference between a lot of them ^^; Anyway, off topic. If you're interested in designing some fenx, either comment on this journal or send me a note!

Next, I have a few species concepts that I'm playing with, but can't seem to solidify them. I'd love to work with someone on one or two of them, and maybe we could co-own one and develop it together. If interested, comment or note! :D

As for art trades and species. I'll list a couple here, and then make a full normal to save for all the species I'm interested in. For now, I'm dying to get my hands on:

Birdfolk - Kel-Del
Couvere - QuillCoil and TornTethers
Fellian - TornTethers
Koddoe - Jeniak

Those are just the ones I'd trade much of anything for, so if by any chance you have one and don't mind paying with it, once again, comment or note. C:

That's all for now, folks! :cake:

Meme and June features

Tue Jul 7, 2015, 8:52 AM


I literally have over 1000 notifications in my inbox. Work has been draining my time, and whenever I'm not working I'm doing anything to distract myself from the ridiculous STRESS caused by my own inability to let things go. But I'm getting better! Hopefully I'll pick up my tablet again soon. It's difficult to be motivated when dA seems to be fading from everyone's view and I still can't get into tumblr. Eh, we'll have to see. Enjoy some late June features and a cute meme from AirSaber.

Name your main characters who you draw on DA.
Wren mostly, then I guess Braid and my other byondi Iangden. I have others but those definitely get priority it seems xD

Do you have a sona? If so, who?
Wrenwren. :heart:

Out of all your character designs, which one are you most proud of?
Probably Iangden. I rarely nail color schemes and anatomical designs, and when I finished her I was just so pleased with the outcome.

Who would you say would be your most original character design?
Again, Iangden, but really only by process of elimination. I didn't design Wren, Egypte is practically Jiro's twin who was designed by BaraKaan, and Braid isn't all that original a design haha. And Del isn't even designed YET.

Who is your most unoriginal character and why?
I mean I have to go with Egypte for the same reason as above. Maybe I should change his design...

Which character do you dislike the most?
Like, dislike them as a character? Like they're a jackass or something?
...Hell, I don't even dislike Shinerai's Chinar, I love Chinar. I don't think I can dislike any of them.

Have any of your characters been inspired by another person's/film's characters?
Why films, particularly? Del was greatly inspired by an episode of Doctor Who, "Midnight." And all my characters were strongly influenced by songs.
Iangden: "What the Water Gave Me" by Florence + the Machine (prepare for many Flo songs)
Egypte: "Strangeness and Charm" by Flo
Del: "Seven Devils" by Flo
Story: "O Death" the Jen Titus version

Who is your most high-powered character and your lowest-powered character?
Powered? I guess Del is pretty powerful, but I don't really know yet xD As for underpowered, Iangden doesn't know what her abilities are yet. Which means I don't really know what they are yet. 

Other People's Characters

Name some of the most well known characters of other artists/friends to you.
Definitely Shinerai's Shinerai, I think he gets drawn the most of other characters I know.
I guess a lot of people know VolVokun's Valdis, Hauket's Ren Fair, Black-Wing24's Black Wing, LiLaiRa's... Lilaira.

List some of your most favorite characters of other artists.
Oh gosh
Shinerai's Chinar and Kiro, random, I know, but he's just so pretty
Hauket's Ramashada hnnnn

Which is someone else's character do you think is the most original?
I dislike these originality questions, they're not fair.

List some of your favorite species of someone else's
Shinerai's byondi, Hauket's Ren Fair monsters, TornTethers's and QuillCoil's Couveres, AlanaRoseheart's Shinlai

Which species of someone else's do you think is most original?
"I'm not answering any more original/not original questions."
Couldn't say it better myself.

Have you ever had a joint storyline with someone else's characters?
Definitely, Shin and I have RPed a good bit of Wren's story, and Braid and TornTethers's Nootau have a thing technically.

Do you have any characters of someone else's species?
Haha most of my used characters belong to another species. Byondi, Shinlai, among others.

Tag Some People~
I don't really know, no one's really on dA anymore :U
TornTethers? Shinerai maybe?



June Features


  • Listening to: Christmas music
  • Reading: LOTR
  • Drinking: Sangria

May Features + Update

Mon Jun 1, 2015, 11:13 AM


Hi everyone! It's been a while since I posted a real journal update, so here goes! I'm currently working on an MYO fenx sheet, with instructions on how to correctly make your own. For now they are still a closed species, but I'll be holding a contest soon enough! I also have a few other ideas in the works for adoptable species, just to see how they turn out. I'm not sure I'll be hanging onto what I have for the nosques currently. I think I'll be sort of combining them with the kaigur idea I had. We'll have to see.

I'm also working on some trades and gifts for people, so don't worry, I haven't forgotten anyone! =p

I've also started a tumblr for my Zelda fanfiction since apparently everyone loves tumblr. I can't seem to get into it really, but if that's what people are doing these days I might as well give it a shot. I'll be posting the story there, but I'll still be updating my fanfiction.net account as well as here on dA.

Anyhoo, summer should be great! I have a job I enjoy and a lot of creativity flowing. (: How are my lovely watchers doing?

Have some cake :cake: and some May features!



June Features


  • Listening to: Christmas music
  • Reading: LOTR
  • Drinking: Sangria

Zelda web comic

Tue May 26, 2015, 2:21 PM


Hey everyone! I know I bothered everyone with my inability to create a comic by myself before, but this time, it's going to be a webcomic and I'm enlisting other Zelda fans' help! If you are interested in helping me work on this, whether it simply be page formatting, linework, or coloring, check out this link to my forum post:

forum.deviantart.com/community…

As it says, I have most of the story scripted, and pretty much all of it planned. So once again! If you're interested, send a note or an email, the address is posted in the forum threat above. C:

:cake:



June Features


  • Listening to: Christmas music
  • Reading: LOTR
  • Drinking: Sangria

Streaming OFFLINE

Sat Apr 18, 2015, 1:44 PM


www.picarto.tv/live/channel.ph…

Music: ON
offline

:cake:



February Features


Crow part II by Olggah 46 by dandelion-s La Chasse au Cerf - Stille Volk by Sieskja Thorns and Claws by Acayth last light by Grimmla:thumb512372756: We Three Kings by Lovell-Art
  • Listening to: Christmas music
  • Reading: LOTR
  • Drinking: Sangria

OC MEME

Fri Apr 17, 2015, 2:11 PM


Because I feel like it. I stole this from Syvaender's lovely little profile page. (:

1. Your first OC ever?

I'm pretty sure I adopted two raptor characters and never gave them actual purpose, so I'm gonna say my first OC is my Hunter, which I've only given love in my sketchbooks unfortunately. Here he is:  Dragon Hunter Customize By Black Wing24-d422aal by SashaWren
But my first self-designed character is Koda.

2. Do you have a personal favourite among your OCs?

Not particularly, although I pretty much adore Iangden's design. I've definitely given Wren and Braid the most love though.

3. Have you ever adopted a character or gotten a character from someone else?

Lol like most of my OCs are adopted/given. Among all my characters, only five are my own species/creations. A lot of them are designs of other peoples' species.


4. A character you rarely talk about?

I technically have a lot of OCs dA hasn't even seen. I have a byondi I love but can't seem to design well enough to give him full shape. I have a Zoids pilot OC. Otherwise there's my AoSaai, Matrix, although I do love him to pieces.


5. If you could make only one of your OCs popular/known, who would it be?

I mean, I'd have to go with Wren ^^; If not, then probably Braid.


6. Two OCs of yours that look alike despite not being related?

Do Braid and Riordyn count? xD They're the same species.


7. Are your OCs part of any story or stories?

Sure. My byondi all have stories I'm working on. Also my Shinlai :D I haven't forgotten about those bebes. I also have a story for my iaevi characters.


8. Do you RP as any of your OCs? If you do, introduce one of your RP OCs here!

I RP with Wren and Iangden mostly, and have RPed in the past with Braid and Matrix. I miss it a lot and would love to start one up if anyone's interested!


9. Would you ever be willing to give any of your OCs to someone else?

Sure, if I'm positive they'll give them the love I couldn't. I've given some away already. Of course there are those I'd never part with.


10. Introduce an OC with a complicated design? 

I guess Del counts here, since I can't seem to get him right. He's my Dark byondi. Iangden's beast form can be pretty complicated too.


11. Is there any OC of yours you could describe as a “sunshine”? 

LOL no. Except for maybe Riordyn. She's a Light Shinlai, and literally serves as a counter to Story's Dark. But she's not overly sunshiny.


12. Name an OC that isn’t yours but who you like a lot

Goin' with Tokin here and saying Shinerai's Chinar. Gawsh I love him he's so creepy and great. I also love so many of the Ren Fair designs out there, by Hauket.


13. Do you have any troublemaker OCs? 

Of course. Yarn is quite the troublemaker, although I don't think she counts anymore. Then there's Eos, my fenx.


14. Introduce an OC with a tragic backstory 

Well Story was born deaf and his mother died while giving birth to him. His father rarely showed any interest, and he was raised by his sister Braid. Eventually when their father died, Braid ran off with him and he didn't quite know why. He also is a Balanced Shinlai, meaning he bears the burden of two elements, one of them being Dark of all things. Ever since he was a pup, his Dark element manifested in his mind as what he calls the Gray Man, a human in formal attire with gray skin and a mouth like Ladeth's. I don't actually want to go into too much of it because I actually still plan on working with my Shinlai in the near future.


15. Do you like to talk about your OCs with other people?

Sure, of course! I also like getting feedback on them to make them more rounded, solid characters.

16. Which one of your OCs would be the best at biology (school subject)? 

Riordyn. She's already a nature/science geek, and is probably the most well-behaved of my OCs.

17. Any OC OTPs? 

Wren and Egypte. Although I do love Braid and Nootau :la:

18. Any OC crackships? 

Crackships? Like... crazy pairings? I guess it'd be crazy for Wren and Story to be together? I dunno.

19. Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why)

I mean Wren is me. She means a lot to me because she is part of something so much bigger than just me. Shin's world of KyaRa is so elaborate and beautiful, and the fact that such an amazing and talented artist designed her for me is so meaningful. A lot of people think it's strange that my main OC was designed by someone else, but I've always been a huge believer in what collaboration can do. Shin designed her, and I gave her life. Besides, I've always worked better when in the world of someone else's imagination. That's why so many of my OCs aren't original species of mine.


20. Do any of your OCs sing? If they sing, care to share more details (headcanon voice, what kind of songs they like etc)?

Technically Matrix sings, although he doesn't so much anymore (too much of a drunk to pick up his guitar again). Wren enjoys singing, but I guess she'd have my voice. Iangden likes singing too, but isn't fantastic at it. Then there's Braid, who rarely sings but is good at it.

21. Your most artistic OC

As in my OC that is an artist? Probably Iangden, and a little bit Braid.


22. Is there any OC of yours people tend to mischaracterize? If yes, how? 

HAH I tend to mischaracterize Iangden. She's an enigma.


23. Introduce OC that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would be like?

Egypte, for one, although he hasn't come into full form yet. Then there's of course Wren, who started out as just a deer with wings, then became a large furry dragon, and is now a byondi. xD


24. If you could meet one OC of yours, who would it be and why?

Iangden. It's a long story concerning what she means to me, but she could help me in ways I can't imagine.


25. The OC that resembles you the most (same hobby, height, shared like/dislike for something etc?)

Wren xD She's me.

26. Have you ever had to change your OC’s design or something else about them against your will? 

Against my will sounds intense, but technically yes? Just following others' rules.

27. Any OCs that were inspired by a certain song? 

Hell yes, like all of them. Del is "Seven Devils" by Florence + the Machine, and Iangden is "What the Water Gave Me" by the same artist. And that's just a few, I have other unsheathed OCs for songs.

28. Your most dangerous OC? 

Del. He's a dark byondi - anyone who knows Chinar can say that's all you need to know.


29. Which one of your OCs would go investigate an abandoned house at night without telling anyone they’re going?

Iangden, maybe Braid.


30. Which one of your OCs would most likely have a secret stuffed animal collection? 

Rio, if she had any interest in stuffed animals as a Shinlai xD

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)

Feels weird without a tumblr, but I suppose Matrix would just post a ton of black and white photography, maybe some super nice landscapes.


32. Which one of your OCs would be the most suitable horror game protagonist and why? 

Iangden, only in the sense that she is the protagonist of a horror story.
Otherwise Matrix is a good choice. Think Castellanos in The Evil Within.


33. Your shyest OC?

Story. I mean he's deaf and spent a good amount of his life alone in the woods xD


34. Do you have any twin characters?

Wren has a twin brother Gheanse, but he doesn't really have a character as of yet. So does Seleda actually. Twins are common for byondi.

35. Any sibling characters? 

Hah up above. Braid and Story are brother and sister, then Matrix has a younger sister. Also Egypte is technically half-brothers with Jiro, BaraKaan's byondi.


36. Do you have OC pairs where the other part belongs to someone else (siblings, lovers, friends etc)? 

Braid and Nootau, who belongs to TornTethers. Also Matrix and Nora had a thing going on.


37. Introduce an OC who is not quite human

Well I only have two human OCs. Lynn and Ella, my Zoids OC. So.....

38. Which one of your OCs would be the best dancer? 

Iangden's a pretty good dancer I guess.


39. Introduce any character you want 

What do you mean by this. HEre's my sphinx by oukamiyoukai!
  Custom Sphinx By Oukamiyoukai45-d89u8yu by SashaWren


40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share!

I guess Koda has good memories, since I was so proud to have designed my own dragon. Also Wren when she was a deer with wings, because witherlings painted her as a request and it was beautiful.


41. Has anyone drawn fanart of your OCs? If yes, maybe show a picture or two here (remember sources & permissions!)

Sure! Couldn't possibly pick one though.
sashawren.deviantart.com/favou…


42. Which one of your OCs would be the most interested in Greek gods?

Wren, although that feels like cheating. Also maybe Egypte.


43. Do you have any certain type when you create your OCs? Do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? It’s time to confess

Anything deer like. With thin appendages. And long necks.


44. Something you like about your OCs in general

I like how each of them are parts of me. Like that feels silly to say but it's so true.

45. A character you no longer use?

Koda, really. Although I should probably count Seleda here.


46. Has anyone ever told you that you treat your OCs badly?

No.


47. Has anyone ever (friendly) claimed any of your OCs as their child? 

This is a weird question. I don't think so?


48. OC who is a perfect cinnamon roll, too good for this world, too pure

Lol boring. None of them.


49. Which one of your OCs would most likely enjoy memes

Ugh, Yarn maybe?


50. Give me the good ol’ OC talk here. Talk about anything you want

Anything? Anything at all? Okay. Um. Wren's hairstyle changes a lot. Iangden hasn't quite figured out how to use her element yet. These are random facts. What I don't know.





February Features


Crow part II by Olggah 46 by dandelion-s La Chasse au Cerf - Stille Volk by Sieskja Thorns and Claws by Acayth last light by Grimmla:thumb512372756: We Three Kings by Lovell-Art
  • Listening to: Christmas music
  • Reading: LOTR
  • Drinking: Sangria

Fellians

Tue Apr 14, 2015, 7:02 PM


Fellians [CLOSED] by TornTethers

Go give them love. They're beautiful.



February Features


Crow part II by Olggah 46 by dandelion-s La Chasse au Cerf - Stille Volk by Sieskja Thorns and Claws by Acayth last light by Grimmla:thumb512372756: We Three Kings by Lovell-Art
  • Listening to: Christmas music
  • Reading: LOTR
  • Drinking: Sangria

Personal: Thank you

Thu Apr 9, 2015, 10:57 AM


Man, I knew I could count on my dA buddees. Seriously, I received so much support it was a little surprising. I guess I assumed people wouldn't care because most of the time I feel like I go unnoticed on dA. That's one of the things that was bothering me, actually. I mentioned in my previous journal how I can't seem to really connect with people in real life, but it wasn't helped by how my crazy fan ravings were also somewhat passed over on dA too. It's no one's fault, of course, I mean I'm stupid obsessed with the Legend of Zelda, and I don't blame people for looking at my fifth piece of fanart and moving on. But I dunno, hopefully I'll be able to look past it.

It's a silly little plight to want more recognition on dA, but please don't say something like "real artists create art for themselves and shouldn't care if they get recognition" because a) that's hurtful, and b) not true for everyone. My goal as an artist is to collaborate and inspire others. How can I do that without some form of recognition? How do I know if I'm making the impact I want to make if a lot of my artwork gets no feedback? I'm not looking to be famous or anything. It just feels like some sort of stasis I can't break out of.

This is not a journal to be all whiny about how people don't comment on my work. Really, don't feel like you have to comment on everything now, because that wouldn't be authentic. I'm just talking. Not asking for any favors or anything.

Thanks again for reading. You guys helped a lot more than you would know <3

-Wren



February Features


Crow part II by Olggah 46 by dandelion-s La Chasse au Cerf - Stille Volk by Sieskja Thorns and Claws by Acayth last light by Grimmla:thumb512372756: We Three Kings by Lovell-Art
  • Listening to: Christmas music
  • Reading: LOTR
  • Drinking: Sangria

Personal: Shitty

Sun Apr 5, 2015, 12:56 PM


I realize this bears no importance to pretty much anyone, but I need to talk to someone god dammit.

I've been feeling a little bit isolated emotionally, with absolutely nowhere to turn. My best friend since high school has essentially separated herself from me, cutting off a main source of emotional release, and my current best friends aren't exactly the kinds I can turn to for that kind of thing. I know it sounds weird, but two of them are guys who are emotionally distant already, and one of them I don't actually enjoy talking to about this kind of stuff. I've tried talking to my parents but my mom just gets all upset and frustrated and tells me all the harsh truths about myself that I already fucking know. I don't have a significant other I can turn to because I'm not that lucky I guess. And way too critical over the people I meet. Probably because I have such picky feelings towards those I care about.

No one cares about my writing, and those who care enough to read either don't like it or don't feel the need to talk with me about it. I can't seem to fucking draw anything anymore, and I keep stalling when it comes to what I want to draw in the first place. I'm trying to develop a more unique style but it keeps failing. So whenever I try to release this pent-up emotion by drawing, I just end up getting more frustrated.

I've fallen into a vicious cycle where I can't just let myself enjoy anything anymore. I tend to get overly obsessive over things I "enjoy," which makes everything else in my life get sent to the back burner. I've been playing Dragon Age: Inquisition, and have been so obsessed with the Cullen romance that my friends make fun of me for it. One calls me out on how I'm so focused on it because I want that in my real life, someone I can actually feel authentically close to. And let myself feel close to them. Of course, that requires them to feel that way about me too. I need to fucking accept that that kind of fairy tale romance doesn't exist in this stupid world. Then maybe I'll grow up and settle for someone who feels that way about me. But that'll take some time to mourn. 

Anyone else ever feel like they don't belong? Not like they're with the wrong people, or in the wrong place, but like their soul/spirit/what-the-fuck-ever literally doesn't belong in the world you live in? Like you were built for some other world and are forced to put up a facade in this one, playing along with all the stupid games and responsibilities? Saying it out loud (typing it, rather) makes it sound as stupid as it is, but I don't connect with anyone these days. The only people I connect are fucking fictional. What the hell is that? So when people say "oh, you're feeling lonely? Just go out and meet new people!" they don't fucking understand how futile that is. I don't mesh with other people. It's all just an act. 

But through it all I have to be optimistic. I have to believe that someone else is out there who is like me, hates all the stupid social norms that require one to behave a certain way in order to be happy. I have to believe that the universe will send them to me. So many people find that happiness with someone else. Why can't I? I have to believe it. It's the only thing getting me through this stupid situation.

Ugh.

tl;dr - I'm a mess.

If you actually read all that and don't think I'm a whiny loser, then I have a hug waiting for you. I'm not usually one to post this kind of stuff, but as I mentioned, I need to let it out somehow. So thanks for reading, if you did.



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  • Listening to: Christmas music
  • Reading: LOTR
  • Drinking: Sangria

DAI Cullen.

Tue Mar 31, 2015, 5:25 PM


Gais. I love him.

It's funny, normally I'd go for Sera in this situation. I'm always one for the sassy chicks.

No, this journal has no importance whatsoever.



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  • Listening to: Christmas music
  • Reading: LOTR
  • Drinking: Sangria

Noiserunes!

Thu Mar 12, 2015, 2:17 PM


Hi all :D 

A good dA buddy C0ZR10N created a new bangin' species called Noiserunes, and they're pretty damn cool/adorable. They're super expressive and customizable, and are created from songs! An idea I've always been a fan of. If you want more information on the species, you can check and maybe join the group:  Noiserunes

I'm posting this not only because they're an awesome species, but because Mill is holding a semi-contest to promote the current adopts she has for sale. They're incredibly rare 'runes, and are super purdy. If someone decides to purchase one and mentions that they heard of the species from this journal, then I'll get to make my own! So if you have the money and feel kind enough to mention me, it'll be a win-win. (:
 
Here's a link to the journal with the contest, where you can find the 'runes up for adopt. :D Thanks!
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  • Listening to: Christmas music
  • Reading: LOTR
  • Drinking: Sangria

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Crow part II by Olggah 46 by dandelion-s La Chasse au Cerf - Stille Volk by Sieskja Thorns and Claws by Acayth last light by Grimmla:thumb512372756: We Three Kings by Lovell-Art
  • Listening to: Christmas music
  • Reading: LOTR
  • Drinking: Sangria

The Evil Within + LoZ on Netflix

Sat Feb 7, 2015, 3:00 PM


So I completed The Evil Within not long ago, and oh boy. I know that not many people probably care about my opinion concerning a Japanese horror game, but oh well. I thought it was pretty good actually, especially in the first couple of chapters. Unfortunately my roommate and I called the WHOLE PLOT from chapter two, which is generally fine, but honestly it would've been better if said plot hadn't stretched out across FIFTEEN chapters. So here goes (WARNING: MAJOR SPOILERS FOLLOW):

A) The plot. I saw somewhere that Bethesda's ONLY writer for this game, who isn't credited with anything else, was inspired by the film Inception. NO SHIT SHERLOCK. Unfortunately, he seemed to only be inspired by the first twenty minutes of Inception, because that's when the foundation is laid out. See, in Inception, we learn about the world we have to take as given:  Leo and JGL have a device/way to enter into the dreams of a host. That's the first twenty minutes. Then, given that information, we set up the story, and there's a specific reason we have to travel through Cillian's dreams. Unfortunately The Evil Within stopped at the whole travelling-through-peoples'-minds deal. That was the plot. The only other plot they COULD HAVE brought to the table, they fed us through poorly-written collectibles and didn't follow through. I hear they'll be trying to close up those ties with Kidman's DLC, but that's still a little uncool because it makes you buy the DLC which is just supposed to be extras, not REQUIRED for experiencing the game's story. It felt a lot like we were given information on the story in the first few chapters, then had a good five chapters of gameplay, and then when we expected to get more story information, we were just given an enhanced version of what we already figured out in the beginning. Don't get me wrong, I think the whole deal with STEM and the game's plot is GREAT. I loved it. I just think it could've been executed much, much better, and that's why it should be a movie. Once again, I liked the gameplay, and the horror aspect had me hiding under the covers a couple of times. It just felt a little choppy.

B) The writing. Did anyone else just want to vomit whenever they read Castellanos' journal entries? Just looking at it at the surface, it's our only way of learning about his character. I mean I understand wanting to keep the player character as open as possible to feel a tad more RPG-like, but this game takes place IN HIS HEAD (or at least in a world that deals with his inner thoughts and consciousness). Why didn't we see his alcoholism? Why didn't we see his dead daughter, or his kidnapped wife? Why did we see nothing about his character, save for a few journal entries seemingly written BEFORE the events of the game? And shittily-written at that. Seriously, what alcoholic says something like, "I know I shouldn't, but it's so easy to turn to whiskey"? No alcoholic says that. And no detective partner (Joseph) would mention his alcoholism so heavily-handed, considering it's not something Castellanos' is doing anything about. And on top of that, the writing just didn't feel like Castellanos' voice. I felt like his character would've been a little less willing to write in a journal anyway. I dunno, it's all a little weird to me. Also, any game that gives character/story development through a post-game model viewer is not doing a good job. And when you have to use phrase SOMEHOW these monsters are this way, you're REALLY not doing a good job.

I've been working on a fanfiction that serves a bit as a novelization of the game. It'll definitely be a bit more condensed. But the reason I'm saying all this is because I want to talk to people about it, see what others think. My roommate's opinions are so set-in-stone that it's hard to have a discussion about this with him sometimes. 

All of that being said, next topic!

If you haven't heard that Netflix is working with Nintendo to create a live-action Legend of Zelda series, go type that into Google and read the plethora of articles already written on it. It's one of the silliest things I think I've ever gone for, but I need to be a part of this. I need to at least be an assistant to a writer for this show. I mean, major dream of mine, actually BE a writer for this show. They're still looking for writers. What do you think would happen if I sent my fanfic to them LULZ /dies

I guess this is a ridiculous request, but if anyone knows any connections to either Nintendo or Netflix, PLEASE let me know if you're willing to give up that information. I don't care if I just talk to someone and they say sorry, no can do. I just need to try or I'll hate myself forever. 

TL;DR, any thoughts on The Evil Within, comment below! I'd love to talk to you about them. And the Legend of Zelda Netflix series better be a good one; if you have any connections to Netflix or Nintendo, please send me a note or email. (: sashagreendyk@gmail.com



February Features


Crow part II by Olggah 46 by dandelion-s La Chasse au Cerf - Stille Volk by Sieskja Thorns and Claws by Acayth last light by Grimmla:thumb512372756: We Three Kings by Lovell-Art
  • Listening to: Christmas music
  • Reading: LOTR
  • Drinking: Sangria