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DutchmanProjBanner by sapphire-blackrose DutchmanProjBanner :iconsapphire-blackrose:sapphire-blackrose 0 0 Playful Kitten by sapphire-blackrose
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Lounging in Morning Sun by sapphire-blackrose
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Siberian Sentry by SilentRavyn
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Safe and Sound by nakanoart Safe and Sound :iconnakanoart:nakanoart 6,280 125 Red Riding Hood Cosplay - Lost by diriagoly Red Riding Hood Cosplay - Lost :icondiriagoly:diriagoly 197 32 Cheetah Walk Cycle by Nightrizer Cheetah Walk Cycle :iconnightrizer:Nightrizer 1,478 72 Taygus by Poliarnaya Taygus :iconpoliarnaya:Poliarnaya 9 5 Wonder of the Forest by Lhuin Wonder of the Forest :iconlhuin:Lhuin 2,806 114 Tifa. nsfw version optional. by sakimichan Tifa. nsfw version optional. :iconsakimichan:sakimichan 23,189 678 Weregarurumon by Esquitax Weregarurumon :iconesquitax:Esquitax 298 22 Grey fullbuster by sakimichan Grey fullbuster :iconsakimichan:sakimichan 19,886 1,168 In the Rain by sakimichan In the Rain :iconsakimichan:sakimichan 18,578 560 Betrayal by Aegis-Illustration Betrayal :iconaegis-illustration:Aegis-Illustration 12,090 1,693 Taking You Home by SickRogue Taking You Home :iconsickrogue:SickRogue 766 61 Princess Mononoke by AlectorFencer Princess Mononoke :iconalectorfencer:AlectorFencer 3,280 116 The White Mother by Zephyri The White Mother :iconzephyri:Zephyri 1,525 200 We Used To Be Happy. by Tamnyan We Used To Be Happy. :icontamnyan:Tamnyan 900 63 Mheetu by PeregrineTheGryphon Mheetu :iconperegrinethegryphon:PeregrineTheGryphon 152 9
My entire collection of all pieces that I love done by other artists ^_^ There is a lot of different stuff in here, and a lot of talent too :love:

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Nothing is ever perfect in life. Nothing ever fully goes as we plan. It's been a while since i've updated. The past few months have been a roller coaster of events, emotions, and mental instability. My brother has been a major cause of most of our issues. From the first week moving into the new home, my brother made things difficult, uncomfortable, and dangerous. We had to kick him out just before Thanksgiving....Since then we've survived. It's been difficult, money is now tight, I am in the hiring process for a guard job, night shift, possibly just on the weekends until my husband is able to take care of himself a little better at home. Things with his medical situation haven't improved. We've attempted to put him on a diet, but he got very very sick. I haven't been able to get a slate yet, I WANT to work on art, make money from it, but without a slate I really can't do any digital work. That being said I CAN still make traditional art. 

This won't be very long. Needless to say talking about everything doesn't seem to help much, and I've exhausted myself in trying to reach out to people. I've become a tad harsh, distant, and less tolerant. I'm tired of struggling, of scraping and clawing to survive, of getting so close to stability and comfort and overall content with life, and it's ripped away from me. I am not holding my breath with this job i'm in the process of being hired for. I was highly recommended by a good friend, but with my luck with jobs I am not getting my hopes up. 

Lately to distract from the irritation and overall frustration of our situation I've delved heavily into World of Warcraft. Every night i'm on, grinding through old quests, achievements, mount and pet farming, and increasing my honor level. I feel like I have a purpose on their. I'm important and needed. I'm apparently GOOD at group PvP and often asked to join groups now. Most days if i'm not filling out paperwork or running out to my husbands medical appointments, i'm seen curled up on my part of the couch, with my snacks, engrossed in my computer. I'm either playing WoW or reading comics here on DA. 

I'll leave this with this last piece of info. As most have probably guessed from my temperament and the overall tone of this journal, I am not in a good place emotionally or mentally. I am drained, I am tired, and I am fed up with the lot I have been cast lately. I am frustrated in many ways, a lot of my needs are not being met, and I am festering quietly inside. I've basically run out of outlets, and honestly I am at that point of just not caring anymore. I know my depression is strong right now. I haven't been taking care of myself. I have no motivation currently to do so. A lot of this could be due to the weather, too cold to take walks, it could be the lack of things to do, or able to do due to a lack of funds. It could be the lack of sex, as both of our sex drives are shot due to his injuries. Whatever the case, i'm not in a good place right now. No, i'm not thinking suicidal thoughts, i'm still too angry to be at that point. I don't think i'll hit that point again honestly. This depression is more of an anger then a sadness. I am angry with life, with how we've been treated by his job, insurance companies, anyone who has slighted us, i'm just angry all the time, and I try to bury it to avoid conflict. 

Until I have more to say, or hopefully good news, i'll be around, watching, reading comics, silent, but never gone.

~Sapphira 
Time for a VERY long overdue update. 

So I've been lurking on here since I got the hacking issue squared away, mainly just to catch up on some favorite comics and such. I have a new laptop that runs beautifully, but I still need to get my art supplies and space figured out. On top of that we have to move....again....to catch you all up to speed: Since 2015 we've been bouncing from place to place due to some serious medical issues. My husband was injured at work almost 2 years ago now, and because of the severity of his injury he's been out on Workman's Comp. He works for the USPS. Federal job, you'd THINK that they'd be on top of his medical shit and want him fixed and back to work ASAP right? WRONG! They have let him ROT for the past YEAR. Took them 5 MONTHS to even send him to THEIR doctor to be looked at, cuz the initial doctor we went to didn't give a damn and just threw pain meds at him....turns out, he's got a herniated disc in his neck between the c5 and c6 vertebra, and a ruptured disc between the c6 and c7 vertebra. He has spinal fluid pushing on his spinal nerve cord which not only causes extreme pain but also numbness in his left arm that is radiating to his right arm now. On top of that we found out he's type 2 diabetic. Seems the hospital he's been going to for 6 YEARS knew and never told him....they cared more about his blood PRESSURE then his blood SUGAR levels....and because he's diabetic, when he went in for his pre-surgery blood work they told him that they couldn't operate on him because his sugar level was over 400....so NOW he's having to get THAT all under control before he can get surgery.....except that USPS decided to CANCEL HIS INSURANCE so now he can't even get his diabetes medication!!!! Needless to say we've been conversing with lawyers and fighting back and forth with his HR department and the medical insurance company and it's all just one nasty vicious cycle. Due to the severity of his pain and his inability to really use his left arm, i'm left taking care of him and handling the lifting or carrying of items as well as most of the chores. Because of that i'm unable to find a new job that is flexible enough to work with me....I have to keep my husband as my #1 priority. Thus, I am going to be delving back into my freelance artwork again. 

As for the amount of moving....since his injury we've moved 5 times.....for a while his unemployment was being very slow in paying him. Thankfully that's been handled but it caused us to lose a few homes, friends, jobs for me, cars, etc. Because I can't find a flexible job, even though he gets his paychecks regularly now (every 22 days or so), we're being forced to move again....we've been renting a room in a home since January and now all of the sudden they want us out, even though they've been getting paid every month on time with no issues. It's because we're HERE all the time. They won't say it, but they're not too bright when it comes to their advertising of the rooms they have available. We found this room through Creigslist. I know I know not the brightest place to find a place to live, but given the urgency we were in we couldn't afford to be picky. Anyway, Back then the info for the room stated that you had to be able to pay the rent. They didn't care about how often we'd be home or anything, and for the first few months things were good. I had a part time job as a waitress/hostess that was a mistake but things were better....until our landlady's daughter came back into town....you see, we currently stay in the home of a family, part of which is in the Navy. The guy in the Navy is the son-in-law of our landlady. Her daughter and two of their 4 kids were down in Tennessee managing their farm. Navy wife got suspicious of hubby cheating on her because her whole family can't keep their noses out of other peoples business, and decided to surprise everyone with a visit.....that lasted like 2 months. In that time we were pushed from common areas by her and her 4 brats that have ZERO respect for other people's personal space or belongings, woke us up many times early in the morning by screeching at each other, and i mean like, 6AM early....and the mother did NOTHING to stop them or reprimand them. In fact, prior to her visit, her 2 oldest were living here. Had a couple early morning issues but the FATHER took care of it and they listened and behaved....once their mother was here however....no one could say ANYTHING about it to the kids or to her without having their head bitten off verbally....she believes her children are perfect and can do no wrong....anyway, they recently posted one of the upstairs rooms for rent, with a very loud statement at the bottom of the description in all caps being that the person inquiring MUST HAVE A FULL TIME PAYING JOB. The landlady ALSO broke a verbal agreement we had with her about signing a new lease, and instead moved us to a month to month WITHOUT INFORMING US. Then, at the beginning of September, 2 DAYS after we made another complaint about early morning noise, she slipped a 30 day notice to vacate the property.....so now we've been struggling to find a place that will take us, 2 adults fixed cats, and my little brother without a credit check as our credit is DESTROYED atm from all the medical bills....trust me, we TRIED going through an apartment company....that's how we found out....Needless to say, once we find a place, move in, and can settle a little....I WILL be getting a drawing slate and getting back to my art. Once that happens I will post that I am taking commissions again and start hopefully getting a little more income that way. I need to be able to do something while at home to best take care of my husband.....

I know that was INSANELY long and most of you probably won't even read it let alone care, but now you all know what i've been dealing with since my last update. Jack and Salvajera (now just Bunny or baby girl) are still healthy and happy. Jack is 8 years old and Bunny is 7. Other then the medical shit the marriage is great. We really are a fantastic team. Hope the rest of you are fairing better in life then we are right now. I wouldn't wish this kinda shit on my worst enemies....Seriously....It's ridiculous what housing companies expect from people these days....and slumlords are the worst type of person....hopefully I'll have better news at the start of October. Until then, Loves to all and well wishes.

~Sapphira
Nothing is ever perfect in life. Nothing ever fully goes as we plan. It's been a while since i've updated. The past few months have been a roller coaster of events, emotions, and mental instability. My brother has been a major cause of most of our issues. From the first week moving into the new home, my brother made things difficult, uncomfortable, and dangerous. We had to kick him out just before Thanksgiving....Since then we've survived. It's been difficult, money is now tight, I am in the hiring process for a guard job, night shift, possibly just on the weekends until my husband is able to take care of himself a little better at home. Things with his medical situation haven't improved. We've attempted to put him on a diet, but he got very very sick. I haven't been able to get a slate yet, I WANT to work on art, make money from it, but without a slate I really can't do any digital work. That being said I CAN still make traditional art. 

This won't be very long. Needless to say talking about everything doesn't seem to help much, and I've exhausted myself in trying to reach out to people. I've become a tad harsh, distant, and less tolerant. I'm tired of struggling, of scraping and clawing to survive, of getting so close to stability and comfort and overall content with life, and it's ripped away from me. I am not holding my breath with this job i'm in the process of being hired for. I was highly recommended by a good friend, but with my luck with jobs I am not getting my hopes up. 

Lately to distract from the irritation and overall frustration of our situation I've delved heavily into World of Warcraft. Every night i'm on, grinding through old quests, achievements, mount and pet farming, and increasing my honor level. I feel like I have a purpose on their. I'm important and needed. I'm apparently GOOD at group PvP and often asked to join groups now. Most days if i'm not filling out paperwork or running out to my husbands medical appointments, i'm seen curled up on my part of the couch, with my snacks, engrossed in my computer. I'm either playing WoW or reading comics here on DA. 

I'll leave this with this last piece of info. As most have probably guessed from my temperament and the overall tone of this journal, I am not in a good place emotionally or mentally. I am drained, I am tired, and I am fed up with the lot I have been cast lately. I am frustrated in many ways, a lot of my needs are not being met, and I am festering quietly inside. I've basically run out of outlets, and honestly I am at that point of just not caring anymore. I know my depression is strong right now. I haven't been taking care of myself. I have no motivation currently to do so. A lot of this could be due to the weather, too cold to take walks, it could be the lack of things to do, or able to do due to a lack of funds. It could be the lack of sex, as both of our sex drives are shot due to his injuries. Whatever the case, i'm not in a good place right now. No, i'm not thinking suicidal thoughts, i'm still too angry to be at that point. I don't think i'll hit that point again honestly. This depression is more of an anger then a sadness. I am angry with life, with how we've been treated by his job, insurance companies, anyone who has slighted us, i'm just angry all the time, and I try to bury it to avoid conflict. 

Until I have more to say, or hopefully good news, i'll be around, watching, reading comics, silent, but never gone.

~Sapphira 

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Laura DeMontigny
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I am a 28 year old married woman who wants to take her art from "hobby" to an actual profession. I have also begun working more on Cosplay work then traditional media, and I will start posting more photos as those skills progress.

If you need to know more about me, my hobbies, work, or just need someone to talk to, just message me. I am friendly and always willing to help out others to the best of my abilities.
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SajjukKhar Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Did you see the moon tonight, it was awesome down here!
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SnowingRoses Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2019  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch! :D
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Zee-Stitch Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch!
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sapphire-blackrose Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Anytime!
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SajjukKhar Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2018  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
<.<
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*pokes*

*runs away*
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dastryin Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016
I saw that you was alive then vanished.  THE MISU MISSES THE DARKNESS.  In other news.  Looks like the married life is treating you well.  Ughhh WoW.  Ahh well I herd the new expansion injected some life into it.  Much needed QoL stuff added.  LIVE ZA GOOD LIFE WOMAN.  Live the good life.  Misu goes back into corner now.
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nybigblue44 Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
:D
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sapphire-blackrose Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
haha I warn ya now buddy, i've got some weird shit on here XD You'll really get to know who I was years back
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nybigblue44 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Not so wierd!! ive checked most of it aout! ^)^
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sapphire-blackrose Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
*so embarrassed* I haven't been drawing in a while. Just no motivation sadly U.U
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