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Breath in.....Boi
 [Spongebob Emote] breath in. boi. 

Hey guys,I am "back",how are ya all doing ?
I hope everyone is doing fine.since no one is gonna ask 
I am doing alright too even tho 2018 started out in a really messed up way possible because of Three main things.
It may sound personal but i am willing to share anyway cus why not.

My Big brother got into a nasty accident even tho the damage is minute his collar bone is broken.now he is doing great thankfully.

My dad had his first cardiac arrest,which sorta messed me up mentally too during that day.was alone at my home while my bro and my mom took care him in a high end hospital far away from my city for two days.had to put three studs on his heart and good news he is also doing great too...so I am really feeling much better now ^^.
 
and finally the day after my dad got his problem,two of my good friends dumped me without a reasonable explanation.I wanna vent about it but its alright.Its a long story and boring anyway so yeah.it sucked bad and good news is that i am trying to recover from all of these stress and move on.

Truth be told i want to chat with ya all,tho i understood most of my friends here are busy with their lives so it cant be bothered.

anyway.I am doing great and recovering.hope everyone here also doing alright too.take care
Happy holidays and Merry Christmas
Hope ya all enjoy your time,gift your friends,family and those close to you
and have a good one.
Hey,everyone.missed ya all I know its been months and the reason for that is because i am having several problems,mainly two.
one from my personal life and the other is from here

I am starting to work for my Dad in his shop for the past few months,It was stressful and tiring but I managed tho i didnt have any solid internet and the work space isnt good and today my dad closed the shop for good cus of several issues.Particularly Few weeks ago me and my bro got into a nasty car accident and that ends up breaking his collarbone.i am fine...thankfully and weirdly i dont have major injuries other than some headache and vision issues.nothing major.
now everything is fine.my bro got a plate in his shoulder that helps him to move around and me i am still having some tiny headache which i am gonna check later.That's why i could check up DA often


The other problem i am having is from DA itself because its doesnt feel like my home anymore.
This is gonna be long and its also kind me vent about stuff so read if you care.

back then when i first joined i used to think this is like the coolest site and Truth be told i joined here because i wanted to meet new people and make new friends and i did in fact.many friends if i remember.I also started to draw because this site isnt like FB or whatever hence i started drawing some stuff and my friends starts to like it,encoraging me to draw some OC's which back then i have no idea and by that i tried to expand myself.I started to my OC which based on my own emotions and fragments.people loved it..gave me so many postive vibes and encouragement.It was pure and i was happy back then

but eventually as i grow up i started to realized most of my friends i made are snakes,backstabbers.they used me and my OC's for their own gain and happiness and they started to talk behind my back.their lies and excuses,if i lash out they hurt me,if i dont they way they act hurts.I felt like i dont know what to do.eventually i choose to lash out..asked what's wrong with our relationship and that's where things goes upside down
I started losing friends.most started to neglect me,treat me like a stranger.forgotten my existence,they either started to raise their voice at me or start making excuses just to neglect me or ignore me..in the end I stopped.

I stopped making any more friends...I stopped watching people,I stopped drawing,Lost my motivation and eventually i am trying to stop visiting DA as it only shows me how much it hurted me rather than showing the good memories i had.you can call me whatever you want and i dont need any more pity or excuses...I only need people who actually understands and have honest feelings.I am not asking you talk to me every single day.I am asking you that everything you are doing for me,i want to know if you mean it.I dont wish or want you to waste your time just to talk with me.while i appreciate it,I just feel like i am the one who is dragging you down.

I still have some friends.Its not like i am gonna say i dont have any friends.I have a few and i can tell they are honest and kind and passionate just by the way of words they are using and most importantly they understood my feelings.they dont ignore me,neglect me nor make fake excuses.no matter how long it has been our relationship is still as clear as it always been which i am greatly thankful for.I must say they are also the reason why i am feeling a bit positive because they help me when i needed them.Hence Few friends is enough for me as they are making me smile which i am grateful 

Venting is over,thanks for listening and i am sorry if some of your guys feel disgusted by my words.I know some of you guys hate me for what i just said and i guess i deserve it cus part of some its also my fault too.

I am feeling like i wanna stay here but at the same time i feel like i dont.what do you guys think ?.
would you guys miss me if i leave DA ?,
should i make a new account and start over ?
or would you guys want to me stay and welcome me with open arm and motivate me to draw again...or would you guys want me to you alone cus you guys think i am hurting you ?
let me know whatever it is on your mind.I miss it actually.
Finished uncharted 4,The Last of us remastered and Infamous second son 
on my bro's friend's ps4....Beautiful experience.

I feel empty now..
Its friendship day here
so happy friendship day everyone.
hope ya all have a good day
Hey,everyone.missed ya all I know its been months and the reason for that is because i am having several problems,mainly two.
one from my personal life and the other is from here

I am starting to work for my Dad in his shop for the past few months,It was stressful and tiring but I managed tho i didnt have any solid internet and the work space isnt good and today my dad closed the shop for good cus of several issues.Particularly Few weeks ago me and my bro got into a nasty car accident and that ends up breaking his collarbone.i am fine...thankfully and weirdly i dont have major injuries other than some headache and vision issues.nothing major.
now everything is fine.my bro got a plate in his shoulder that helps him to move around and me i am still having some tiny headache which i am gonna check later.That's why i could check up DA often


The other problem i am having is from DA itself because its doesnt feel like my home anymore.
This is gonna be long and its also kind me vent about stuff so read if you care.

back then when i first joined i used to think this is like the coolest site and Truth be told i joined here because i wanted to meet new people and make new friends and i did in fact.many friends if i remember.I also started to draw because this site isnt like FB or whatever hence i started drawing some stuff and my friends starts to like it,encoraging me to draw some OC's which back then i have no idea and by that i tried to expand myself.I started to my OC which based on my own emotions and fragments.people loved it..gave me so many postive vibes and encouragement.It was pure and i was happy back then

but eventually as i grow up i started to realized most of my friends i made are snakes,backstabbers.they used me and my OC's for their own gain and happiness and they started to talk behind my back.their lies and excuses,if i lash out they hurt me,if i dont they way they act hurts.I felt like i dont know what to do.eventually i choose to lash out..asked what's wrong with our relationship and that's where things goes upside down
I started losing friends.most started to neglect me,treat me like a stranger.forgotten my existence,they either started to raise their voice at me or start making excuses just to neglect me or ignore me..in the end I stopped.

I stopped making any more friends...I stopped watching people,I stopped drawing,Lost my motivation and eventually i am trying to stop visiting DA as it only shows me how much it hurted me rather than showing the good memories i had.you can call me whatever you want and i dont need any more pity or excuses...I only need people who actually understands and have honest feelings.I am not asking you talk to me every single day.I am asking you that everything you are doing for me,i want to know if you mean it.I dont wish or want you to waste your time just to talk with me.while i appreciate it,I just feel like i am the one who is dragging you down.

I still have some friends.Its not like i am gonna say i dont have any friends.I have a few and i can tell they are honest and kind and passionate just by the way of words they are using and most importantly they understood my feelings.they dont ignore me,neglect me nor make fake excuses.no matter how long it has been our relationship is still as clear as it always been which i am greatly thankful for.I must say they are also the reason why i am feeling a bit positive because they help me when i needed them.Hence Few friends is enough for me as they are making me smile which i am grateful 

Venting is over,thanks for listening and i am sorry if some of your guys feel disgusted by my words.I know some of you guys hate me for what i just said and i guess i deserve it cus part of some its also my fault too.

I am feeling like i wanna stay here but at the same time i feel like i dont.what do you guys think ?.
would you guys miss me if i leave DA ?,
should i make a new account and start over ?
or would you guys want to me stay and welcome me with open arm and motivate me to draw again...or would you guys want me to you alone cus you guys think i am hurting you ?
let me know whatever it is on your mind.I miss it actually.

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SawuScimitar74 Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2018
Happy Birthday! :D
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IzIzIza Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday Sanjay! I hope you have a great day! :dance: :cake: :cookie:
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                                               Happy Birthday Cake (Animated) by Lacerem
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's April 6th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

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Happy birthday! Cake by Sinister-Starfeesh
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Thank  you very much for all the faves!! :iconmoesmileplz::iconletmehugyouplz:
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Sanjay--Jurt Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2017
No need to thank me.
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Hey
Long time no see
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Sanjay--Jurt Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2017
Oh Hey,yeah its been a while.
I wasn't active here much.
work and studies really putting a toll in my body,
so hardly i have no time to spend.
how are you ?
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