Decided to actually make a journal entry since 2012 this is just temporary entry, anyway but there are something I can no longer hold my tongue, I really sorry if this is going to annoy somebody but it is my journal I do have rights to express what is on my mind..there are a few deviants here that have gotten a lot negative energy that drains the life from me putting me in a bad place when it comes to relationship I understand people have a ton of problems but it is bring your psychical bad nature on someone ok I really don't know one deviant again forgive me for this but it needed be said from me...
> stated doesn't like being watched I never said a word how serious that was
> also easily gets mad
> Negetive thoughts leading me into thinking I should try to avoided this so I won't end up getting into trouble
Too me I thought deviantart was a good place to connect with someone since IRL I never can find anybody out here which dumps a whole alot of depression on me but I guess I am just wasting my time
Another problem I am having is my dad's sour salty adulated whenever, we got home yesterday it's always him complaining over a ridiculous thing yesterday it was plate that is missing I kept telling him that I don' t know what happen to it and I don't then he heads to his phone starts talking to his friend acting all nice and crap making me feel horrible and stuff when yet I have no one else to talk to with since it's only been me and my dad for the past three years..
So later at night starts what ing to talk to me ''later'' and I am like why can't we talk during I mean I try to make a conversation with him whether about food or something and all he told me was when we were at Home Depot was you can go sit in the car and listen to the radio I am just like why in the world would he tell me that, I don't understand I don't have alot of friends in this world instead I am stuck with people with miserable bad mood all the time
The only one I could even talk to is my counselor since she calls me, shes really not allowed to give students her number because you know relationship and whatnot
It like ''oh your only friend is a school counselor you talk'' to and everyone else is like ''don't care don't want to hear about your problems I am too busy with everything else I thought a friend was going to be there for someone when they need you I've seen other who are like that I honestly wish I had that instead of the crappy treatment I am getting right....