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I wanted to say yes.

I wanted to take your hand in mine and like a couple of idiots, run through the heavy traffic and pouring rain, and keep at it till our feet resign.
We'd find a tree with branches wide enough with leaves broad or plentiful enough to take shelter under, and there, you'd place your head on my lap as I'd sing you my favorite love song. The song I'd always wanted you to sing to me.


If only I hadn't found out the hard way that your feelings for me are but as thin as an onion's skin and that I could never accept and bow down to no matter how suave your courting style may be. If only I was stupider than what I really am- maybe then I would have reciprocated to your efforts all my yearning I've kept sealed tightly, maybe then we might have had a chance.

When I told you to make things clear and to stop teetering between the fringes of my hopes and dreams and the cruel loneliness that awaits, my blood was already thinning and I was gagging from my silent yet continually flowing tears.

It felt as if you were a criminal- a kidnapper with my child under your gun's command. It felt as if you were about to make your big escape along the borderline separating America and Mexico as I, the poor victim's mother- another victim as well in right and deed, pace and wail and rip my soul to shreds while waiting and dreading for news of your capture and the well-being of my child.

The minute you told me, so very nonchalantly, that you wanted me but still wanted to keep things easy, that I should slow down- I felt an avalanche coming down. My organs froze and I lost all the senses in the tips of my fingers and toes. I was buried under what felt like miles of endless bleakness as I just stood there- frostbitten.


I ignored you for longer than I could remember, but you haunted my days and nights nonetheless. You were never a kind creature, I confess, and I regret it all. But still. I wish I could have, for once, let go of all my restraint and fears and just put my trust in you like the fool my heart really is.

Because when I lie in bed at night, recalling the reason why I can never sleep enough or eat just right, I remember you and I, I remember how against my better judgement


I wanted to say yes.
A piece of prose pie :la:

Hope you guys enjoy the read! :eager:
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I WOULD SUPER LOVE TO SEE COMMENTS, THANK YOU!!:heart:
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Given 2013-04-29
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coconut-chutney Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2014  Student Artist
I absolutely adore your penmanship, or should I say penwomanship ;) 
I cried when I read this. I was filled half with the joy of reading something so well written and half with the sadness of the prose. 
Don't ever stop writing. And you should definitely publish! <3
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2015   General Artist
uber sorry for the late reply and thank you infinitely for your kind words! i am so glad to know that a piece of me was able to touch someone as deeply as it did you! thank you! :huggle: <3
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autumnlit Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2013
:blackrose: Your lovely poetry has been featured here: fav.me/d6ogtjc
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013   General Artist
ah, thank you ever so kindly, lovely soul! :huggle: <3
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amrgalal7 Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You rock :#1: and you deserve the DD, congratulations :happybounce: :clap:
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2013   General Artist
ack! :blush:

thank you so much, kind soul! :thanks:
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amrgalal7 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome :huggle:
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Venry Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013  Student General Artist

SO BEAUTIFUL :love:

 

Sorry for the late congrats.... But congrats on the well-deserved DD! :clap:

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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2013   General Artist
i'm so happy you like it! :love:

thank you so very kindly, dearest! :huggle:


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Venry Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013  Student General Artist
:glomp:
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saltwaterlungs Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
BRAVO FOR THE DD
it's much deserved, as this piece is perfect and poetic and hte wording (as it always is) was perfect. you're very talented, and i've come to appreciate your work more and more, as well as you as a person because you have taken to reply to every comment on here, even if there's thousands. you, my friend, are something else.
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013   General Artist
thank you so so much, you loveliest creature, you! :tighthug:
awwh, i'm so very happy and humbled and honored to have your high regard, darling ms. hannah.
people like you make me so very happy to be on dA and so in turn, i thank you for
being something special to me as well. :heart:
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saltwaterlungs Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Aw, no problem. And thank you :heart:
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2013   General Artist
but of course, you are such a sweet girl! :heart: :heart: :heart:
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introverted-ghost Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013   Writer
This has a real prosetry feel, to me.
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013   General Artist
yeah, i think so, too. :heart:
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introverted-ghost Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013   Writer
:)
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autumnlit Featured By Owner May 9, 2013
:clap: :love: Excellent and points well made. It does seem like at times in life, there are things that feel like they would have been easier if we hadn't known better, but there are things we just know better in and have to remind ourselves of that fact. :heart:
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner May 11, 2013   General Artist
Exactly the emotions I wanted to convey! Can I just say how blessed I am to have such a splendid friend in you? :love:
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autumnlit Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
:blowkiss:
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner May 27, 2013   General Artist
:tighthug:
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IyraEMM Featured By Owner May 8, 2013
This is so beautiful :') I love the imagery. This is exquisitely written, with just enough simplicity and heart-wrenching emotion. Congrats on the DD!! You're a stunning writer and really deserve it :heart:
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner May 8, 2013   General Artist
Golly, lady, you're just the sweetest, kindest thing ever, you know that? :tighthug:
Coming from a wonderful writer and a source of inspiration such as yourself, gives it an even deeper meaning! Thanks again, sweetheart! :love:
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IyraEMM Featured By Owner May 11, 2013
Awww :heart: you're very welcome :tighthug:
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner May 19, 2013   General Artist
:blowkiss:
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AWinterFuneral Featured By Owner May 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is an awesome writing! I don't know if it's because it seemed unique, or just because it seems like I can relate in so many ways, but this was definitely well written. Very evoking and creative.
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner May 4, 2013   General Artist
Awwh, thank you ever so kindly, lovely person! I'm to hear you've enjoyed the read! :huggle:
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AWinterFuneral Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
So where are you from? :)
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner May 6, 2013   General Artist
from the internet, silly :la:
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tonepainter Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Congrats on the DD!!!!!! I'm so happy for you! :D:D:D:D
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2013   General Artist
Thank you so very much, dearest friend! You are so sweet! :cuddle: :heart:
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Yosh-chan Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
My favorite part is "-and just put my trust in you like the fool my heart really is."
And I can't help put to think that there might me some truth to this text - like it really happened - is there? 'Cos it's really well written. ^^
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2013   General Artist
awwh, thank you. :heart:
what is part fiction if not a tad of truth i always say. :giggle:
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Yosh-chan Featured By Owner May 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I like that ..It's nice to think that when something bad happends, nice things come out of it - when you're a writer, artist, musician etc. Your work seems better. =) What an exellent way to open a new door. I salute you. x3
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner May 6, 2013   General Artist
thank you so very kindly, sweetie! :hug:
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Yosh-chan Featured By Owner May 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem! :tighthug:
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner May 13, 2013   General Artist
:huggle:
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UnrequitedStarlight Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Student General Artist
OH. MY. GOSH. THAT WAS SO GOOD I HAVE NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE IT.
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2013   General Artist
EEP. :squee:
THANK YOU SO SO MUCH, SWEETEST SOUL. :tighthug:
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Jade-Pandora Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013
Sooo much to relate to in this lovely piece, Dee! :heart:
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2013   General Artist
Thank you dearly, finest jade! :tighthug:
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SortofAlive Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
"We'd find a tree with branches wide enough with leaves broad or plentiful enough to take shelter under, and there, you'd place your head on my lap as I'd sing you my favorite love song. The song I'd always wanted you to sing to me."
I love this. This is gold right here. I know that feeling all too well.
My boy doesn't sing much though. :D
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2013   General Artist
awwh, i'm so very happy for you. :heart:
thank you for taking the time to read and comment, sugar! :cuddle:
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SortofAlive Featured By Owner May 2, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Heh Thank you :)
And it's not a problem! It was a great read :D
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner May 6, 2013   General Artist
you're so sweet! thanks again! :heart:
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Vivi-kiramaru-sama19 Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Beautiful and well-written! I love the "feet resign" line as it really hooked me in. I also liked the onion simile~ Congrats on the DD
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2013   General Artist
golly! :love:
thank you ever so kindly you sweet, sweet creature! :huggle:
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keykeyx10000 Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I think in some way, we can all relate to disillusionment. This was beautiful; I almost cried.
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2013   General Artist
that is so very true. once hasn't lived till they've experience it, lol. thank you so very much. :tighthug:
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Rosella-of-Daventry Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I understand the feeling, but I feel it's better not to say "yes" when there's doubt!
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