This is the last straw for me

I'm usually not active on this website anymore, but I needed to tell you all something.

I wanna cut ties with my Dad forever.

Yes, I know I posted this status yesterday, but please hear me out:

 https://www.deviantart.com/sakuraofchaos/status-update/20771856

My Mom has changed for the better. My sister as well. My Dad on the other hand, he's still the same asshole he is. Last night, he tried to play on the PlayStation as it was his, but Mom just asked him to stop. He shouted at her and argued with her. He had a huge adult temper tantrum and had so many fits.

You wanna know what happened this morning? He made Mom cry so hard because of how he treated her. And she is sick to her stomach. My sister tried to stand up to her but he said something along the lines of this:

"Fuck you bitch! Get the fuck out of here! Fuck you!"

These arguments have gotten so bad that he made Mom cry and he's shouting at her so much. I've been crying so hard because of how he treated her.

It's gotten so bad that I've deleted him from my contacts.

I can't bring myself to talk to him. For nearly 21 years, he has been emotionally and physically abusive to me. He has thrown things at me, he has hurt me physically. He has hurt my siblings and my dogs. He has talked bad about my dogs a lot. He has tried to physically assault my sister and brothers. Sometimes, he was successful. Other times, he has stopped himself. He has sworn at them and he has sworn at me. He doesn't even give a shit about my autism. And worst of all, he has called me "fat, selfish, stupid, ugly, etc." And because of him, I don't wanna be a parent.

I'm really jealous of anyone who has a good Dad. This man who I look up to, for instance, had a great father:

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtVBJu3-Q2s&list=PLUQuu7V3SKNP4GWEtxllEnimhc95V6GKk&index=1050

And me, I'm stuck with a piece of shit. I'm scared of living here. I'm emotionally and mentally weak because of him.

I feel like I'm ready to move out and live with another relative, such as my kind aunt who lives in Atlanta, Georgia. Or my cousins and uncle in South Korea. Or even try to become an independent person. Or at least semi-independent because I wanna live close to my family so my Mom can drive me places. Both of those relatives are on my Mom's side because most, if not all, of the family members on my Dad's side are just as homophobic and bigoted as he is.

If not possible, I could try and find a friend who lives here to take me in.

Maybe I could at least convince my Mom to divorce him. It's too painful for me. But on the other hand, I have so many things I wanna do with Mom. She told me she wants to take me to vacation to San Diego or Phoenix, but it's too painful to stay.

I'm so scared. I'm heartbroken. I hate it here. I know I shouldn't and it's just an argument to them but it's a huge lifetime change for me. I wanna get a job or something, but I don't know where to start. I don't know which jobs are more accepting of goths. I've had to fight to be one for years and I don't wanna give it up. It's too much of a pain for me. I tried giving it up before, but it felt as a part of me had been stripped away. It didn't feel like the real me.

I've been looking online for ideas, but I'm still not sure. I wanna learn to be independent. I would like to have disability benefits for whatever state or country I choose to live in since the food I but is expensive and it would be nice to have the state pay for it. I'm broken and scared. I hate it. I need a better place to live in.  Away from him.