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I'm only semi active on this site now, but I really need some help. :(
My family left for a trip to their friends' house and left me behind with Dad and Finn. The worst thing about it is that last night, I actually asked Mom for a divorce with him but she never replied. If you wanna know why it's because he shouted at my brothers over a video game and swore at me yesterday. Both of which made me cry. And apparently, Mom got so mad at him and said he was acting like Satan. She said she didn't wanna leave me home with Dad but did so anyway because he apologized. Yet he's still acting the same. I hate it here and I'm ready to hurt myself.
I've tried calling my aunt but she didn't respond because it was so late at night.
I really could use some help to get the fuck out of here. It's like I'm a bird trapped in a cage. And quarantine has made it 10x worse.
I might remove my core eventually
Mainly around the middle of the year. Some time around May-August Maybe even earlier. And for the record, this has EVERYTHING to do with the genocide going on in Palestine. The least I could do is at least try to buy one with only shards once I get enough.
If you know the context, I am still having to buy stuff from Amazon, Microsoft, Walmart (though not so often anymore due to inflation), and Google due to grocery and personal reasons. I am also keeping my DA because of my fan base on here. The majority of people in my fan base seem to not have a core either. I guess it's no different from using Twitter and not having Twitter Blue. The problem is that they have all supported Isra-hell. It's literally Palestine in the bible and not that other country. I am at least hoping to get rid of one thing money wise that does support Isra-hell. And it might be DA.
That aside, IDK how many shards you need to purchase a core membership.
Well, I might consider leaving DA
I was wondering if 2022 or 2023 could be my last year on DA as well. But IDK.
I am not 100% sure but this whole AI thing is a bunch of BS. Sure, it's nice that opt out is the default now, but this still feels really uncalled for. One of my friends on Tumblr and Twitter deleted her old DA account she hasn't used since 2013 because of that. Also, I am gonna see if I can update a chapter of CotWR and such every day. As in change the formatting. I have been working on this manga since 2014 and I am needing to get it done eventually. And some parts of it didn't age too well. It will eventually become a blank state until @Khataclysm can finish it. I might just use DA for that and my ALB3 webcomic when I make it along with other things.
I might end up trying Inkblot because of this. I am also gonna move to these sites if I can:
Tumblr (please follow Chaoticcherryblossombear on Tumblr)
Twitter (@Sakuraofchaos)
Pixiv (for FGO and Genshin artwork mainly, a lot of which will be translated
Why I left the FGO subreddit + Reddit overall
Okay, but let me tell you some things. I am deciding to write a Twitter thread and a journal apologizing for some of my past behavior on there. It was shitty. I didn't act right when it came to my LB3 rewrite/ fix it fic and have to apologize for that. I don't like how LB3 handled everything really and I feel like the characterization from the majority of the characters was the worst. At this point, I am writing something like that out of disappointment because I really like the idea of what it COULD'VE BEEN if they focused on characters who should've been more important. And today is world mental health day and I am wanting to overcome my problems related to stuff like fanfics, fan art, etc. and such that people should enjoy if it weren't for the fandom police. I did talk to @Yuagiin about a lot of things and we did need to come to an agreement on how I do believe I need to apologize for some things, but I have my own reasons to not like this Reddit. Anyway, let me get to my ranting
Maybe I might come back soon
TBH, I don't really like having to come back, but there aren't any other alternatives. Twitter isn't really good for artwork outside of fan art. The main problem is the fact that my main fandom is FGO and not many of my fans play the game.
TBH, I am considering cutting and dying my hair and becoming a VTuber as well to earn money. And I didn't wanna let my fan base down when they find out I'm a VTuber and such. I am mainly gonna do it for money for animation purposes and the Fate and Genshin related stuff for my own personal games.
That being said though, Tumblr and Twitter are both toxic and full of SJWs (more of the latter than the former since the former feels kinda dead). But DA isn't any less toxic as this is an anti SJW safe space and some people have really cringe inducing fetishes. The main problem in my opinion is Eclipse. It sucks. Unfortunately, DA is just like YouTube in which things are gonna get worse from now on but there aren't any better alternatives to compete with.
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I'm very sorry for your situation,
I apologize for not being able to help you.