Time to get real, folks...
As you guys know, I'm nowhere near perfect. I make mistakes, and one of those mistakes is that I sometimes take on more projects than I can handle. Now, this is no fault of the people who ask of me to draw things for them. I could've said "no" at any time, but I chose to take up certain tasks without knowing if I was able to follow through with them. That being said, I've come to realize that with my pursuit for work in the real world and validation in the virtual world, I have an upper limit to what I can and cannot do. This is why in the latest "State of the Artist" you may have noticed that I dropped the "Comic Project" I've had posted in there for quite some time.
Currently, I'm in the midst of organizing things in order of priority in my life, and I noticed that I have to drop certain things for one reason or another that I'll not burden you all with. That comic, unfortunately, was one of them. I originally accepted it in the beginning because, at the time, I thought I had the free time and will power to accept something like it, and it'd be a good exercise for me since I never drafted a comic in my life so far, outside of some sketches I made in kindergarten. Eventually, problems arose that prevented me from working on it, and even though I overcame those problems, other things in my life came crashing down to the point where I started becoming depressed. To be honest, I feel like I still am, though I'm doing what I can to try and combat it.
At any rate, because I felt like I couldn't deliver on that promise, and I was literally creating excuses so I didn't have to work on it (it was a free request, by the way), I decided to let the requester know (I'm not going to put their name out there, so don't ask) that I wasn't going to work on it anymore. Needless to say, they didn't take to well to the idea, especially having them wait a year's+ time for an update, despite whatever happened. To me, it wasn't fair to keep them waiting on it, especially since I had lost the will to continue working on it, so I'm in the process of dealing with that. As expected, it's not going well, but I feel like I brought most of that on myself. Still, I have to draw the line when I can't proceed any further, otherwise I'll end up hating doing one of the few things in life that brings me some joy, and deal with the consequences of my actions as they come.
Just wanted to get that off my chest, and be transparent with you guys. I feel the situation is going to spiral in some direction I don't want it to, so I wanted you all to hear it from me first in case this goes much further south.