Who Is Rose To Me? Well, in essence, she's me, but better. Put simply, of course. But let's go into more detail.
I'm reserved, quiet, and boring with no confidence. I hate talking, even to my own friends and family.
Rose on the other hand, isn't apprehensive like me. However, I don't believe she would be classified as 'confident' either, really. She's more in the 'I don't give a fuck about anyone or anything' category, and less 'I really think I can do this!'. You start a conversation with her? She jumps in. No questions asked. She starts a conversation with you? It's not awkward or clunky... Like it is with me, in real life. But it might not be considered particularly friendly either, maybe. It certainly wouldn't be considered rude or unkind, though.
Rose: *Walks up*
Stranger: *Looks up, mildly surprised*
"Oh, hi. What's up?"
"Not much. I just wanna know where the ____ is."
See what I mean? And that's just one tiny example. See how calm she was? How she cut right to the chase, but not in a rushed way? That's what I don't have, but wish I did. I know this might not show much, but I can assure you, that I am way bad when dealing with people.
I wish I could be cool as a cucumber; know how to talk to people in a normal, natural way that isn't off-putting. But I can't do that. I'm an awkward freak. I SUCK at talking to people. But Rose is totally cool with it on most occasions, though she really doesn't like doing it - just like me. But unlike me, she can compose herself, and speak in such a way that people aren't put off and don't wanna listen.
Aside from just generally knowing how to compose herself, she's also clever and funny, and is willing to make jokes and say things that even I wouldn't. And in real life, I'm known for being blunt. But my character, Rose, takes that aspect of me to a whole new level. She doesn't give a shit; not a single stray fuck in the world about what people think of her. She wants to tell an offensive joke in front of a whole gaggle of people? She'll do it. She wants to walk up to a stranger and give them a rather saucy compliment? She'll do that. Anything and everything that I am too afraid to say to people, she can say. Even in moments where talking is the last thing on her mind to do, she is capable of doing so. It may even be more taxing for her to do than me, because that would mean that she can put on a better act than me; a fantastic poker face. She doesn't like lying, but if she knows that she needs to deliver a joke or compliment with confidence, solely so that it can land, she'll at least put on as nice of a smile as she can to do it with. Because I, in real life, like to make people laugh, and I even use comedy and jokes as a coping mechanism for my Depression. I just wish I had the confidence to do it right.
Anyway - moving away from the doom and gloom before it starts, I also feel like she would be... At least a little more attractive than me. But just a little. Like, I am for sure overweight. By quite a few pounds. But the thing is... I do not wear it well. At all. It's all in my belly and thighs, and nowhere else. Arms, legs and face? Healthy lookin. Anything other than those? Obese beluga whale covered in stretch marks. And probably because of the extra fat, I sweat far more than I should, even under very mild circumstances. I don't even have to do much physical activity to start sweating enough for a whole active football team's worth of dudes. It's awful.
I have a big-ass nose, too. You know that weird oblong triangle shape you get when you cut a square from corner to corner? That's basically my nose, except with bumps.
I also have crooked teeth and an overbite.
I've got really frizzy, thick, fluffy hair that's REALLY annoying. It comes with chronic dandruff, too. I got snowy peaks in the summer, then. Oh yeah, I got fatass fuzzy caterpillar eyebrows too.
Rose, however, is chubby in a curvaceous way, and not in a way that makes her look like she has a body type that resembles an over-sized mutant pear with toothpicks for limbs. Like I do.
Her eyebrows also don't look like she was born without them and had to loosely tape butchered gorilla hair in place of eyebrows like mine do. So there's that.
Her nose doesn't resemble that of Louis Griffin, but instead is properly proportioned, like I wish mine was. Her hair is a lot thinner than mine, as well. But it's still a little frizzy and fluffy, but it doesn't look like she shaved a coked up black sheep and stuck the wool on her head. Like mine does. She does share my sharp canines and crooked pinkies, though.
Why did I write this? Well, I got really bored. This whole not drawing thing has made me think about doing other things. Like writing, for instance. But even though I wanna write some stuff, I can never find the drive to try. I get full of anxiety every time I think about writing.
I've really thought about writing more stories with Rose, Mary, Star, Synthia, Lily, and maybe even Taylor. I just haven't had any ideas. But I fear that even if I had any, I wouldn't be able to bring myself to write them out of fear of it being shit. I still haven't gotten over that part of me, yet. You know, where I don't do anything out of fear of being awful. Even though my logical brain knows that people always suck at doing shit that they... Y'know... Never do? Lol.