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Dreams of the past, present and future
Regrets of the days that have passed without permission
The past and present are filled with white powder
A seemingly innocent substance that changes lives
One moment compromises everything
The slip of a foot and missing of a pedal
The spinning without control
Lives flashing before everyone's eyes
Regaining control is difficult
The one in the driver's seat is lucky
The car stops without causing a wreck
No one was wounded
Relief encompasses the soul as she turns around
A smile creeps across her face
Her love and meaning for living
Remains asleep in her car seat
The unforeseen future welcomes clarity
Vigilance will be forever present

The cold wind blows through the auburn hairs covering the neck of a young woman dressed completely in black as she walks down the long and lonely road. Her knee length skirt flows in the wind and her legs underneath show the goose bumps of early winter in the Midwest. As she walks, her heels click with the harshness that is determination in the heart of loss and grief.
Walking down the small town streets, she is thinking about the world as a whole. There was once a time when everything seemed to make sense. There were people that made this life worth living and even made it enjoyable. She wishes that she were not heading to this place, but instead to the house where her childhood still lives. Fighting back the tears, she continues on her path. In her hands, she is carrying a blue iris tied with a single red ribbon. As a tear runs down her cheek, she wipes it away with her gloved hand.
After walking many blocks, she stops in front of her destination, which is definitely not the farm hou

Twenty-three years of observing all kinds of mothers,
from the overprotective to the negligent,
from the nurturing to the harsh.
Nothing prepared me for the mother I am or will be.
It wasn't until my little one was born that I realized,
there is more to it than I ever expected.
Granted I had lessons over the years,
however it wasn't something I paid attention to at the time.
Look at me now and you couldn't tell,
a couple years ago I didn't want children.
Back then I was happy being half of a couple,
Things change.
It's life's curve-balls that keeps it interesting,
they keep even the most prepared on their toes.
Things happen for a reason they say,
No matter what it may be.
I'm glad my life changed,
I feel like I'm becoming a better person.
A wiser, happier and more perceptive woman,
able to do what it takes.