Dreams of the past, present and future Regrets of the days that have passed without permission The past and present are filled with white powder A seemingly innocent substance that changes lives One moment compromises everything The slip of a foot and missing of a pedal The spinning without control Lives flashing before everyone's eyes Regaining control is difficult The one in the driver's seat is lucky The car stops without causing a wreck No one was wounded Relief encompasses the soul as she turns around A smile creeps across her face Her love and meaning for living Remains asleep in her car seat The unforeseen future welcom

The cold wind blows through the auburn hairs covering the neck of a young woman dressed completely in black as she walks down the long and lonely road. Her knee length skirt flows in the wind and her legs underneath show the goose bumps of early winter in the Midwest. As she walks, her heels click with the harshness that is determination in the heart of loss and grief. Walking down the small town streets, she is thinking about the world as a whole. There was once a time when everything seemed to make sense. There were people that made this life worth living and even made it enjoyable. She wishes that she were not heading to this place, but i

Twenty-three years of observing all kinds of mothers, from the overprotective to the negligent, from the nurturing to the harsh. Nothing prepared me for the mother I am or will be. It wasn't until my little one was born that I realized, there is more to it than I ever expected. Granted I had lessons over the years, however it wasn't something I paid attention to at the time. Look at me now and you couldn't tell, a couple years ago I didn't want children. Back then I was happy being half of a couple, Things change. It's life's curve-balls that keeps it interesting, they keep even the most prepared on their toes. Things happen fo