I Don't Want To
"Ooh, thanks for the Kohl's Gift Card!"
"No problem! I thought you could use it for college!"
Sticks it back in case,
Forces a smile.
I don't want to use it for that.
"Your teacher agreed with us, you shouldn't come home every weekend."
Swallows in a gulp,
I don't want to stay there.
"Look! There's my buddy!" .. "She was talking to somebody else so she didn't see me."
Movement isn't a friend anymore,
Looking at the ground.
I don't want to be unnoticed.
"Hey! Let's go do something!"
Conversations do not include me,
But I'm right there.
I don't want to be left out.
Laughing. Attention of everyone.
Friends with everyone.
Tears prick the eyes,
threatening to spill.
I don't want to be me.
Hurtful words are said. Hearts are broken.
Black surrounds the corners,
and the mind is blank.
I don't want to hurt.
"Are you going to live with us for ever?"
Guilt courses throug